Muscles Long Forgotten... Now Found Again... :P

For the first time in about 10 years, I actually feel the existance of my lower back muscles. Sylvia McCully used to make us do back hyper-extensions on the floor during ballet classes and I haven't actually done anything like that since I quit dancing.

Until yesterday that is.

Yesterday Shane had me do upper body weights again. Chest presses and assisted chin-ups.. The usual stuff... THEN!! He made me do back lifts. Errr.. Kinda like sit-ups except you do it in reverse, with your back muscles rather than your abs. KAOZ!!! Fantastic I tell you. My lower back has re-introduced itself to me. Erp..

I need a new skin... Got to update my links anyhow... A lot of pple's blogs that I haven't connected yet...

First Compliment!!

Went for coffee with Danny today. Haven't seen him for a while and it was nice to see him again after so long. Still quite a nice guy. Found out that Nick (from ACJC drama) is going to be taking part in Singapore Idol. Wahahaha.. This should be interesting.

Bumped into Isaac and Jean!! And they say that I've lost a lot of weight since they last saw me!! Yay!! So happy!! ^_^ Fight on!! Went on the scale and so far I've seen about a 1kg loss in weight since I joined the gym (2,3 weeks ago?). 9kg more to go!! Let the countdown begin!!

Hooot!!!!!! ^_^

Argh

Argh.

My arms are sore. S-O-R-E with a capital S. While we didn't do sit-ups (for which I am eternally grateful) we did shoulder exercises with weights. My triceps are busy having a private rebellion now and my biceps are on strike. Chest and back muscles are busy being spoilt too. *grumble*

But it's all for a greater good I guess. I just signed on for another course of 25 sessions. It's going to be tough. Hope I can survive through it all without much trouble. I forsee much internal conflict in the future when it gets too painful. I MUST PERSERVERE!!! And for $2K I'd BETTER GO ON... Maybe I should go and find my own personal cheerleader team... Any volunteers? :P

Meeting Danny for coffee tomorrow! Yay!! Haven't seen him for yonks!!

PUSS!!! In Boots. ;D

Hehehehehe.... Went to watch Shrek 2 with Felie and Cheryl today. It was damn farnee!! Four of us (their friend, Daniel was there too) were laughing at every single thing that showed up! The attention to detail was fantastic!! Like FarBucks Coffee. Hehehehe... I LOVE PUSS!!! He's SOOOOOOO cute!!!!!!!!! Wahahahah!!! And the giant gingerbread man, Mango was sweet too!! And of course there were the usual digs at Disney animations. Like the little mermaid. Hir hir hir...

It was a great way to end the day. We were helping Felie and Cheryl move into their new place today. Zeebee and Donikon came to help as well, though they didn't stay for the movie. We finished relatively fast. We started moving out of the old place around... hmm... 2.30pm, 3? And we were done by about 5!! Their new place is quite nice. It's on the 22nd floor and the master bedroom's got a really nice view. Of course my arms were aching after that. I can't raise them up to shoulder level without feeling the ache. Which is good!! It means I've really worked out.

Oh right!! I forgot to blog yesterday. Had my second session with Shane yesterday and we did upper body exercises. Bench presses (4 sets. Nearly died.) and chin-ups (this with a machine that actually assists you... quite cool really.. AC gym had one like it.) mainly. And for about 30min after that I couldn't quite feel my arms, but the ache only really set in this morning when I woke up. Last free trial session is tomorrow, after which I'll probably sign up for another course of 20 sessions. Hope he doesn't make me do sit-ups tomorrow. I HATE DOING SIT-UPS!! Crunches are alrite. I can do crunches. NO SIT-UPS!!!!!!!! I'll raise bloody hell if he does... Grrrr....

I'm A Survivor!!!

My legs are numb.

Or rather I should say that my thighs are numb. I could barely walk up the stairs just now. But I'm HAPPY!! I had my first personal trainer session today. Trainer's name is Shane and he's cool. I actually felt like I worked out today. Heheh.. For once. Instead of forever running on the treadmill like some crazed hamster. Of course then I had flamenco class (which I just came back from) and I nearly keeled over when we did the Saludo, coz my legs threatened to give way. But now I'm back in my room, after surviving an arduous trek up the stairs and feeling quite proud of myself, thank you very much.

I will survive!! The scales are moving!! Go Siew Mai Go!!!

Progress...

Ah-Ha!!! I have progress. I went onto the scales the other day at the gym and noticed a half kg shift!! We have movement people!!! Ok fine. So 500g isn't exactly very world shaking but it means that all this gym is doing something!!! ONWARD MARCH!!! I have just signed up for the 3 complimentary private trainer sessions. Maybe will continue for another course of 10 sessions after that. The aim people, is to lose 10kg by the time school re-opens. *makes fist in the air* Oosh! I'm talking about a hotter siew mai in NUS and KR guys. I need all the help and encouragement I can get.

As for the Japanese... er.. I'm... still working on that... :P

Holiday Aims

Right then. Here is a list of what my plans for this holiday will be...

1. Lose Weight. Shape up. Action Taken: Joined Fitness First. Considering taking on a personal trainer at extra cost.
2. Rearrange my room Action Taken: Cleaned up my bookshelves. Further unpacking and rearranging pending. :P
3. Get a funky haircut Action Taken: Have an appointment with Pukey's friend at 2pm. Hehehehe...
4. Brush up on Japanese Action Taken: erm...
5. Read more. Watch cable less. Action Taken: *cough*
6. Find a tree that grows money. Action Taken: Search still in progress
7. Feminise myself Action Taken: Bought one skirt which I will probably never wear
8. Pick up drawing again
9. Prepare to become KR Culture Queen *evil laughter* Action Taken: Taking flamenco classes at Dance Circle
10. Catch up with friends long ignored Action Taken: So far hung out with Jemalelinh, Pukey and Sharon (inclusive of boyfriend). More similar outings in planning.

2nd Week of Holidays

Ack!! One week gone already!! AHHH!!! Time is slipping through my fingers. I'm only half-unpacked... Eep!

Hmmm...

Okok... Am over the irritation that was just now. But I'm still not going to encourage 'boyfriend-ness'. Troublesome little buggers they are. They're like... pets.. cats I would say. They require taking care of then totally ignore the trouble you put in for them. Hmm... Or maybe I'm just anti-guy in general...

Reminder to Self: Never Get Attached

This is NO offence to boyfriends of the world or to my friends who are attached. But at this point of time, I'm going to swear off getting attached. If it means spending every free moment I have with a 'HIM' and neglecting my friends, I'd rather NOT have a 'HIM'.

Yeah.. I'm just ranting. I'll be ok after today.

Back to the ranting. I've come to the conclusion that 'Boyfriends' is actually a kind of disease. They render a person helpless, take a significant amount of time to recover from, require the afflicted the person to give a lot of attention to or it gets worse and when a person has caught the disease, you hardly see that person... presumably because the disease has gotten the better of that person.

Is it SO wrong to ask for a day out with the girls without a 'HIM' coming into the picture?

ok... I shall stop ranting now before a million people come and murder me... or rather.. Before someone comes and glares at me a million times, then killing me just as many times.

Kill Bill Vol.2 Anyone?

Thursday. Moved back almost a week now and it's been the most stress-free week of my entire 2nd year. Sleeping in the wee-hours of the morning, waking up only when the sun is out and shining, wasting time and playing on my computer and... eh.. wait.. that sounds exactly like what I do in hall...

*ahem* in any case... Moved back 6 days now and I still haven't unpacked. Whahaha... All I've done so far is set up my laptop, my radio and my dustbin. My clothes are still in 3 separate bags in my room and the rest of my hall room is downstairs in the piano room. Think by the time I unpack it'll be time to move back to hall.

Waiting for 6.30pm to come so I can toodle off to my flamenco class in Queensway. It's quite a fun class. Maybe I should continue with it, and join some more dance classes. Hehehe... My goal is to be in all 6 culture groups next year. Title of Culture Queen is MINE!!! Muahahahah!!!

Wee Liam just msged me to tell me that they've now got OTHER arrangements for scriptwriter and thanked me for considering the position. Hooray!! Dun have to work with that poser E anymore. Shall not say names although it's obvious enough already. HA!! And now I can enjoy my hols with absolutely NO WORRIES at all!! Except maybe looking for a job. Hmmm... A bit sad though, coz initially I had planned to be a Production-Kia throughout my years in KR. E spoilt it all I say.. Ok... So I'm not being very professional about it but hey!! It's my last chance to be totally naive and childish and immature. So there!

Still haven't watched Kill Bill yet. I wanna watch... Any takers?? I wanna go to the LOTR exhibition too!! Jemalelinh!! Let's go!!! FWOCers!! Let's have another gathering!! *bawl*

My Less-Than-Ordinary Birthday

Happy Birthday to Me....
I am now officially 21. My birthday came and went on Monday 26th April and it couldn't have been a more... NORMAL day. The day went something like this: I wake up, read a book, have lunch, go back to KR, clean the 7th floor pantry, lock up all the pantries, return the key to office, go home, have dinner, watch tv, sleep.
How spectacular eh.

To make up for it, Pukey and I were s'posed to watch Kill Bill Vol.2 at 11.45am the next day and have lunch with Sharon and Weihan. We both woke up at 11am. Hahahaha.. So we skipped the movie and just had lunch with Sharon and Weihan and roamed all over Orchard. Sharon unsuccessfully tried to make me spend more than the $18 I spent on the Terry Prachett book. Heh. It was a fun time. REALLY!!

It's just that, I kinda imagined that my 21st birthday would be something more y'know. Everyone else seems to be making such a big deal out of theirs. There wasn't even a cupcake in sight. I guess it couldn't be helped. The exams had just ended and I was busy moving out of hall and making sure people didn't put their things in the wrong pantry. Didn't really have time to organize any kind of party and now that it's over, there isn't really much point in organizing anything. Oh well. I guess in the end it's just another day. No point making a big deal out of it right?

But you know what really takes the cake? On Monday, after I came home from locking up the pantries, I find out from my mother that Uncle Bing, my grandpa's youngest brother, died in a scuba-diving accident earlier that day. Mum drove up to Johor on Tuesday to try and get a flight over to Kuching. I would've gone as well, only I had no idea when she was planning to go and she decided not to call me back home while I was out gallavanting in Orchard Road. I could just knock myself silly.

Imagine. My future birthdays will also be my Uncle Bing's death anniversary. How exciting.

Moving Out... Moving Home...

haaa....

time to move out.. last day of stay in KR for this academic year. i'm all packed and ready to go!! except i can't go yet coz my parents aren't here yet... hence i'm writing in my long neglected blog. haha..

feeling much better after that short bout of depression... maybe it was just exam stress.. i don't know. but i'm really looking forward to the hols, hot as it is... i wanna watch KILL BILL VOL. 2!!!!!!!! it's been yonks since i last watched a movie on the big screen. i feel so deprived. SHOPPING!! must go shopping... even if i don't need anymore nonsense. shopping is therapeutic. HA!! must go!

so HOOTTTTT!!! where did the rain and the cool winds run away too???

shall attempt calling my dad again... sigh... where are they.... anyhow i need to come back for a while tonight to clean the kitchen... sigh.... irk

Siew Mai Steaming... Steaming... Ste... DRIED OUT LIAO!!! SHRIVELLED!!!

*ahem*
Once again, my first post in a million years.

Exams are nearly over. My last paper is silly Lim B.C.'s one tomorrow and here I am NOT studying. HA! Writing blogs instead. Technically speaking I should be glad that everything's going to end I guess. But I'm not. Instead, I'm feeling extremely EXTREMELY tired. I just wanna go home, hide, be ALONE!! Hang out with a couple of my closer friends, do what I want to do and... I'm sorry to say this, especially when some hall people read this blog... I want to hear nothing.. NOTHING about hall. Oh GOOD GRIEF!! Just for a month, a week, JUST ONE DAY!!! For just one. FREAKIN. DAY. I don't want to be blockhead. I don't wanna hear who's stealing food, who's messing up the kitchen, the toilet, who's neighbour is making too much noise, who's neighbour is too smelly for words. Just ONE DAY. Shit man. I know it's totally irresponsible to think like that, even more so to put it down on black and white that's public to every single eye. I'm so sorry but I'm really really tired.

I know I've probably disappointed about a thousand people with that outbreak, and I'm so sorry. God knows how sorry I am to have to disappoint all of you but I'm really not that strong. I'm not as tough as you'd like to believe. Or rather, as I've lead you to believe. I'm weak. So damned weak. I'm so sorry.

Now I'm even letting people walk all over me. I hate it and yet I don't want to do anything about it. They seem to be doing a good job of being in charge. Once again, irresponsible to think so. My term hasn't even ended and everyone's just rushing to take over the job. So ironic. I was always the kind who wants to be in charge, usually am. Now, people taking over me, whether I like it or not. But I really don't have the will power to fight back.

Dunno why, but one person who reads this blog that I feel to have let down utterly... Ms o8ight, admittedly, we're not as close as we should be considering the shit we went through together as FWOCers, and despite the fact that I was your "angel". Yet, of all the people who read this blog and really, of all the people who supported me initially, I somehow feel like I've let you down the most. And (ok.. I guess everyone is sick and tired of hearing me say this but...) I'm sorry. I tried but I couldn't stop tripping over everything. Guess I was never really made out to be blockhead after all.

I'm no leader. I'm a schmuck.

Lost & Found Blogger

I realize that I haven't posted a single thing for the longest time. Oops... Been busy. This period is... madness..

Exams!!! First paper on Wednesday!!! AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGHHH!!! Somebody shoot me. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

I have found the 1982 release of "The Last Unicorn"!! *does a little dance* Check out this fan-page: http://utd500.utdallas.edu/~hairston/lastunicorn.html Really quite comprehensive.

Now for some popcorn...

Farewell Ceremony

That's the title for episode 25 of Fullmetal Alchemist which I just watched. It was one of the most beautiful episodes of the series ever. The absolute sadness, and the feeling of a good life wasted for various reasons that comes across is amazing. When the episode ended I sat staring at my computer screen for the longest time ever. I couldn't believe it.

What happened? I shouldn't spoil it for anyone (though I think the people who read my blog don't watch FMA) so I shall not say much. I will say that one of the main characters was killed in this episode. There've been deaths before of course. But this was a really significant one, in my opinion. I was totally shocked!! At first, when it showed him gracefully falling to the ground after being shot (HA!! BIG spoiler), I thought, "Ack! Is he going to die? Nah... He's one of the more important ones, they'll probably show him happy and recovering in the hospital at the end of the ep or during the next episode." They did that flashback thing, where they showed that ONE significant memory in his life. So I thought I was right about the cliche.

Next thing I knew, the scene was a funeral. Yet even then I thought, "Heh... Must be for someone else. It's only one of those passing scenes to scare the audience." I was wrong.

Don't know why, but after watching that episode, I suddenly felt like writing. Not just to write my feelings about the ep, but also because the episode made me think. The title was eerily fitting. Throughout your life, people will just appear in front of you, then they'll leave, and maybe they'll come back again. Happens so often that sometimes you start to take everyone in your life for granted, even the coming and going. You start to assume that sooner or later, you'll see everyone at some point again. Then suddenly they leave, and they never come back. Without warning. Sometimes you don't even realize they've left until it's too late. And you've never really told them how much you actually did appreciate them. What do you do then? Forget about it? Cry? Just move on?

Learnt recently that the grandfather of someone I used to be good friends with passed away. I haven't called him yet even though the final ceremony was on Saturday. We used to be quite good friends. Things have changed since he graduated. We never really said goodbye. I don't know what to say to him if I called. That things will be ok? That I went through the same thing when my grandmother passed away? I don't know what to say. Until now. I still can't say goodbye.

Lao Lang Supper - The Aftermath

Last night was the Final Years' Supper. And it was damn hilarious.

The food was good of course, as usual. The BBQ idea turned out really well and everyone just ate and ate and ate!! Then there was the drinks too of course. Whahahaahah...

They were all GONE!! Both the drinks AND the people who drank. Becky turned super-hyper, Boon went mad, Ruiyi turned silly and basically, they were all insane!!

Highlights of the night:
- Becky, Xinyi, Boon, Hongzheng and Kelvin turning the block swing into a mini-Viking's Ship.
- Kelvin falling backwards off the swing in mid-swing and ending up legs over head trapped under the swing, followed by multiple spankings from the girls on his exposed ass
- Mavis falling back down after trying to stand up
- Ruiyi having alternate "scandalous affairs" with Yuwei and Qingyou.
- The Qingyou-Ruiyi-Becky "threesome"
- Ruiyi insisting she was still sane and proceeding to call out the names of every single person who stood in front of her for the rest of the night.
- Yuwei and Ruiyi destroying the letter E that was diligently made just to find the can of pineapple juice to make Hong Feng eat it.
- Xinyi throwing water at Hong Feng only for the water to end up all on Kendrick instead
- Mingui and Wenguang, after making practically everyone drunk on their lethal concoctions, going around surveying every drunk girl and making plans to "ravish" them
- Yuwei attempting to pluck off every single hair on Qingyou's leg.
- Boon and Xinyi throwing every single slipper they could get hold of over the balcony. Finally ambushing Kelvin and throwing his slippers down as well

Bleargh!!

Oh man!!

I'd almost forgotten why on earth I hate vomitting so much.. I was given a harsh reminder yesterday when after goodness-knows-how-long, I just threw up despite not eating anything the whole day. Give or take a couple of panadols... Yessir... Yesterday was undoubtably one of the worse days of my life. To be sick is one thing... To be sick and throwing up!! Ergh!!! I was so out of it that I couldn't do a SINGLE drawing for my Japanese Studies project!! I felt so TERRIBLE!!! My project mates were probably dying of anxiety... So I had to rush through the drawings this morning and well... They're not exactly what I would call my best... sigh...

ooch... Time to meet Yuwei for lunch... Hopefully there won't be a replay of yesterday...

Letting Go and Moving On... Can I Really?

Tonight I met up with someone whom I used to be quite close to. To put it simply, I liked him and I'd like to think that maybe he liked me too, although I cannot say for sure. At first I thought it'd be nice to just see each other again, maybe we could even talk a little.

Time really has a way of changing things.

It's been so long since we actually sat down to talk properly or even just meet. I almost couldn't even say two words to him. Or to put it in another way, he had nothing to say to me. At the point of time, it didn't seem that significant that we could no longer communicate. But as I went back to my room, and everything sank in. I realized that as much as I had proclaimed to, I had never really gotten over him.

It wasn't so much painful as it was sad. Just this overwhelming sense of sadness. It was over. Really over. There was nothing left to use to even become good friends. Guess he was only meant to become one of those passing people in my life.

I need to let it go. I guess, it was never really mine to let go off in the first place. It just wasn't meant to be. The question is... Can I?

Inter-Wing Games... Success?

First day of IWG today... Not that many people came down... But it wasn't too few either... It was fun in the end and I guess that's what's really important -- That everyone who came down had fun. :D So it's a minor success. Guess we'll have to see how next Wednesday goes.

I wonder though... This is something totally unrelated... I wonder which is worse -- being absolutely, shamelessly blatant and just saying everything that comes to mind, that you feel, that you want to say. Or choosing the right time to say something only to find that there was never a 'right' time anyway. I really wonder.