Ahha... Yes.. I went for my paper, crapped out 3 essays that were all concluded rather hastily coz seriously it is madness to have to write 3 essays in just 2 hours. Especially for the last one... I didn't realize I was running out of booklet until I was down to the last 10 lines on the page and decided to flip over to see how many pages I had left. There were no pages left!!!! But by then it was like 3 minutes to the end so I decided "Heck!!" and just wrote the most hasty conclusion which is practically no conclusion at all.. Haha.
Yes, about the previous post. Sorry if I scared anyone. Basically during stress times you will see a lot of that... I tend to get very depressed. But if I actually whine and gripe about it it's not so bad. If I know myself (which if I don't even just a little, that would be quite sad.), it's most dangerous when I'm stressed/depressed and I DON'T talk about it. Think that's what happened last year. I shut up a lot about my problems and just let myself get drowned by all of them. Anyhow. Come Thursday the doom/gloom should be done with. So just bear with me a while longer.
Next battle is Genes & Society on Wednesday and then Japan & China on Thursday. Ergh. I will just go into Genes with a dice. Wahahaha...
Monday, November 29, 2004
Failing Will
My willpower is dead. Gone. Nada. Zip.
I have barely studied for my Japan and Asia Pacific, give or take a couple of readings I did 10 thousand years ago that I can barely remember and the few paragaraphs I've just read.
I want to quit. This is like the 1 millionth time I've said those exact words. Mostly I say it but then continue to trudge through the mud and the fire. Usually I survive, barely sometimes. Last year I really did quit and I come thisclose to self-destruction. This year... I fought. Sort of. I fought and I came to this point. And now I wanna quit again.
I know what all of you are thinking - WAT? That would be so wasted!! Don't be daft!! Don't give up!!! Don't be so stupid!! You're so close!!! Ganbatte!!! BANZAI!!!!
People... You're forgetting that this is someone who has got absolutely no focus in her life and who is quite known for running away everytime some great obstacle or conflict comes her way. I have no willpower. Despite what appearances may say and what some people might think, I'm not that strong in the end.
Well... Looks like it's going to be one of those times when I end up disappointing everyone in my life. Again. Sorry about that folks. Thanks for all the love though.
I have barely studied for my Japan and Asia Pacific, give or take a couple of readings I did 10 thousand years ago that I can barely remember and the few paragaraphs I've just read.
I want to quit. This is like the 1 millionth time I've said those exact words. Mostly I say it but then continue to trudge through the mud and the fire. Usually I survive, barely sometimes. Last year I really did quit and I come thisclose to self-destruction. This year... I fought. Sort of. I fought and I came to this point. And now I wanna quit again.
I know what all of you are thinking - WAT? That would be so wasted!! Don't be daft!! Don't give up!!! Don't be so stupid!! You're so close!!! Ganbatte!!! BANZAI!!!!
People... You're forgetting that this is someone who has got absolutely no focus in her life and who is quite known for running away everytime some great obstacle or conflict comes her way. I have no willpower. Despite what appearances may say and what some people might think, I'm not that strong in the end.
Well... Looks like it's going to be one of those times when I end up disappointing everyone in my life. Again. Sorry about that folks. Thanks for all the love though.
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Sickening...
Exams are *PUI*!!!
Third paper tomorrow... Japan and Asia Pacific. Apparently the rumour goes that he will focus on ODA (official development aid). Sigh.. What do I know about ODA except that China is just one big ODA leech and doesn't even give Japan due recognition for it. Pah. Stupid communists. Ah... Ignore me.. I'm ranting. I did very little today. So terrible. Slept a LOT!!! Cripes... If I can get a C for this module I'll be damn lucky already I tell you... But to stay in NUS I need a B. Well now... I guess it's time for me to start thinking about what my job options are as an expelled NUS student.
Sigh.
Life is so full of croc shit. Plus I really am falling sick. Pah..
Third paper tomorrow... Japan and Asia Pacific. Apparently the rumour goes that he will focus on ODA (official development aid). Sigh.. What do I know about ODA except that China is just one big ODA leech and doesn't even give Japan due recognition for it. Pah. Stupid communists. Ah... Ignore me.. I'm ranting. I did very little today. So terrible. Slept a LOT!!! Cripes... If I can get a C for this module I'll be damn lucky already I tell you... But to stay in NUS I need a B. Well now... I guess it's time for me to start thinking about what my job options are as an expelled NUS student.
Sigh.
Life is so full of croc shit. Plus I really am falling sick. Pah..
So I'm An Idealist...
Saw the link for this personality test on Nekoweenie's blog... It's quite accurate really, except that I'm definitely not vegetarian. Was a bit surprised by the introvert part, but reading the explanation, I really think it's true.
Here's the link:http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/whatamilike/index.shtml
Your Answers Suggest You Are An IDEALIST
The four aspects that make up this personality type are:
Summary of Idealists
- Make sense of the world using inner values
- Focus on personal growth and the growth of others
- Think of themselves as bright, forgiving and curious
- May sometimes appear stubborn
More about Idealists
Idealists put time and energy into developing personal values that they use as a guide through life. They may seek fulfilment by helping others improve themselves and often want to make the world a better place. Idealists only share their inner values with people they respect.
Idealists are the most likely group to say they are vegetarian, according to a UK survey.
Idealists enjoy discussions about a wide range of topics, particularly those that deal with the future. They are typically easy-going and flexible, but if their values are challenged they may refuse to compromise.
In situations where they can’t use their talents or are unappreciated, Idealists may have trouble expressing themselves and withdraw. Under extreme stress, Idealists may become very critical of others, or lose confidence in their own ability to cope.
Recognition for their work is important to Idealists; however, they are also good at spotting false praise.
Idealist Careers
Idealists are often drawn to jobs where they can help people reach their potential. They are also attracted to careers that allow artistic creativity.
Thursday, November 25, 2004
WOAH!!!
Went for a 1 1/2 hour flamenco workshop just now (dun worry.. studied in school with Nekoweenie for about 4,5 hours before that.) at Dance Circles. It was being led by Deanna Blacher, our examiner and also the founder of the Spanish Dance Institute. This also makes her the person who wrote the syllabus that Nekoweenie and I are dancing to. (O_O)
Gosh this woman is simply fantastic! No wonder she's the founder I tell you. Goodness... I felt so embarrassed as a someone TRYING to be a flamenco student. Crap!! I only managed to somewhat understand the alegrias rhythm AFTER the class. Even now I can only do it slowly.
12-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12...
Then got variation also...
12-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12...
(O_O)
Mindboggling. Even Angel got a bit thrown off by all of us off-beat students and she was still going steady on the cajones (square box drum). Confirm add her to my list of heroes...
Gosh this woman is simply fantastic! No wonder she's the founder I tell you. Goodness... I felt so embarrassed as a someone TRYING to be a flamenco student. Crap!! I only managed to somewhat understand the alegrias rhythm AFTER the class. Even now I can only do it slowly.
12-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12...
Then got variation also...
12-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12...
(O_O)
Mindboggling. Even Angel got a bit thrown off by all of us off-beat students and she was still going steady on the cajones (square box drum). Confirm add her to my list of heroes...
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
1 Down 4 To Go... 5 If You Count JLPT
Haven't blogged for a little while. Was supposed to refrain from blogging until after the exams but I am super sian of studying Japanese Marketing now.
Haven't told you guys what happened during my American Law exam have I?
At first it was all good. I wasn't even nervous when I went in. And when I looked at the questions I kinda knew immediately which ones I wanted to do and sort of knew which reading materials to use for it. Basically I knew what the damned questions wanted. Then as I was about to start writing, my stomach decided to have a horrendous stomachache so I had to sign out to go the the toilet. I have no idea what gave me diarrhea that morning but I lost 30min that day and ended up writing only 1 1/2 essays instead of 2. So pissed. The one exam that I cld've done quite ok in and I had to have diarrhea. Sucks.
Then on Sunday was my flamenco exam. Screwed that up big time too. Went in relatively calm but the moment I made one mis-step I tensed up and everything went downhill from there. Bet you the examiner couldn't hear my palleos. Saw her writing fervently during my palleos second exercise. Worst was the syllabus dance. Was ok ok ok, then at the last 1/4 of the dance, missed a bar and came in late. Dammit. Rose, Tania and Nekoweenie kept saying it's ok coz at least I still managed to keep to the beat and still ended properly. But I felt so bad... Tania tried as much as possible to help me catch up after missing 6 weeks. And Angel had such high hopes for my class. And I DID practice at home... I actually managed to do it about 90% perfect in the revision classes... But come to the crunch and BOOM. 50% performance. Sucks...
Sigh.. Next paper on Saturday... Sian.. Dun wanna study. Bah.
Haven't told you guys what happened during my American Law exam have I?
At first it was all good. I wasn't even nervous when I went in. And when I looked at the questions I kinda knew immediately which ones I wanted to do and sort of knew which reading materials to use for it. Basically I knew what the damned questions wanted. Then as I was about to start writing, my stomach decided to have a horrendous stomachache so I had to sign out to go the the toilet. I have no idea what gave me diarrhea that morning but I lost 30min that day and ended up writing only 1 1/2 essays instead of 2. So pissed. The one exam that I cld've done quite ok in and I had to have diarrhea. Sucks.
Then on Sunday was my flamenco exam. Screwed that up big time too. Went in relatively calm but the moment I made one mis-step I tensed up and everything went downhill from there. Bet you the examiner couldn't hear my palleos. Saw her writing fervently during my palleos second exercise. Worst was the syllabus dance. Was ok ok ok, then at the last 1/4 of the dance, missed a bar and came in late. Dammit. Rose, Tania and Nekoweenie kept saying it's ok coz at least I still managed to keep to the beat and still ended properly. But I felt so bad... Tania tried as much as possible to help me catch up after missing 6 weeks. And Angel had such high hopes for my class. And I DID practice at home... I actually managed to do it about 90% perfect in the revision classes... But come to the crunch and BOOM. 50% performance. Sucks...
Sigh.. Next paper on Saturday... Sian.. Dun wanna study. Bah.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
The Sound of Music
Haha... Must be something about me and the word "sound" this week. Earlier posted "The Most Beautiful Sound" by Jaycee Chan and this today's entry is all about sound!!! Well... Actually just about certain things that make sound sound better.
I have new speakers!! Courtesy of *cough cough**AHEM!!!* SOMEBODY. :) Got them on Saturday (along with a free Sakae lunch. Wahahaha!!) and have only just set them up. With some help from me dad of course. Been testing the sound and it's just GREAT!!! My goodness... Listen to that bass will you. Wahhaha... It's a 3-piece set - 2 satellite speakers and 1 sub-woofer with treble and bass controls. Heheheh... And they look classy to boot! Black and dark silver. Heeeeeee!!!
Here are the specifications, right off the box:
Sonic Gear - Sonicpower P320
Output power: 1100 Watts
Subwoofer:
- Bass reflex design
- Continuous power: 18 watts RMS
- Frequency response: 50Hz - 120Hz
- 4" low frequency driver
- Dimensions (W x H x D): 347 x 362 x 180mm
- Weight: 4.7kg
Satellites:
- Enclosed cabinet design
- Continuous power: 2 x 5 watts RMS
- Frequency response: 150Hz - 18kHz
- 2 x 3" full-range driver
- Speaker impedance: 4 ohm
Other Features & Characteristics:
- Power On/Off switch and indicator
- Bass, treble and master volume control
- S/N ratio: > 80 dB
- Distortion: < 1% THD (std 300mA peak-to-peak source)
Yes yes. And 'twas quite a good buy too! Wasn't it? ;) It is a very very nice belated (x10) 20th birthday present. Thank you! :D
I have new speakers!! Courtesy of *cough cough**AHEM!!!* SOMEBODY. :) Got them on Saturday (along with a free Sakae lunch. Wahahaha!!) and have only just set them up. With some help from me dad of course. Been testing the sound and it's just GREAT!!! My goodness... Listen to that bass will you. Wahhaha... It's a 3-piece set - 2 satellite speakers and 1 sub-woofer with treble and bass controls. Heheheh... And they look classy to boot! Black and dark silver. Heeeeeee!!!
Here are the specifications, right off the box:
Sonic Gear - Sonicpower P320
Output power: 1100 Watts
Subwoofer:
- Bass reflex design
- Continuous power: 18 watts RMS
- Frequency response: 50Hz - 120Hz
- 4" low frequency driver
- Dimensions (W x H x D): 347 x 362 x 180mm
- Weight: 4.7kg
Satellites:
- Enclosed cabinet design
- Continuous power: 2 x 5 watts RMS
- Frequency response: 150Hz - 18kHz
- 2 x 3" full-range driver
- Speaker impedance: 4 ohm
Other Features & Characteristics:
- Power On/Off switch and indicator
- Bass, treble and master volume control
- S/N ratio: > 80 dB
- Distortion: < 1% THD (std 300mA peak-to-peak source)
Yes yes. And 'twas quite a good buy too! Wasn't it? ;) It is a very very nice belated (x10) 20th birthday present. Thank you! :D
Monday, November 15, 2004
Ow!! My Heartstrings!!
Just finished reading Eskie's blog and suddenly realized how much I miss the block and the hall. I mean, ok, so last year was quite a shitty year for me... But there were fun times as well and there were people I cared about and I'm hoping there were people who cared about me too. For some stupid reason I even miss that buaya lizard Yow calling me a Mummy Lizard. For goodness sakes! Makes me sound like I'm running some lizard cabaret... Went back a couple of times and found so many faces I didn't recognize, which is quite understandable I suppose. But it makes me wonder if I'm still remembered by the older seniors there. I know Eskie will roll her eyes and bonk me on the head when I say this but sometimes I even wonder if I was ever really a part of the KR family in the first place. Dunno. It feels weird nowadays.
Oh... And for the record, it is NOT written in the constitution that a person must go through Command before he/she can be recognized as an alumni of the hall. I read through the damn thing and no where is it written in black and white. It doesn't even say that you have to graduate while still a resident of the hall. So basically if you've stayed in the hall at least a year (or I think even just one sem), you can be considered alumni. CERTAIN idiots - at least 2 of them - told me it was part of the constitution. They even insisted on it. Hmph. And people (read: Master and some others.. but mainly Master) wonder why KR doesn't have a strong alumni base. Well, if your own JCRC (past AND present... well... I dunno about the newest 04/05 batch... but they better read up) can just anyhow quote the Constitution, you really got fat hope at cultivating lasting feelings.
Don't get me wrong. I am bitter about the whole "you-never-go-through-command-therefore-you're-not-alumni" thing, I admit. But I really still do miss the place. I did stay there.. No, I LIVED there for 2 years. That's got to mean something. Right?
Oh... And for the record, it is NOT written in the constitution that a person must go through Command before he/she can be recognized as an alumni of the hall. I read through the damn thing and no where is it written in black and white. It doesn't even say that you have to graduate while still a resident of the hall. So basically if you've stayed in the hall at least a year (or I think even just one sem), you can be considered alumni. CERTAIN idiots - at least 2 of them - told me it was part of the constitution. They even insisted on it. Hmph. And people (read: Master and some others.. but mainly Master) wonder why KR doesn't have a strong alumni base. Well, if your own JCRC (past AND present... well... I dunno about the newest 04/05 batch... but they better read up) can just anyhow quote the Constitution, you really got fat hope at cultivating lasting feelings.
Don't get me wrong. I am bitter about the whole "you-never-go-through-command-therefore-you're-not-alumni" thing, I admit. But I really still do miss the place. I did stay there.. No, I LIVED there for 2 years. That's got to mean something. Right?
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Another Song Translation
Heh... I'm such a slacker...
最动听
歌：Jaycee 房祖名
昨天晚上我又梦见你
在梦里我看见很美的东西
可能是在睡前想过你
才会梦见你
在梦里我常常寻寻觅觅
寻找着你
是梦而已
在现实里我曾经问过自己
是否爱你
还是个游戏
我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声
我会用心地听
不管多小声多小声
我也会用心用意在意地听
我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声
我会用心地听
不管多小声多小声
因你的声音
在我心
是最为动听
Translation:
The Most Beautiful Sound
Jaycee Chan
Last night I dreamt of you again.
In my dream I saw many beautiful things.
Maybe I thought of you before I slept,
So I dreamt of you.
In my dream
I searched everywhere，
Looking for you.
It was just a dream.
In reality I once asked myself
Do I really love you?
Or is it just a game?
I want to look into your eyes
And I want to hear your voice.
No matter how soft, I will listen carefully.
No matter how small. No matter how little.
I will listen with all of my heart.
I want to look into your eyes
I want to hear your voice.
No matter how soft, I will listen carefully.
No matter how small. No matter how little.
Because your voice -
In my heart,
It’s the most beautiful sound.
最动听
歌：Jaycee 房祖名
昨天晚上我又梦见你
在梦里我看见很美的东西
可能是在睡前想过你
才会梦见你
在梦里我常常寻寻觅觅
寻找着你
是梦而已
在现实里我曾经问过自己
是否爱你
还是个游戏
我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声
我会用心地听
不管多小声多小声
我也会用心用意在意地听
我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声
我会用心地听
不管多小声多小声
因你的声音
在我心
是最为动听
Translation:
The Most Beautiful Sound
Jaycee Chan
Last night I dreamt of you again.
In my dream I saw many beautiful things.
Maybe I thought of you before I slept,
So I dreamt of you.
In my dream
I searched everywhere，
Looking for you.
It was just a dream.
In reality I once asked myself
Do I really love you?
Or is it just a game?
I want to look into your eyes
And I want to hear your voice.
No matter how soft, I will listen carefully.
No matter how small. No matter how little.
I will listen with all of my heart.
I want to look into your eyes
I want to hear your voice.
No matter how soft, I will listen carefully.
No matter how small. No matter how little.
Because your voice -
In my heart,
It’s the most beautiful sound.
Friday, November 12, 2004
Procrastination!!
Er.. yes... Regarding the mugging... I was supposed to have started on Wednesday. Now is the end of Friday and I've barely finished one chapter of my American Law... This is terrible.. Home is just not condusive for studying.. To many distractions like my wonderful kitchen... I should migrate to the library. Rrrrrrrr...
On a more sombre note. Let us observe a moment of silence on this blog, in honour of the passing of a truly heroic man...
Gorobei-san, we shall always remember you as one of the bravest of the Seven Samurai. Rest in peace. *bows respectfully*
On a more sombre note. Let us observe a moment of silence on this blog, in honour of the passing of a truly heroic man...
Gorobei-san, we shall always remember you as one of the bravest of the Seven Samurai. Rest in peace. *bows respectfully*
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Last One Today...
Ok... I have to admit that this one was quite comforting. :) And it kinda made me realize that I actually do have friends who truly appreciate me for what I am, and it wouldn't even matter if I was fat or ugly or an absolute bitch... So to all my friends, thanks for being my friends. (^_^)
B:
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B:
Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile
Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Sign:
Tauros Planet: Jupiter Hair Color:
Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Again and Again!
Your ordinary. You don't care if people think your
weird or not pretty. You just want everyone to
know your not a creep. Your just yourself which
makes you cool in a cool way:)
What Type Of Girl Are You???(Amazing Pics)
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Ok... So I have established that I am normal and ordinary... I suppose that's something to celebrate...
Quiz!! Again!
You're Normal. What is lacking in popularity you
make up in sweetness. You like school and
sometimes like a sport or two. Your life is
busy, you should be a doctor. Please rate my
quiz you are suppose to it is normal?
The Ultimate Personality Quiz (PRETTY PICS)
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OMG!! I'm NORMAL???? There must be some mistake... WHAT SWEETNESS?? I LIKE SCHOOL?? SPORTS???? Doctor of what??? Insanity?? (~_~)"'
Monday, November 08, 2004
OVER!! IT'S ALL OVER!!!
I have finally handed up my Japan & China essay.
I finished typing and printing out by 5.30pm, hopped on a cab by 5.40pm and was in school by 6.10pm. I dropped off at AS7 and FLEW all the way up the stairs towards AS4. Then the Moose (in all his furry glory... He had taken off his shirt and was gallavanting around in his undershirt...) comes down the stairs from AS4. He saw me and he was like, "Hey! It's you!! " And we were going "Hahaha" over goodness knows what... So I gave him my essay and that was it. It was all over in 5min.
And now I'm in AS7 stoning away coz my dad refuses to pick me up and I'm too zombified to go home myself... I might get lost. No I don't want to take another cab because I just spent $11.60 on one.
OMG... I spent $11.60 just for 5min in school.... Dammit.. No paper should be worth so much... Whahahahhaha... But I'm glad it's over. Can relax a bit before muggin for exams. Thanx to all who prayed for me!! :D:D:D
I finished typing and printing out by 5.30pm, hopped on a cab by 5.40pm and was in school by 6.10pm. I dropped off at AS7 and FLEW all the way up the stairs towards AS4. Then the Moose (in all his furry glory... He had taken off his shirt and was gallavanting around in his undershirt...) comes down the stairs from AS4. He saw me and he was like, "Hey! It's you!! " And we were going "Hahaha" over goodness knows what... So I gave him my essay and that was it. It was all over in 5min.
And now I'm in AS7 stoning away coz my dad refuses to pick me up and I'm too zombified to go home myself... I might get lost. No I don't want to take another cab because I just spent $11.60 on one.
OMG... I spent $11.60 just for 5min in school.... Dammit.. No paper should be worth so much... Whahahahhaha... But I'm glad it's over. Can relax a bit before muggin for exams. Thanx to all who prayed for me!! :D:D:D
Ice Cream!!
Hehehehehehe...
I went and visited the new 7-Eleven that opened just behind my house. Just a fence away. Wahaha... No Ben & Jerry's though.. But I suppose King's Choco-Mint Chip will have to do for now. Whahahahaa...
*madness prevails*
I went and visited the new 7-Eleven that opened just behind my house. Just a fence away. Wahaha... No Ben & Jerry's though.. But I suppose King's Choco-Mint Chip will have to do for now. Whahahahaa...
*madness prevails*
Sunday, November 07, 2004
Introducing...
*Ahem* Er... I actually thought of this about a few weeks ago. When I was er... ranting. You might remember the whole saga. Anyway I only just got down to writing it. And it's my first attempt at lyrical writing in CHINESE. So *cough* forgive me if you see any funny Chinese. My cheena vocab is very limited. Anyhow, must give a BEEG BEEG "Thank You" to Shuhui!! She actually took the time to go through my nonsense and helped me edit it. Wahaha... If I ever become famous I will make sure to insist that the agency that is crazy enough to sign me on hires you as well ok? Wahahah!! Anyway...
Here's the err... Song? Poem? Whatever... Lyrics.
安全网
By Veetwo aka 温素媚
Edited by Shuhui (^_^)v
为何我是安全网？
在你心中
到底我算什么？
认识你都两年半，
你脑袋真的那么厚？
从朋友开始的感情，
总觉得还缺了些什么。
后来发觉—喜欢你。
却你始终不觉悟。
继续当你好朋友
听你分忧，为你加油。
久而久之才发现—
做朋友太辛苦了。
无忧时就到处跑，
伤心失望就靠着我。
或许对你太心软，
现在觉得
你的忧虑好沉重。
不想再做安全网
永远支撑不让你跌。
都快要崩溃了
心也慢慢沉没了。
却还得为始终不了解的你
继续做个安全网。
这安全网快破裂了
不能珍惜就放过我。
喜欢你，却受不了
永远当个候补角色。
不想再做安全网。
为何我是安全网？
永远支撑，不让你跌。
©Veetwo 2004
Here's the err... Song? Poem? Whatever... Lyrics.
安全网
By Veetwo aka 温素媚
Edited by Shuhui (^_^)v
为何我是安全网？
在你心中
到底我算什么？
认识你都两年半，
你脑袋真的那么厚？
从朋友开始的感情，
总觉得还缺了些什么。
后来发觉—喜欢你。
却你始终不觉悟。
继续当你好朋友
听你分忧，为你加油。
久而久之才发现—
做朋友太辛苦了。
无忧时就到处跑，
伤心失望就靠着我。
或许对你太心软，
现在觉得
你的忧虑好沉重。
不想再做安全网
永远支撑不让你跌。
都快要崩溃了
心也慢慢沉没了。
却还得为始终不了解的你
继续做个安全网。
这安全网快破裂了
不能珍惜就放过我。
喜欢你，却受不了
永远当个候补角色。
不想再做安全网。
为何我是安全网？
永远支撑，不让你跌。
©Veetwo 2004
I'm Krypton???
According to The Periodic Table Horoscope , I'm Krypton which incidentally has the scientific-I-forgot-what-it's-called name of KR. Hmm. What is it with me and the letters "KR"?? Whaha.. Anyway this is what it says:
Krypton, you appear as a colourless gas at 298 K, but despite this, your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. You will have a brief flirtation with fame, but is everything as it initially appears? Beware the Ides of March - all through the year. There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love. Remember: Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure, not anyone's second-choice date. Be true to yourself. Wash behind your ears. Stand up straight, for god's sake.
Let's dissect this point by point:
1) You appear as a colourless gas - Could mean that I need a tan. Which is true! I'm in desperate need of one.. I'm so pasty now.
2) your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. - It's already the end of the week! Where are my #&^%$ admirers??? Whahaha...
3) You will have a brief flirtation with fame - Huh? Fame for? Being the most stoned person in NUS at the moment?
4) Beware the Ides of March - all through the year - In the first place, the Ides of March only happens once a year - IN MARCH. (Note: according to the Roman calendar, each month has an Ides. But there is only ONE Ides of March.) Incidentally, Julius Caesar was supposed to have been assassinated on the Ides of March... Sooo... Are you trying to tell me something?? Haha..
5) There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love - Errr.... Who ah? *shush Jemalelinh!!*
6) Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure - So I'm square... and in desperate need for a tan.
7) not anyone's second-choice date - At the moment I'm not even anyone's first-choice date... :p
Yes... So aside from the horrific need for a tan, I will conclude that this horoscope is totally baseless and absolute nonsense and should only be used for purely entertainment purposes. Hmm... Actually I think that's what the author of the horoscope said... Oh well... Laugh on people.
Krypton, you appear as a colourless gas at 298 K, but despite this, your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. You will have a brief flirtation with fame, but is everything as it initially appears? Beware the Ides of March - all through the year. There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love. Remember: Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure, not anyone's second-choice date. Be true to yourself. Wash behind your ears. Stand up straight, for god's sake.
Let's dissect this point by point:
1) You appear as a colourless gas - Could mean that I need a tan. Which is true! I'm in desperate need of one.. I'm so pasty now.
2) your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. - It's already the end of the week! Where are my #&^%$ admirers??? Whahaha...
3) You will have a brief flirtation with fame - Huh? Fame for? Being the most stoned person in NUS at the moment?
4) Beware the Ides of March - all through the year - In the first place, the Ides of March only happens once a year - IN MARCH. (Note: according to the Roman calendar, each month has an Ides. But there is only ONE Ides of March.) Incidentally, Julius Caesar was supposed to have been assassinated on the Ides of March... Sooo... Are you trying to tell me something?? Haha..
5) There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love - Errr.... Who ah? *shush Jemalelinh!!*
6) Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure - So I'm square... and in desperate need for a tan.
7) not anyone's second-choice date - At the moment I'm not even anyone's first-choice date... :p
Yes... So aside from the horrific need for a tan, I will conclude that this horoscope is totally baseless and absolute nonsense and should only be used for purely entertainment purposes. Hmm... Actually I think that's what the author of the horoscope said... Oh well... Laugh on people.
Saturday, November 06, 2004
God's Grace. And A New Perspective.
Last night I got so desperate that I e-mailed the Moose at 11.30pm to ask for an extension. I didn't have very high hopes though. I thought he'd turn me down immediately and refuse to mark my paper. So I prayed. And Jemalelinh and Nekoweenie prayed for me too. But this morning when I didn't see any reply, I thought it was all over. He wasn't even going to bother answering my inanely stupid request. So I just went over my material again, typed a bit and went to bake a cake for Felie's party tonight. Then at about 5.15pm, I opened my mailbox to confirm that the party was tonight and to look for a time (there wasn't... -_-") and behold! A reply from Moose. I took a deep breath... clicked.
I couldn't believe my eyes!!! He gave me the extension and he was REALLY nice about it! I was so shocked!! I thought that even if he gave me the extension he'd be nasty about it but he wasn't! He was really really nice!! Here's the e-mail exchange, starting with mine:
Dear Dr. S.,
First of all I want to apologise for e-mailing so late as I have been working desperately on the essay. However, to tell you the truth I have serious doubts about whether I can finish it in time, even if I were to hand in a hard copy by tomorrow morning. This is due to fault on my part entirely. Besides this paper, I had three other deadlines to meet which fell around the same time. Due to some very terrible time management, I ended up over-indulging in the first two papers and found myself pressed for time for the remaining ones.
I do not wish to hand in a sub-standard paper to you and therefore humbly ask if you would be kind enough to allow for a slight extension. I realize that the current situation is entirely my responsibility and will fully understand if you turn down my request or severely mark down my grade.
Thank you so much for your understanding and please accept my sincerest apologies.
Yours Sincerely
Van Su Mei
U02****N
The reply:
Van Su Mei,
If your paper is for me, not Professor Terada, I am happy to give you an extension without penalty to Monday (any time Monday). If you are not well or are very busy on Monday, I might consider waiting until Tuesday.
Dr S.
GOODNESS!!! Can you believe it??? This is the guy who's got an agenda against "abusers" of the English language and believes that all Singaporean students can't write proper English. God's grace is truly wonderful. Thank you Jemalelinh and Nekoweenie for praying for me. Your prayers and your friendship came through so clearly in my time of desperation. And I now have a totally new impression of the Moose! Maybe he's not just a stinking moose... Maybe like Nekoweenie suggests, he's a Fuzzy Furry Moose... (^_^)
I couldn't believe my eyes!!! He gave me the extension and he was REALLY nice about it! I was so shocked!! I thought that even if he gave me the extension he'd be nasty about it but he wasn't! He was really really nice!! Here's the e-mail exchange, starting with mine:
Dear Dr. S.,
First of all I want to apologise for e-mailing so late as I have been working desperately on the essay. However, to tell you the truth I have serious doubts about whether I can finish it in time, even if I were to hand in a hard copy by tomorrow morning. This is due to fault on my part entirely. Besides this paper, I had three other deadlines to meet which fell around the same time. Due to some very terrible time management, I ended up over-indulging in the first two papers and found myself pressed for time for the remaining ones.
I do not wish to hand in a sub-standard paper to you and therefore humbly ask if you would be kind enough to allow for a slight extension. I realize that the current situation is entirely my responsibility and will fully understand if you turn down my request or severely mark down my grade.
Thank you so much for your understanding and please accept my sincerest apologies.
Yours Sincerely
Van Su Mei
U02****N
The reply:
Van Su Mei,
If your paper is for me, not Professor Terada, I am happy to give you an extension without penalty to Monday (any time Monday). If you are not well or are very busy on Monday, I might consider waiting until Tuesday.
Dr S.
GOODNESS!!! Can you believe it??? This is the guy who's got an agenda against "abusers" of the English language and believes that all Singaporean students can't write proper English. God's grace is truly wonderful. Thank you Jemalelinh and Nekoweenie for praying for me. Your prayers and your friendship came through so clearly in my time of desperation. And I now have a totally new impression of the Moose! Maybe he's not just a stinking moose... Maybe like Nekoweenie suggests, he's a Fuzzy Furry Moose... (^_^)
Friday, November 05, 2004
Exhaustion
I can't write anymore. I'm so tired. I'm never going to make 2000 words by 8 am to hand in by 10am. I'll never make it. I'm so tired. I can't write anymore. I want to stop. Can I just stop? Please... I'll never make it.
The Price of Idiocy
Sigh. I haven't started any of my essays. Going to start now, of course. I just wanted to write this down first.
Earlier this evening, around 8pm, my mum just came home and she went upstairs to change. My sis had also only just got home and was doing goodness-knows-what on the computer. I don't know exactly what she said to my mother but it really pissed my mum off, coz I heard her yell that if my sis doesn't start studying, she'll pull my sis out of ACJC (which might not be an entirely bad idea. :p). But then when she comes down and sees me, she yells at me too, saying that my sis and I are exactly the same - Insisting on studying Theatre Studies when "you don't even know how write an essay!!". And I hadn't even said a thing... I couldn't understand why she brought up the TS issue coz it hasn't been an issue since I entered NUS 2 years ago. Still the essay remark struck hard. I really wanted to say something, but I didn't. I kept quiet, ate my dinner, went upstairs to my room, blasted the radio and locked the door.
Then I snapped. I started crying, threw some stuff around the room and decided (very childishly) that I would refuse to write my remaining two essays. After all, I don't know how to write essays right? So I won't. I won't write them, won't hand them in, I'll fail the bloody modules and get kicked out of bloody NUS and we'll see what my mother has to say after that. So I surfed, watched anime, binged (chocolate chips, a whole lot of chips and some bun) , watched TV... Basically I stubbornly did everything except work on my essays.
I finally cooled down. Around 2am. So now I'm even more pressed for time, because I threw a stupid tantrum over another tantrum. Such an idiot. Now I'm not even sure I can finish a 2-page essay for Genes & Society by 5pm, much less a 2000-word essay for Japan-China by Sat 10am. Sigh.
Earlier this evening, around 8pm, my mum just came home and she went upstairs to change. My sis had also only just got home and was doing goodness-knows-what on the computer. I don't know exactly what she said to my mother but it really pissed my mum off, coz I heard her yell that if my sis doesn't start studying, she'll pull my sis out of ACJC (which might not be an entirely bad idea. :p). But then when she comes down and sees me, she yells at me too, saying that my sis and I are exactly the same - Insisting on studying Theatre Studies when "you don't even know how write an essay!!". And I hadn't even said a thing... I couldn't understand why she brought up the TS issue coz it hasn't been an issue since I entered NUS 2 years ago. Still the essay remark struck hard. I really wanted to say something, but I didn't. I kept quiet, ate my dinner, went upstairs to my room, blasted the radio and locked the door.
Then I snapped. I started crying, threw some stuff around the room and decided (very childishly) that I would refuse to write my remaining two essays. After all, I don't know how to write essays right? So I won't. I won't write them, won't hand them in, I'll fail the bloody modules and get kicked out of bloody NUS and we'll see what my mother has to say after that. So I surfed, watched anime, binged (chocolate chips, a whole lot of chips and some bun) , watched TV... Basically I stubbornly did everything except work on my essays.
I finally cooled down. Around 2am. So now I'm even more pressed for time, because I threw a stupid tantrum over another tantrum. Such an idiot. Now I'm not even sure I can finish a 2-page essay for Genes & Society by 5pm, much less a 2000-word essay for Japan-China by Sat 10am. Sigh.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Silver Sliver
Don't I mean Silver Silver? No. Sliver. You know?? REALLY thin strip? Sliver. Ok... So don't I mean Silver Lining?? Nope. Sliver.
Mel Fann just called me to tell me that the Moose has "extended" our Japan & China deadline to Saturday morning if we're handing up a hard copy of the paper. I suppose it beats Friday 5pm. But seriously, who the HELL is going to wake up on a Saturday morning to hand up a f***ing paper by 9am??? I'll bet you the fat arse isn't even going to wake up until at least 10am himself. So why should anyone wake up 3 hours earlier then him just coz he says so??? Rrrrrrrrrrr... I'm sure moose is a regular meat in Canada or Finland or something... Roast him. But I suppose Jemalelinh is right... A small extension is better than none. Hence it is only a silver sliver of hope. No such thing as silver linings in my life. Bah.
Wanna know what I think is even more ridiculous? If we're handing in hard copies it's due Saturday morning. BUT! If we're handing in SOFT copies, it's due midnight tomorrow!! Waaat?? I don't understand. I don't understand it at all. Stupid Moose. Probably has the equivalent IQ of an actual moose anyhow. Combined with the fact that he's a male (somehow calling him a man seems like an insult to men, and that's saying a lot considering that I hate men at the moment) ... This guy doesn't stand a chance.
Mel Fann just called me to tell me that the Moose has "extended" our Japan & China deadline to Saturday morning if we're handing up a hard copy of the paper. I suppose it beats Friday 5pm. But seriously, who the HELL is going to wake up on a Saturday morning to hand up a f***ing paper by 9am??? I'll bet you the fat arse isn't even going to wake up until at least 10am himself. So why should anyone wake up 3 hours earlier then him just coz he says so??? Rrrrrrrrrrr... I'm sure moose is a regular meat in Canada or Finland or something... Roast him. But I suppose Jemalelinh is right... A small extension is better than none. Hence it is only a silver sliver of hope. No such thing as silver linings in my life. Bah.
Wanna know what I think is even more ridiculous? If we're handing in hard copies it's due Saturday morning. BUT! If we're handing in SOFT copies, it's due midnight tomorrow!! Waaat?? I don't understand. I don't understand it at all. Stupid Moose. Probably has the equivalent IQ of an actual moose anyhow. Combined with the fact that he's a male (somehow calling him a man seems like an insult to men, and that's saying a lot considering that I hate men at the moment) ... This guy doesn't stand a chance.
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Mark of a Genius?
OH!!! One more thing. Remember the Genes & Society online assesment that I finished in 5minutes? I got the results back. And I have scored full marks.
Wahahahaha!!!
Bow to my immense superiority!! AGAIN!!! Wahahahah!!!
*no more screws to lose*
Wahahahaha!!!
Bow to my immense superiority!! AGAIN!!! Wahahahah!!!
*no more screws to lose*
2nd One Down
Once again I have managed to survive an evil term paper and no longer have anything to do with it whatsoever. Whoever invented the notion of term papers should be shot and tortured and shot again.
The one that was just handed up was for Japan & Asia-Pacific Region. I love Japan, but I hate regional studies esp in terms of politics. Bah. Well.. That's over. Now in the Central Library waiting for Jemalelinh. I wonder if she'll find me before the scrap neutrons of my wasted brains turn radioactive and cause the rest of me to disintegrate into a puddle of goo on the floor. CL people will have a hell of a time killing up though... seeing as how the floors are carpeted. Wahahahahahaa...
Next war in line is with 2 essays simultaneously!! Both due on the same day. Bah.. Friday 5pm. In totally opposite faculties. Genes & Society and Japan & China. Zzzzzzz...
I will officially not be sleeping until Saturday. And then I shall proceed to fall into a coma until Monday. My brain is protesting like nobody's business. How to do two essays like that?? How? How?!? HOW???!!!
The one that was just handed up was for Japan & Asia-Pacific Region. I love Japan, but I hate regional studies esp in terms of politics. Bah. Well.. That's over. Now in the Central Library waiting for Jemalelinh. I wonder if she'll find me before the scrap neutrons of my wasted brains turn radioactive and cause the rest of me to disintegrate into a puddle of goo on the floor. CL people will have a hell of a time killing up though... seeing as how the floors are carpeted. Wahahahahahaa...
Next war in line is with 2 essays simultaneously!! Both due on the same day. Bah.. Friday 5pm. In totally opposite faculties. Genes & Society and Japan & China. Zzzzzzz...
I will officially not be sleeping until Saturday. And then I shall proceed to fall into a coma until Monday. My brain is protesting like nobody's business. How to do two essays like that?? How? How?!? HOW???!!!
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Product Quality = Product Loyalty
That's it. Never again will I use paper other than Double A paper.
No wonder goods manufacturers are so insistent on multiple quality checks. Assurance of consistent top quality products is THE best way to gain product loyalty among consumers.
I gave up on a-one paper a long time ago because the paper was just too light and multiple pieces kept getting caught in my printer feeder resulting in uneven prints or double sided prints with inconsistent page numbers and oft times a whole lot of wasted prints. Not to mention a big waste of precious precious HP ink (only because it's super expensive). Hence I started using Double A.
IT WAS PERFECT! It was heavy enough so there were no more multiple feeds, and it was thicker too. So It didn't look too flimsy when I had to print out term papers and the such.
Today I ran out of paper again. So I walked down to Popular@Thomson Plaza to go buy some. BUT!! Popular doesn't stock Double A paper!!! So disgusting. Or maybe it's just this particular branch. In any case, I walked out and went upstairs to Best Denki instead, thinking that an electronics specialty store might have a larger range of printing supplies. Turns out they were a bit too specialized... I could only find HP multipurpose printing paper. But I think, "Ok. It IS HP afterall. And the packaging does say that it's suited for deskjet printers. Quality shouldn't be a problem." So I bought a ream and went home. As I ripped the packaging apart and took out some paper, I could just FEEL the thinness. But still I thought, "Hey! It's HP. How bad can it get?"
Very bad, apparently. As I started printing out some material for my JS paper, the same old problem occurred. Freak. Wasted ink and wasted paper. Again! And with what is supposed to be a very established brand!!! Bah. So much for quality products.
Therefore... *raises right hand* I hereby swear my absolute loyalty to Double A paper.
No wonder goods manufacturers are so insistent on multiple quality checks. Assurance of consistent top quality products is THE best way to gain product loyalty among consumers.
I gave up on a-one paper a long time ago because the paper was just too light and multiple pieces kept getting caught in my printer feeder resulting in uneven prints or double sided prints with inconsistent page numbers and oft times a whole lot of wasted prints. Not to mention a big waste of precious precious HP ink (only because it's super expensive). Hence I started using Double A.
IT WAS PERFECT! It was heavy enough so there were no more multiple feeds, and it was thicker too. So It didn't look too flimsy when I had to print out term papers and the such.
Today I ran out of paper again. So I walked down to Popular@Thomson Plaza to go buy some. BUT!! Popular doesn't stock Double A paper!!! So disgusting. Or maybe it's just this particular branch. In any case, I walked out and went upstairs to Best Denki instead, thinking that an electronics specialty store might have a larger range of printing supplies. Turns out they were a bit too specialized... I could only find HP multipurpose printing paper. But I think, "Ok. It IS HP afterall. And the packaging does say that it's suited for deskjet printers. Quality shouldn't be a problem." So I bought a ream and went home. As I ripped the packaging apart and took out some paper, I could just FEEL the thinness. But still I thought, "Hey! It's HP. How bad can it get?"
Very bad, apparently. As I started printing out some material for my JS paper, the same old problem occurred. Freak. Wasted ink and wasted paper. Again! And with what is supposed to be a very established brand!!! Bah. So much for quality products.
Therefore... *raises right hand* I hereby swear my absolute loyalty to Double A paper.
Monday, November 01, 2004
Brain Dead
Done. I have finished.
One term paper. But hey!! That's one less paper to do!!! It was my American Law paper. Was writing it until about 8am and then I had to organize my biblios... I finally printed out the bloody thing at like 10.30am. Then I realized that I'd forgotten to add in one reference... But heck it. It was a minor one anyhow. And I can't be bothered to do anything else to the thing. I just wanna sleep. But I'm in school now waiting for Mich Chang to come along and finish hers, so we can read each other's essays before we finally hand it up to Chng Chuan Hoon. ZZZ... After this is lunch with Pukey at 2pm. Can I even survive until then? I think I'll just collapse along one of the corridors in arts. And no one will ever find me!! EEEEEEEE!!!!! .... That might be a good thing though... Coz if I'm missing then I wouldn't have to write anymore term papers rite?
*proceeds to lose a few more screws*
One term paper. But hey!! That's one less paper to do!!! It was my American Law paper. Was writing it until about 8am and then I had to organize my biblios... I finally printed out the bloody thing at like 10.30am. Then I realized that I'd forgotten to add in one reference... But heck it. It was a minor one anyhow. And I can't be bothered to do anything else to the thing. I just wanna sleep. But I'm in school now waiting for Mich Chang to come along and finish hers, so we can read each other's essays before we finally hand it up to Chng Chuan Hoon. ZZZ... After this is lunch with Pukey at 2pm. Can I even survive until then? I think I'll just collapse along one of the corridors in arts. And no one will ever find me!! EEEEEEEE!!!!! .... That might be a good thing though... Coz if I'm missing then I wouldn't have to write anymore term papers rite?
*proceeds to lose a few more screws*
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