*ahem*
Once again, my first post in a million years.
Exams are nearly over. My last paper is silly Lim B.C.'s one tomorrow and here I am NOT studying. HA! Writing blogs instead. Technically speaking I should be glad that everything's going to end I guess. But I'm not. Instead, I'm feeling extremely EXTREMELY tired. I just wanna go home, hide, be ALONE!! Hang out with a couple of my closer friends, do what I want to do and... I'm sorry to say this, especially when some hall people read this blog... I want to hear nothing.. NOTHING about hall. Oh GOOD GRIEF!! Just for a month, a week, JUST ONE DAY!!! For just one. FREAKIN. DAY. I don't want to be blockhead. I don't wanna hear who's stealing food, who's messing up the kitchen, the toilet, who's neighbour is making too much noise, who's neighbour is too smelly for words. Just ONE DAY. Shit man. I know it's totally irresponsible to think like that, even more so to put it down on black and white that's public to every single eye. I'm so sorry but I'm really really tired.
I know I've probably disappointed about a thousand people with that outbreak, and I'm so sorry. God knows how sorry I am to have to disappoint all of you but I'm really not that strong. I'm not as tough as you'd like to believe. Or rather, as I've lead you to believe. I'm weak. So damned weak. I'm so sorry.
Now I'm even letting people walk all over me. I hate it and yet I don't want to do anything about it. They seem to be doing a good job of being in charge. Once again, irresponsible to think so. My term hasn't even ended and everyone's just rushing to take over the job. So ironic. I was always the kind who wants to be in charge, usually am. Now, people taking over me, whether I like it or not. But I really don't have the will power to fight back.
Dunno why, but one person who reads this blog that I feel to have let down utterly... Ms o8ight, admittedly, we're not as close as we should be considering the shit we went through together as FWOCers, and despite the fact that I was your "angel". Yet, of all the people who read this blog and really, of all the people who supported me initially, I somehow feel like I've let you down the most. And (ok.. I guess everyone is sick and tired of hearing me say this but...) I'm sorry. I tried but I couldn't stop tripping over everything. Guess I was never really made out to be blockhead after all.
I'm no leader. I'm a schmuck.
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