The Work Begins... and more old updates

Ok. The only reason why I'm blogging at this moment is because my sister is still in the shower even though we've been back from dinner since 10pm and my mother and I have been practising our choir music since then. So slow I tell you that person.

Yeah. The work is starting to pile on. On Thursday and Friday I was just typing and typing on the office comp. I starting to worry about when the dancers come back from their London tour and when the new adult dance classes start. (O_O) Will be swamped with a lot of forms and a lot of money. None of which will belong to me. So sad.

In other news: I have finally learnt how to ride a bike!! *smug look* I have the bruises to prove it! Very beautiful ones on my right knee and left thigh. Not very steady yet, but I have done it!! Heh!!

Oh. And one other snippet which is actually quite old news. Only posting it now because I've been debating whether or not I should. But since it's more or less been concluded to be a passing phase, I don't see any cause of worry. Last Friday, my mother and I were playing around with her electronic home blood pressure thingymabob. And for some reason, it kept registering really low heart rates even though our blood pressure registered as normal. We decided it was going wonky and changed the batteries. Then we tried again, and true enough, my mother's vital signs were measured as normal. Mine however, were still a bit off. My blood pressure was normal enough. But my heart rate kept measuring around 45-48bpm. So as a final test of the machine's integrity, we plugged it up to my dad. And this time it actually seemed to work, so tried again on me. Same thing, heart rate was damn low but BP was normal. So BOTH my parents felt my pulse and found I had drop beats, i.e. irregular heart beats. It was all very strange so they decided that I should go and get an ECG (electro-cardiogram) reading.

The next day my dad brought me down to his old classmate's (who also happened to be his heart surgeon) clinic to borrow the ECG. The nurse stuck a lot of little suction things on my chest and clamped my wrists and ankles with what looked like giant crocodile clips. I felt like an O-level physics experiment. So lay there for a couple of minutes and got a reading. The nurse read it and was like "48... A bit low huh..." So she sent it off to Dr. Choo and I was told to wait around so that he could see me. When I went into the office, I was hooked up to another blood pressure thingy. Blood pressure was still normal but this time my heart rate measured at 41 and 43 (took twice).

Dr. Choo looked at my BP readings, looked at my ECG, scribbled down some notes and looked at me and said something to the extent of, "No chronic conditions, no serious history, kidneys ok, liver ok... Might just be inborn." I'm like "Huh?" Apparently it does happen, naturally slow hearts, in about every... 1 in 1000? Or was it 10,000? Can't really remember. But it was 1-something and definitely had more zeroes than 100. And such people can go on for a lifetime without any serious ailments or even not knowing at all. But thing is that I've never registered a slow heart rate before (in school checkups and whatnots). Either that or no one's bothered to tell me about it.

In any case, I'm supposed to go back to the clinic in another 6 weeks to take a 24-hr ECG reading. So I'm going to be attached to a portable ECG machine for 24hrs and I won't be able to bathe. (T_T) I have to go down a total of three days consecutively. One to attach the ECG to me, one to take it off, and the last to see Dr. Choo. Basically it's to see if this condition is a persisting thing or a one-off condition. Well... I haven't fainted yet and I can still go for an hour on the treadmill. So I doubt I'm going to die of a heart attack soon. Probably consumed something that slows down heart rate that particular day or something. There are such things you know, in medicines, tonics... goodness knows what else. Even constant exercise will lower your resting heart rate. Anyway. I'm FINE. No need for worry. That's why I'm actually posting this piece of news. Heh. Still have to go down in six weeks though. Just to make things official. Lalala. So fun. No bath for 24 hrs... *sob*

Starting Work

Will be starting work tomorrow at the Singapore Dance Theatre. Not as a dancer of course. I'm not that wonderful. As my mother puts it, I will be the admin assistant to the admin assistant of the admin assistant. Hahaha.. Sound diao-ded? Quite lah. Hahaha. My mum's friend is the General Manager of SDT but she's touring with the company in London at the moment. So her assistant (I assume the position is Asst. GM) is in charge. Then under her is this other girl who's in charge of planning events and stuff, so let's call her the Events Planner. And I will be helping the EP with the admin and the "Education and Outreach" aspects. Basically I issue receipts, liase with schools who want workshops, advertise workshops, etc etc... Yes people, no matter what positional title they give me, it just means that I am a glorified receptionist. Lalala. But the people all seem very nice. So that's a plus already. Lalala. And it's such a SMALL office!!! When I went in today for the "interview" I only saw 3 people in the office. The AGM, the EP and one other Malay fellow whom I haven't officially met yet. (O_O) So small!! The only minus I can think of right now is that it's all the way in Fort Canning Centre. Have to climb hill everyday now. (T_T) Anyway, I hope it works out. Don't want to be fired after one day.

Oh, for the sake of further updates that were supposed to have appeared eons ago, I have decided that I WILL apply for the UK/Scottish universities after all, and they shall be my first choice if I actually get accepted. Don't really know what my chances are. I would think quite slim actually, especially since I'm applying late. But what the hell. The worst that can happen is that I don't get accepted right? So far the unis I've decided to apply to are King's College London (HA!! Fat hope right?? Oh what the heck!), Aberdeen and Edinburgh (Both Scottish! Love the accent. Lalala! (^_^) ). Also looking at Leeds and Brunel but not sure whether or not to include them as choices in my UCAS form. AH! And get this, I've decided that I will study... *drumroll* ENGINEERING!!! Wahahahhahah!!! Mad right? The first reaction of everyone I've told so far is a look of disbelief (or silence over the phone) and then a "Are you serious??" that drips with cynicism and some attempts to convince me how awful engineering will be for me. But well, my A-level subjects WERE Maths and Physics after all, both of which I got a B in... And I know that's a lousy excuse. But I really am serious. I really do believe that I can do well in engineering. So it's worth a try right? Or do I really garner so little faith in people?

Anyhow, don't worry. I'm not totally giving up on my Languages. If I'm allowed to I will do a joint study in engineering and language. Plus if I apply for Leeds, I will put down my choice of study there as Languages. Leeds has always been more of an Arts college anyway. So what about the Biomedical sciences I talked about some time ago? I will still apply for them on my Australian and New Zealand applications, since they're not so particular about whether or not I took biology at A-level. So...

Pray that everything works out in the end.

First Post of March

Ah... Hahaha.. Gomen ne, everyone. I have been very lazy. _(_ _)_ I kowtow to you in sincere apology (apparently that's the 'smiley' for kowtow.. nvr understood why though). Will update slowly. Here's a starter.

I didn't get the hotel job. Sucks. It would have paid well. Oh well. Never mind. Have been informed by my mother that her friend who is affiliated with the Singapore Dance Theatre (she's a.. management consultant? Patron?? I don't really know but she organizes and manages events for them and things like Arts Fest) has managed to get me a mini-job. I'm basically going to be the Girl Friday for SDT. While they will do the main organizing and what-nots, I'd have to go and book hotel rooms and stuff. Saikang work lah. But it will add to my resume and the time is quite flexible I hear. But then again when they say "no fixed time" it might also mean really weird working times. (-_-)'" Not sure what the pay is like yet. Have to give them a call on Monday. Hopefully will be a fun job.

These past few days been walking around with my head down everytime I have to go out. If I could help it I wouldn't go out at all. Reason being that I now look like some scaly-skinned alien from the desert planet Arrakis (aka Dune. Still dunno? Go read Frank Herbert). Nekoweenie, I know I told you it was a rash, but it's actually more of a burn. Yes people, I have burns on my face. It doesn't look so bad now but yesterday and the day before my entire T-zone area was red and had hundreds of tiny raised welts (kinda like when you get hives, or goosepimples) all over. This was due to my re-use of a medicated cream for my acne. I've used it before and I've never had such a reaction to it but back then I was only using it once every two days and plus I had stopped using it for about a year. This time I used it every night and after about 3,4 nights, POOMF!! My skin exploded. I didn't use very much, just about a third of the first joint of my pinky for the whole face. My skin just wasn't used to the chemicals in the cream anymore. Two days ago it was a burning sensation on my forehead and cheeks. Yesterday it didn't burn so much but started to itch. Today, when it's starting to dry off and the skin is starting peel, it's itching like mad. Have had to take Piriton (an antihistamine) to curb the itch. (T_T) The things we do to look beautiful. Won't be so bad the next time, coz then my skin would be more accustomed to cream.

My grand-aunt is threatening to make me her official escort to Kuching during June for a whole month. One week is still ok. One MONTH???? Help!! Somebody make me unavailable!!!

It's Only The Fairy Tale
Mai HiME Insert Song
Lyrics: Jim Steel
Composer: Yuki Kajiura
Vocals: Miyamura Yuuko

Who are those little girls in pain
Just trapped in a castle on the dark side of the moon

Twelve of them shining bright in vain
Like flowers that blossom just once in years

They're dancing in the shadow like whispers of love
Just dreaming of a place where they're free as doves

They've never been allowed to love in this cursed cage
It's only the fairy tale they believe

JOB HUNT: The Saga Continues

Her handphone rang suddenly, waking our heroine from her stupor. Taking the vibrating communicator in her hands, she readied herself before she finally answered the call. It was SC.

"Call this number, ask for the front desk and ask for S." The call ended.

Staring at the number now in her hands, our heroine swallowed, and carefully pressed the numbers on her phone's keypad. It was now or never.

"Hotel Inter-Continental. How may I help you?"

And so it began.

S had information that our heroine needed desperately. "Can you come now?" She was given the coordinates for the next part of the mission - the Hotel Inter-Continental itself. She had to move quickly, before the afternoon ended.

Despite the searing heat, the unfaltering dimsum finally breached the location and found her mark. With just a subtle look, our heroine knew what S meant - wait around. She'll slip out asap.

*****
"I'll take you to the security post. Then you'll have to find your way to HR yourself. But first there's some things you have to know about the post of Guest Services Agent...."

Quickly, quietly, the two made their way down to the security post.

"Good luck. I'll see you back at the front."

Taking a deep breath, our heroine proceeded down the steps towards the basement. There she would meet with her final challenge - the Interview.
*****

Tune in next time for the next installment of... *drumroll* *cue dramatic music* JOB HUNT: The Inter-Continental Verdict.

Lady Macbeth's Torment

"Here's the smell of the blood still: All the perfumes of Arabia will not sweeten this little hand." ~ Lady Macbeth; Macbeth V:i

Now I know why she went nuts.

I had to put two of my hamsters to sleep this afternoon. The two young ones. They got really sick and for some reason the bigger one kept attacking the runt, which made it even worse faster. But the Big Baby (our way of differentiating the two offspring: Big Baby and Small Baby) was getting more sick each day too. Saw a tumor-like thing on under it's left forearm today. So decided to finally put them down. My mother helped with that. Gave them both a concentrated dosage of sedatives. And then they quietly went to sleep, and then they just stopped breathing.

Forgive me if I sound melodramatic or anything, but I really feel like a murderer right now. That word's been going around my head since 4pm.

:( I killed my baby hamsters.

JLPT Results!!!

I got my JLPT score report in the mail yesterday. The actual certificate will only be available for collection in March. I got quite a good score! Am very very pleased. I passed lah, obviously. Here's the breakdown of my scores, as shown in the report:

Writing-Vocabulary: 91/100
Listening: 78/100
Reading-Grammar: 159/200

Total: 328/400

That's an 82% pass!! The passing score set down for JLPT Level 4 is 60% (so high!! why is it not 50%, I don't understand), so I guess I did good. (^_^) Hee!! Actually I was quite surprised by the scores, especially the score for writing and vocabulary. I didn't think I would get such a high score. Expected something around 70%.. 75% max... 82% is like... OMG. V happy now. Wheee!! Can confidently carry on with JLPT 3 now. Banzai!

My Eyes Hurt

Smoke got in my eyes. Literally. :( I am not happy.

I just got back home from that bloody project I mentioned in my previous blog. The only positive thing about today's work was that it's the last day. #%#%& Man!! It's really freaking ridiculous. Jemalelinh was also very very unhappy about the whole thing. It was worse for her cause her parents were waiting for her already since 12am and we only got back from the site at like 2.30am or something. This is how stupid... STUPID!! today was.

Jemalelinh and I were originally supposed to report at 4pm. Around 1.30pm, the assistant supervisor calls us up and says they're behind schedule, report at 5.15pm instead. So ok, Jemalelinh and I decide to meet at Thomson Plaza at 3.30pm to have coffee first. Then at 4pm, the AS calls again and says oh sorry, now they're AHEAD of schedule. So now you have to report at 4.15pm!! LUCKILY, Jemalelinh had JUST gotten off the bus stop at TP. So we quickly tapao-ed our tea and rushed off in a cab. So when we reach the HQ at 4.16pm, we had to wait outside to get picked up by the bus, since we have to go to another site. About 15min later, we suddenly see what looks like our bus speeding out of the driveway without us. We are totally confounded but since no one has called us, we decided to continue waiting.

5pm!!! Finally the bus comes back and picks us up. What happened? The crew on-site had left something on the bus so the bus got called back. (-_-)"' Poor intern who was supposed to look after us also got left behind without notice. To her it was like the bus suddenly disappeared. It would have made more sense to pick us up on the way out also instead of turning back. Dumb. Anyway. That's not the end of it.

5.15pm, we reach the site. But wait on the bus first. Must check with boss what is happening. Ok. So we wait. And wait. And wait some more. At 7pm, boss finally comes up the bus and says sorry sorry, but things really went haywire. First they were ahead schedule, but shit! Jemalelinh and I weren't there to start our part early! Rush us down to the site and in the meanwhile, work on another section but shit! The apparatus is on the bus that went to pick us up! Finally get us down to the site but oh bloody crap!! Something else had to be done!!! So we effectively waited 2.5hrs for nothing. Anyway now it's late so might as well break for dinner first. Then suddenly they realize, oh eff... In the rush to get Jemalelinh and I on site, we weren't given time to get prepped up for the work. But nobody had the cow sense to send us back to HQ during our wonderful limbo period in the bus to get prepped. So instead of joining everyone for dinner, Jemalelinh and I are sent back to HQ. AS says she will tapao dinner for us. So we get prepped and rush down to Adam Road food centre thinking we're picking everyone else up and we will eat on the bus back to the site. But nooooo... We get to the food centre and eh?? We're supposed to go down and buy our food and eat there???? Bloody waste of time but OK lor! Whatever.

FINALLY! We get back to the site and we start work. Everything seems to go well until Jemalelinh and I are told to wait for a while as we're not needed for a certain section of the project. Ok so we go off to wait somewhere. There was nothing to sit on so we had to sit on the dirt. There is absolutely NO welfare for temps. Once again Jemalelinh and I were made to wait for almost 2hours before we were called out again. By this time it's already about 12.30am. Work some more, work some more. OK DONE! Just need one last thing but the rest of the crew have to move all the equipment to the other end of the site first.

So as we 4 girls (2 plus another temp and the intern) are waiting with boss and AS, we start talking and Jemalelinh says actually her parents are already waiting at HQ. Boss is like HUH?? Didn't you tell them you'd be ending late? I cut in and said yes well, the schedule said we'd be done by 12am. Boss is confused and stupid AS (we all hate the AS. She is BLOODY irritating) says noooooooo!! The schedule clearly says 2am! And she starts flipping through her file for the schedule to show us but we calmly inform them that it's 2am for the OTHER temp. For Jemalelinh and I it's 12am. You should've seen her face fall. Proven wrong then not happy already lah! Stupid cow. Boss is like oohhh shiiitt.... How come there's such a cockup in the schedule??? So sorry! But boss is nice and we all like the boss so we all can forgive boss.

The wonderful thorny cherry on the whipcream of irritation is when after we finally finish the last section and we're packing up to go back to HQ, AS comes along with her stupid file of schedules and says see see, this is the old schedule yah? I looked and pointed out the end-time to her and said yah, 12am. Then she flips to another green piece of paper and says but you see here, this is the new schedule. I didn't want to tell her that actually the "new" schedule states Jemalelinh's and my end-time as 10.45pm. I just told her that well, we weren't told. NONONO! She says! I called you this afternoon what!! Jemalelinh and I look at her calmly and explained very kindly (as you would to people with low mental ability), that she only told us the new reporting time. What we WEREN'T informed off was that our end-time had also changed.

Bloody cow I tell you. I really wanted to just slap her. Even when we were being dropped off at the HQ she was being stupid. We had to return our passes at the entrance gate and poor intern was trying to get the message across that Jemalelinh and I had to be dropped off at the gate but stupid AS was dunno talking about what with the boss so they didn't hear any of us at all. Then when the bus had already driven inside the compound and they found out we had to return our passes, gave us exasperated looks and said why didn't you say so earlier?? Poor intern tried to explain but they wouldn't listen. Boss just left it at the aiyah, nevermind lah, but thanks girls for all your hard work and got off the bus. That bloody AS, as the bus turned around to send us back to the gate, just kept on chiding and chiding as if Jemalelinh, intern and I had no common sense at all and we were all in the fault for everything except herself and her inability to listen. I tell you...... I really wanted to just hit her! Not slap anymore. I wanted to PUNCH HER BLOODY FACE IN!!!! F***ed up.

So glad it's all over. Don't have to see that stupid woman ever again. I shall go and bathe now and go to sleep. 3.44am already. Ranted for an hour. Goodness. But I really had to get it off my chest. Hmph. Stupid cow.

Some Updates

Alright alright. Due to popular demand, I have returned to blog some more about my life, which is basically one huge rant fest. I don't know why people bother reading this really. My life is so boring compared to other people like say... Monkey! Monkey is having such an adventure now. And Bubba's about to embark on another exciting adventure too! Go and read their lives. Shoo. But for those who need a cure for insomnia... Here's the life of a siew mai called Veetwo.

I've started with my Japanese at Ikoma Language School. Monday was the first lesson I had with my actual class and sensei, Nakamura-san. Only it was to be my first AND last lesson with Nakamura-sensei, since she's going to be starting work with a Japanese company this coming week. Sigh. And she was such a nice sensei too. So sad. My new sensei is going to be this woman called Ueda-san. I hope she's nice. Eep. I realized that a lot of the "new" stuff that we're learning now isn't exactly new for me. I've learnt it all in NUS... Oops. Think by right I'm probably half-JLPT 2 or something. Oh well, nevermind. This is serving as very good revision for me. Considering how much I have forgotten already. It's stupid. I remember certain more complicated sentence structures but no longer have any clue how to form some simpler ones. Super diao-ded. (-_-)'"

Missed my first book-keeping class on Tuesday due to... erm... Part-time work. Oh did I mention that my schedule has changed? The book-keeping is now every Tuesdays and Saturdays instead of Wed/Sat. And erm... Yes... I am currently working on a... project. Temporary basis of course. It will be over by the coming Wednesday. I might tell you people all about it when the time comes. Maybe.

Anyhow, back to book-keeping. I attended the second lesson today, which was the first lesson for me. Thank goodness I wasn't the only one who had missed Tuesday's lesson. There were 3 others and I managed to get to know one of them. Girl called Janice. Having a "friend" in any class always makes the class more bearable. Have yet to find a "friend" at Ikoma. Sniff! Anyway. The class was quite fun, but at the end of it was also very very brain-fried. Not just brain-dead mind you. Brain FRIED. Sizzled into nothingness. What to do... Had to learn the previous 3hours from Tuesday as well as today's 3 hours. 6 Hours worth of accounts keeping in 3 hours. Total peng san boy. (x_x) The amount of homework is phenomenal for a part-time course. I have to prepare at least 2 Tradings, profits and loss sheets, 2 balance sheets and dunno how many other tables and charts. And this is just the second lesson of the ELEMENTARY level. Can you imagine when I get to Intermediate?? POOOH!!! Die.

Oh craps. I might miss out on next Tuesday's class again. That silly project again. Dammit. The schedule they gave me says I should be done by 5pm... But somehow I think it will drag until 7pm. Dammit. And I'll have to travel from freaking Boon Lay. Pah!

まったく...早く終わりなさい！！！

Almost Here

Almost Here
Bryan McFadden/Delta Goodrem
Irish Son/ Mistaken Identity

(Guy) Did I hear you right?
'Cause I thought you said,
Let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason

Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

(Girl) But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough

And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

(Guy) I would change the world
If I had a chance.
Oh won't you let me?

Treat me like a child
(Together) Throw your arms around me
(Guy) Oh please protect me

(Together) Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
(Guy) Haven't I always loved you?

(Girl) But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough

And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

(Together) Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
(Guy) Haven't I always loved you?

(Girl) But when I need you, you're almost here
(Guy) Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
(Girl) And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Guy) Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

(Together) And now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
(Guy) 'Cause I know I'm almost here

(Together) Only almost here

Do We Really Break Up Like This ~ The Grasshoppers

难道我们就这样分手
歌手:草蜢 专辑:爱不怕
曲:蔡一智
词:林夕
编曲:王双骏

如果你寂寞是因为我停不了的忙碌
我愿意什么都放下不顾
如果你伤心是因为我不小心的疏忽
就用我一生的时间弥补

想不到让你爱我爱得那么痛苦
我以为已经尽了所能对你付出
从来也没有人会让我(如此)无助
想不到沉默的表示会是种错误
就让我大声宣布我的在乎

是不是雨个人在一起只是为了寄托
如果是这样我该怎么做
难道爱一个人只因为他的时间够多
而多年的感情不算什么

难道我们真的就这样分手
来不及告诉我有什么方法可以补救
难道我们就这样永远分手
没时间让我去问你
为什么你觉得我爱你爱得不够

这样分手

找一个我们都愿意相信的理由
一定是我的付出还不够
让你有所保留
一定是我没有好好地告诉你我的感受
不管我们之间相爱已有多久

Translation:

Do We Really Break Up Like This
The Grasshoppers Album: Not Afraid of Love
Composition: Cai Yizhi
Lyrics: Lin Xi
Additional Music: Wang Xuang Jun

If my occupations are the cause of your loneliness,
I would give up everything willingly.
If you’re hurting because I never noticed,
I’ll make it up to you for a lifetime.

I never thought that your loving me would be so painful.
I thought I had done everything I could for you.
But never before has anyone rendered me so helpless.
I never knew silence was a mistake too.
Now, let me proclaim out loud how much I care!

Do people only stay together to burden each other with hopes and dreams?
If that’s the case what should I do?
Can it be you should only love someone who’s got time spare?
And years of feelings mean nothing?

Are we really breaking up like this?
There was no time to tell me how to fix things.
Are we really breaking up forever?
There was no time for me to ask you,
Why you thought I didn’t love you enough.

To break up like this…

Find a reason we can both believe in.
It must be that I didn’t do enough,
To make you want to stay.
It must be that I never really told you how I felt,
Even though we’ve been together so long.

Administrator Van

*adjusts new square-rimmed glasses* Ahem!

I'm on my way towards administration or management I think. Just look at the classes I just signed up for today...

1) Intermediate Japanese (JLPT Level 3) at Ikoma Language School

This was quite an adventure. I went over to check them out because I wasn't allowed to make a late enrolment at Pyaesse. The earliest I could enrol there was April. (-_-)"' So I went over to Ikoma and they said well, if you like, they could conduct a placement test for me on the spot, in the form of an informal interview, to see if I could join in any of the classes halfway. So out came these two senseis (one was called Nakamura... I can't remember the other one. I feel terrible coz I think I've been enrolled in her class.) just as I finished filling up a form requesting a placement test, and they started talking to me. I understood most of what they said to me, but for the life of me I couldn't remember my spoken Japanese and just sputtered through everything. I think I told them that I finished at NUS when I was trying to say that my studies in NUS stopped. Big Oops. But at the end of it all, my future-class sensei said that I was good! She said that clearly I could understand what she was saying and she actually understood what I said. So I was allowed to enrol exactly halfway into the current term, and the first lesson was supposed to just serve as a revision for me. (O_O) I couldn't believe my ears. I thought I was just making a fool of myself.

2) LCCI certification Book Keeping course at BMC (Ang Mo Kio Branch)

Check it out. I'm going to learn how to manage account books! Admin/Accounts Assistant Siew Mai is born! This is a very useful certification for potential secretaries or personal assistants apparently. And if ever I go into business with friends *blinks at certain pple* this will DEFINITELY come in handy. No need to hire anyone to settle my books. It's quite xiong.. Twice a week, 3 hours each time every Wednesday and Saturday. The receptionist who registered me got quite a shock when I said I was an NUS dropout, coz apparently she was from NUS as well. She was like, "Isn't that so wasted?? What modules did you take??? Almost graduated right?? So wasted!" I'm thinking,"Yes I know all that already. Can you just register me???" But I just smiled and said yah to everything she said. See? On my way to becoming typical admin person. Hahaha.

Anyhow. With these two classes, my week is officially half-gone. My current schedule stands as such:

Monday 7.15pm - 9.45pm Japanese Language
Wednesday 7pm - 10pm Book keeping
Thursday 7.30pm - 9.30pm Flamenco Primer/Segundo
Saturday 2pm - 5pm Book keeping

Egads. I will have no social life soon. And I'll never have to come home for dinner again!! (T_T) *shudder*

Comment Feature... ??

Something's up with my comment feature... I dunno... Doesn't seem to be working the way I want it to...

Test test...

Edit 8.36pm: I is not understanding. When I take away a certain html tag, all the comments show on my blog, which make it cluttered. Whereas if I put that html tag back in, my comment feature just disappears completely. I is not understanding this. Dunno WHAT the heck is going on. Oh well...

Edit Feb 01 6pm: Since I can't get the comment feature to work properly, it has been disabled.. Sorry pple. Have to make do with flooble.

Announcing...SIEWMAnIme

Introducing anime/manga, Siew Mai Style... Siewmanime!

Heh.

I have a new blog, just for posting my various doodlings. Go check it out. Not very complete though.

*~Siew Mai Style~*

Another Song Translation!

Haven't done one of these for a while. This is the ending theme from one of my latest obsessions that shows every night (really EVERY night. Monday to Sunday...) from 12.30am to 1.30am on Channel U. This 古装戏 called 移山倒海 樊梨花 (Yi Shan Dao Hai Fan Li Hua) or The Tales of Fan Li Hua. Very addictive show. Lots of angst. Hahaha! Anyway, here's the song. It's supposed to be two lovers singing a prayer to the Goddess of the Moon I think... The translation might not be very accurate coz it's actually a fu2 jian4 song. Taiwan show mah... So it's different from cantonese and not quite mandarin. My first time translating a fu2 jian4 song. Hir hir hir... If anyone spots any inaccuracies, drop me a post.

月娘啊!听我讲
歌手:江蕙/熊天益 曲/词:熊天益

（女）
啊月娘乎我拜托
这届请你爱照顾
这呢坎坷的人嗯望的爱
呒通搁再使我
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心

（男）
是什么使我坚持
孤单等甲这东时
耽误热情青春的花期
当我呒愿搁作梦
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心

（女）
是伊惦阮身边
呒管谁人怎样看
伴阮流浪的人向前行

（男）
是伊惦心内知影我会惊
犹原疼惜无奈的我

若是会冻知影我的梦

（合）
请你一定着爱保庇伊的人

（女）
总是有情人会冻体会
歌声流泄的心意
你看今夜裵两人的月当圆

（男）
呒通搁再使我
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心

（女）
是伊惦阮身边
呒管谁人怎样看
伴阮这款流浪的性命

（男）
是伊阮心内知影我会惊
犹原疼惜无奈的我

若是会冻知影我的梦

（合）
请你一定着爱保庇伊的人

Translation

Moon Goddess! Hear Me
Vocals: Jiang Hui/Xiong Tian Yi Composed/Lyrics: Xiong Tian Yi

(Woman)
Ah Moon Goddess, hear my prayer
This once, please take care
Of the love this undeserving person desires.
Please don’t make me
Swallow tears of sorrow again.
Who, who will warm my heart?

(Man)
What is it that makes me insist
On waiting alone until it’s too late,
Missing out on the spring of passion.
When I dream subconsciously,
I swallow tears of sorrow.
Who, who will warm my heart?

(Woman)
Who is it that stays so close?
Disregarding what others think,
To journey on with this vagrant wanderer.

(Man)
Who is this who knows my fears?
That loves a useless me without hesitation.

If my dreams can be known

(Together)
Please love and protect this person.

(Woman)
There will always be lovers who know
The true heart of the ever-flowing song.
See, on this sad night for two, how round the moon is.

(Man)
Please don’t make me
Swallow tears of sorrow
Who, who will warm my heart.

(Woman)
Who is it that stays so close?
Disregarding what others think,
To accompany this loner’s life.

(Man)
Who is this who knows my fears?
That loves a useless me without hesitation.

If you know my dreams

(Together)
Please love and protect this person.

Flamenco High. Baile!!

Have decided to enable the comment feature on my blog. This is for people who think that my flooble is too small for real commentary. :D But you're welcome to make noise in both places. Hahah..

Job Update: Still no job. Lalala... Still searching the classifieds. Don't worry!! Siew Mai will presevere!! Thanx everyone for the overwhelming support and lobang-lookouts!! Even trainer Shane is offering to help! So touched!!! *muakz* to everyone... except Shane. I'll just promise to do my cardio more regularly. Heh..

Just came back from flamenco class!!! Classes rather.. Since the four of us (Lydia, Pearl, Nekoweenie and me) from the primer class decided to stay on for the segundo class. Primer was quite fun. It was kind of like an extension of preparatorio, so it wasn't too difficult. And there was a family than joined us today. So cute. Parents and their daughter learning flamenco together. Then after primer we stayed on for segundo and it was like worlds apart!!!! The actual segundo people came in and we hid behind them during the class, trying very hard to copy them. MY GOODNESS!!! The speed of the zapateado is like 10x the speed we were doing in preparatorio. I was probably like the worst of the lot lah. Couldn't get the beat at all. Poor Angel was looking more stressed by the minute. But in the end it was FUN!!! AHAHHAHA!!! I must practice my ria. Totally off already. See lah. Two months never practice, dunno how to do ria already. Tsk tsk... Ok Nekoweenie, when are we going to have private practices with each other? Let's have that flamenco video marathon some weekend soon. WHeeee!!! High already. Hahahaha...

OOOOOOOHHH!!! And we got our exam certs back!!! Nekoweenie and I both got HONOURS!!!! Yay yay!!! That's just one below Honours with Distinction!! MY GOSH!!! I thought I'd be getting only a commended at best because I made so many mistakes!!! I would've been thankful for just a pass!! But Deanna Blacher gave me HONOURS!!! YAY YAY YAY!!! So happy!!! Flamenco! Baile!! *ta ria ria**stomp stomp stomp**clap clap*

A Future In Popcorn?

Well... I went down to Heeren today to check out the store which placed an ad in the classifieds. Turned out to be this beach/swim/sports wear store called NewUrbanMale, which did have a small section for ladies wear but catered mainly to the New Urban Male. So in slight shock, I decided to walk around the Annex for a while to see if there were other options and also to decide whether or not to go into NewUrbanMale and ask about the job. There were two other stores which placed an ad on their windows, one was a ladies clothing store and the other was a little store which sold only sunglasses. So after some discussion with Nekoweenie, I went into the ladies clothing store to ask about the job. I was turned down immediately. Why? No retail experience. Sigh. The only complaint I have is that the ad on the window didn't specify that retail experience was required. But I suppose I should have expected that. So stupid.

Anyway, after that rather embarressing encounter, I hung around wondering about NewUrbanMale for a little while, then decided not to pursue it since they probably want someone with retail experience also, just that they couldn't afford so many lines in the classifieds. Felt a little depressed after that so left to go to FitnessFirst for a short run on the treadmill in hopes that the resultant endorphines would cheer me up. After a 35minute session on the machine, went and showered and proceeded to go home... Not feeling any different. If anything I was getting slightly more depressed about the whole thing. I need working experience to get a job but if I don't get a job I'll never get any working experience. What a paradox. And it's true which makes it suck all the more. Sigh. I've only ever worked 3 1/2 months in NUH as a temp admin assistant... But only because I managed to land a lobang from my aunt. I don't think it really counts for much. Haiz. Will I really end up popping corn and issuing tickets and mopping floors for GV?

Extra Update

Ooop.. Just realized that an entry about curry puffs is quite a far cry from the one before (which had the most crying I ever had in a single entry) and I should actually update people as to how I'm doing now in the emotional state department or whether I've just gone and lost all sense of sanity.

I'm doing ok. Still freaked out about having to go look for a job even though I have very little working experience and no degree to speak of. But it helped that on that particular day I wrote that prayer, somebody called me up and instead of telling me of things I should be doing, listened to me cry over the phone. Even though I probably wasn't very comprehensible, this person listened anyway and when I stopped talking to sob - which was a number of times - kept silent and never once asked me to stop. I woke up the next day with my eyes slightly swollen but I did feel much better. Still freaked but at least it's not the end of the world anymore. That one phone call helped me deal with the fear inside so I'm really grateful for my friend. I needed to cry and I needed someone to cry to, without any interruptions. So now I'm done crying and I've learnt that there's actually someone who's willing to listen to me cry. And that helps. :)

Now I just have to see about that job...

Never-ending Job Hunt... And Curry Puffs

Had a curry puff just now, but I think it's been justified by the fact that I walked all the way to Junction 8 and then walked all the way back again. Heh. Went there to do some grocery shopping at NTUC with my sis and the maid, but in the end we only managed to get half of what we wanted to buy at the neighbourhood Prime Supermarket on the way back. We actually managed to find everything at NTUC and we were lining up at the checkout counter already when the system suddenly hung. It was quite amusing. All the counters except for one couldn't operate. So there was this one amazingly long queue right at the very end, all the other cashiers were in a mild panic and the floor supervisor looked like he was about to cry. Most of the customers rushed over to the one working counter while some patiently waited in their original queue. I think by the time we left the working queue had stretched from the counters to the opposite wall.. I'm not very sure but it was a bloody lot of people. Other customers who were in a rush or decided it wasn't worth waiting so long just quietly put their groceries back or left them with the NTUC people and left. And from the chaos emerged the much feared Ugly Singaporeans, madly steering their carts towards the working queue to try and claim a space or making demands at the crew who really couldn't do anything since this was an overall system failure. One particular woman came up to the nice auntie serving our counter and asked if she could just pay up without scanning all the groceries. Of course the auntie said no, cannot. Because they'd have to account for the stock. The woman's face became really really black and she very discourteously and loudly exclaimed, "HUH!! FORGET IT!" and stormed out. Come on!! It's nobody's fault here. What's the point at shouting demands at the counter crew when they themselves have no idea what triggered the system failure? And they're probably at a greater disadvantage than we are since they're the ones who are about to lose hundreds of dollars tonight. We just have to change our dinner plans for tomorrow. Tsk...

Anyhow, I finally recieved an official letter from NUS stating that my appeal has been rejected. I sent in the appeal on the 3rd and the referrals on the 5th. This letter they sent was dated the 20th and today is the 25th. Yup. NUS is indeed a world-class university in terms of efficiency. Ahh.. Not that it matters anymore.

Still looking for a job. Going down to Heeren tomorrow to try my luck after seeing a very very tiny ad in the classifieds today about some clothing store there that needs people. I suppose manning a store is slightly better than being service/counter crew at GV. But maybe if I don't get the clothing store job I will apply to be counter crew for GV... Hahaha... A job's a job right? Somebody has to do it anyway.

Unless... Somebody's got a lobang hidden away somewhere... Anyone with a family cafe that needs help? Lalalala...

I want another curry puff... *drool*

My Prayer

God,

Let the tears that need to fall, fall.
Tell my heart it's alright to weep, to wash away my fears.

I know what I need to do, Lord.
Everybody's helping too, telling me what I need to do.
I'm thankful, Lord, really, that everyone tries to help.
But Lord, please understand:
I need to deal with being scared first.

I've never been so scared.
I'm crying as I type. And that scares me too.
I don't know how to deal with fear, because it's never been so real.

I don't know what to say to people,
Coz I think that they're scared too.
They're scared of saying something wrong.
Coz that might piss me off some more.
At least, that's what I think.

That's why I'm writing this here, Lord,
Even though it's more for you than anyone else.
But it's easier to explain myself when I'm talking to you.
So I hope you'll let me share my prayer to friends, or those who would be friends.
Coz I think they'd like to know too. I hope.

I need to deal with this and I know what must be done.
But for the moment, God,
Please could you hold my hands? - they're shaking really hard -
Then, just for a while, just let me cry a while.

WARNING!!: Super Rant Entry

This is a total rant-fest. So if you're sick of me whining and ranting and complaining, just stop reading now. I MEAN IT!

I'm sorry to continue whining, but I've finally figured out that I'm really very scared. I don't know what's going to happen and damned if I know what I'm supposed to do. It's kind of like I've become trapped in some time nexus and am in suspended reality while everyone else's life goes on as usual outside of this wall I'm closed behind. Yes yes... I know... Go find a job. Go sign up for a course in something-or-other. Do this, do that. I know all that. And I'm trying. But I'm still scared as hell. I just e-mailed Kuldip to ask for another testimonial that's more general (i.e. addressed "to Whom it may concern") so that I could include it in all my applications, and he asked that I give him a CV that he can refer to. A Curriculum Vitae (some websites I went to argue it should be Vita since we only lead one life per person [in most cases anyway] but Vitae seems to be the most common usage... I digress..)!!! I've always known there'd come a day I'd have to write a professional CV but now??? What am I going to include?? Education: University (uncompleted) ??? OMG!!!! I'm totally freaking out. Then today I finally remembered that I should somehow try to get an official record of my student activities in NUS. Must go and find that bloody white card and fill it in and get KR JCRC to sign it. RJ can sign for me??? *SOBS* I think I need to find a time where I can just totally rant and cry my heart out and I need to find someone to do it with. But somehow I just can't when I really want to. I think it's out of habit. I've somehow managed to condition myself not to cry too often. This is bad. All this angst building up is totally unhealthy. I need help. *wails out Smallville theme* Somebody saaaaaaaaaavvvvveee meeeeee...!!!

HELP!!! *freaks out some more* HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLPPP!!! *uber-freak-out*

Lost In the Snow
Russell Watson

Rise and shine
Wake up your sleepy head
Cause now it's time to leave your cozy bed
As the dawn is waking
A new adventure is waiting

Walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you won't believe it's you
Its happening to
You're lost in the snow

As night time falls
You cry
In your darkest fears
You think you've lost your friend
Who will dry your tears
But a new light is dawning, and a new day's calling

Walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you can't believe it's you
That holds the dream
You're lost in the snow
You're lost in the snow

Though you feel lost without her
Soon the night time will be over

And you'll be walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you won't believe it's you
It's happening to
You're lost in the snow
You're lost in the snow

My Intellect

You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers.

Verbal/Linguistic		57%
Musical/Rhythmic		54%
Bodily/Kinesthetic		54%
Logical/Mathematical		54%
Visual/Spatial		50%
Intrapersonal		50%
Interpersonal		39%

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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Ahem!! *adjusts half-rimmed glasses and stares over them* Well now...

Paperwork.. BAH!!

Went out with Jemalelinh yesterday coz it was her b'day. Robbed her of her Latin books in Borders and bought them for her instead as a birthday present, seeing how I had put off buying her present until the very last minute. Then we hung around for a little while before going up to Sakae Sushi to stuff ourselves during the buffet. Hirhirhir.. I still managed to secure a student discount even though my student card is now defunct. Hirhirhir... Should make a career out of this.. Siew Mai: Professional Con-student. Whahaha..!! Anyhow... After crawling out of Sakae we rolled over to Tanglin shopping centre to have coffee at Jemalelinh's friend's deli. It was serious over-eating... I'm still feeling the effects of it today. I can't believe that the weighing scale didn't move when I weighed myself today. So amazing.

Anyway, went down to ACJC and MGS to get the copies of my old certs stamped and certified. The MGS admin was really nice about it, even though I had like... 10 sets of papers to sign. For MG this included my 'O' level cert, ECA report and leaving cert. So the poor woman at the front desk had to stamp and sign 30 pieces of paper for me while answering dunno-how-many phone calls, and still managed to keep up a friendly conversation with me inbetween it all. It was the ACJC admin that really put me off.

I actually went down yesterday before I went to meet up with Jemalelinh but I'd forgotten my originals so they couldn't verify it for me. So I went back today with my originals in tow. The same woman who spoke to me yesterday saw me and asked if I'd brought my originals today. So I said yes and was about to pass everything to her when she just plopped the ink pad and the stamp in front of me. When I looked at the things on the front desk and looked back at her with question marks all over my face, she told me to finish stamping everything first and then pass it all back to her. Then she wandered off to go and gossip to some other admin person. I was like... Diao... Ok lor... So I stood at the front desk looking like an idiot and proceeded to stamp all 10 sets of copies.

After stamping two sets she came back and said that ok, she'd sign as I finished stamping. So I thought.. Ok lah.. Not so bad. Macam like some kind of production line, also quite efficient lah hor... So she took my two stamped sets of paper and proceeded to walk around the office like she was in search of something. I shall give her the benefit of the doubt by assuming she was looking for a pen. After going one whole round miraculously never finding a single pen, she comes back and says that she will just wait until I finish stamping everything coz there's no place for her to sit down at the front desk! I look down and true enough there are like tons of boxes there which just goes to show that the ACJC admin is about as organized as they are efficient. So she gives me back the two still unsigned sets of copies and proceeds to go gossip with her friend again.

Finally I finish stamping and look up to find her still talking to the other admin pple. I try to catch her eye and smile but instead she goes off to the other side of the office and starts talking to another person. Even when she's looking me straight in the eye, she continues talking and refuses to come over!!! And the other admin people in the office don't even bother to come forward to help me even though by now I've been standing there holding the stamped copies for about 5 minutes. I'm really irritated by now and then another woman comes into the office and asks if she can help me as soon as she sees me. She was nice enough about it and said she'd take the copies to put on the first woman's desk for her to sign and tells me to just take a seat. As soon as I sit down the irritating woman finally comes out and asks where my copies are. When I tell her they're on her desk now, she says ok, come back later to collect them. I stared at her since I couldn't understand why she couldn't just sign them now. I mean, if she's so free that she can just walk around the office talking to other people... This woman just stares back and says yah yah, go have lunch or walk around or something. Just come back later.

I mean... COME ON!! This is just plain unprofessional and inefficient. I seriously don't see how the MGS admin can be so nice about it and ACJC admin makes it known that it's such a chore. COMPLETE NONSENSE!!! Pah. Anyway I finally collected the copies an hour later and went down to NUS to meet Jemalelinh and ask the Registrar's Office for a transcript, which I will have to photocopy and certify as well (sigh). As I was filling up the request form... I started thinking about the one year's worth of Fs which will most likely just offset the other 3 sems of not too bad Bs and Cs. Wondered if I will get rejected by all the unis I'm applying to when they see the Fs. I started getting really upset by it coz truthfully speaking, it's a very scary thought... And it's damn scary trying to pick up the pieces and start all over again. I kinda snapped at Jemalelinh after getting on my own nerves... So yes.. I'm sorry I snapped.. :( I didn't mean to.

Shane trying to help me get a job at the hotel where his cousin is working. Maybe front desk assistant or something. It's at the Inter-Continental Hotel in Bugis. A bit scary. Always felt that finding a job is damn scary, even if it's found through lobangs. Even the time when I started work at NUH, the first day I went in to meet the HR person I was breaking out in cold sweat and my voice was all squeaky. Rrrrrr... Hopefully I don't screw things up if I get this job. They SHOULD provide training right??? *scared look* I don't want to get fired on my first day for messing up some reservation or some check-in... Eeeeep... *squeak**gulp*

Inescapable Fate

Before I start my long sad story for the day, some updates on my somewhat screwed up mundane life:

My mother and I have worked out that I do actually need to go down to MGS and ACJC to get the copies of my school certs stamped and certified so that's going to happen tomorrow. And I'm also going to have to e-mail Kuldip for another character testimonial. *pui pui pui* NUS still hasn't sent any response as to my appeal and both my mother and I have concluded that it's probably not worth the grief to pursue it. Anyway I've done my part according to the book so now it's their job. So now my mother is encouraging (read: nagging) me to go and find some life skills courses like secretarial courses or beauty/grooming courses to join. SIGH!!! But I guess she's right. I can't just sit around all day right? Sigh. Probably should go and find a job also. Anyone need a house-cleaner? Can only clean. Can't cook. Or rather can only cook limited things. Laundry also can. :p Clothes are down one size!!! *cheer* Went shopping with mum on Saturday and when my mum presented me with a pair of size 14 jeans to try the salesgirl said that it looks too big for me and that I look more like a size 12. *cheer* So now I even LOOK smaller. Good. Must keep losing weight. Aim to go down to size 8. Ganbatte!!

Ok. Now I start my main entry. Found out yesterday morning that James Creffield passed away. If the surname sounds familiar to some it's because he was the husband of Geetha Creffield. For those who don't know completely, Geetha was my drama teacher in ACJC. The funeral was held at the Mandai Crematorium today. So I went down to pay my respects. I was amazed but not surprised at the number of people that turned up. The Creffields were loved and respected by many people. Besides friends and family, the entire staff of the ACJC faculty turned up and of course, her class students and her drama and debate students. Even alumni turned up. It was a very touching sight. James had gone rockclimbing near Bukit Timah Hill on Saturday morning and met with an accident that claimed his life. I don't know the details of the accident but I know that he was with his close friends, so thank God he wasn't alone when it happened. It was ironic though, because barely a month ago James and Geetha were in Phuket when the tsunami hit. They were also about to go climbing that day when the guide told them to get down and run for their lives. So they escaped that terrible disaster, but I guess... There's no escaping fate. I'm sure James would have seen the irony of it all. He was a very jolly, mischievious person who always had a laugh up his sleeve. May he rest in peace, and may God give comfort to his friends and family and especially to Mrs C, who had to say farewell to the first and only man she loved in her life.

PAH!!

I'm feeling very pissed off now. I don't know whether to be pissed off at myself or my mother or NUS or just the whole damn world in general. Stupid stupid stupid STUPID!!!!! I think I really should just go and stand in the middle of speeding traffic and be done with it. I HATE my EFFING life!!

Illegal Web User

Ha!

I'm here in the NUS library now waiting for 2pm to come so that I can sell off stupid Paradise Lost to someone for $10. I was actually hanging out in the refreshment area (what do they call it?? Perk Point??? Yeah.. some perk...) reading my little story book of Greek legends when Romeo and Juliet decide they have to share a corner with me on account of there not being enough seats in the place. Then they have to start going all touchy-feely right in front of me and that is just gross. I think they were just hoping that I'd go away so they can just take over the whole sofa and start making out on it or something but I decided to 'ignore' them and stayed there for over an hour reading my book. But there's only so much mush you can bear so finally I gave up and ran away to the computers... Where I find that some silly Pakistani in a monk's robe has been there since I came in to have a look at 11.30am. Everyone else has had their turn at the comps and this idiot is still listening to his mp3 player and hogging up the computer. Well.... I should talk... Technically not supposed to be using the school facilities but hey at least I don't hog it for 3 hours.

Going out with Jemalelinh later. *cheer* Dunno what we're going to do sia. She ends class at 3pm so I still have to wait one more hour after I meet the last buyer for the day. Mebbe we can go Holland V and have a late lunch or a dessert. NYDC!!! Whoop whoop!!! I feel so justified nowadays coz I started losing weight again now that Shane's back on the job. Whahahaha. Dun tell him that. His head will just explode.

Filled up most of the applications liao. Just need to fill in financial details and I need to sit down with my parents to fill that up. Most of the applications I put down a preference for Biomedical Sciences or Biology. Surprised or not? I was quite surprised myself when I actually thought about it. But then I figured that since I'm such a closet nerd, why not? Really lah... I think I'm not as cut out for humanities as I thought I'd be. Anyhow, the cool thing is that if I actually get to do Biomedical Sciences instead of general Biology, I have the option of entering a medical school for post-graduate studies. Dr Siew Mai!!! Can you imagine? Hahahaha.... I think the world will just automatically destruct. Hirhirhir... Who wants to be my first patient?

Me Nerd. Dur...

Heh heh heh... Closet nerd. Hirhirhir...

My Life: The Soap Opera

Heh heh... Sorry... Haven't updated in a while. I suppose you're all wondering what's happened to me and my appeal and if I finally ran off to drown myself in the Singapore River. I didn't of course but I think if I tried I would have died of the stink before I actually drowned.

Anyway. I handed in my appeal letter on Monday. Actually I went down to KR first to bug Master about my referral but he was still writing it or vetting it or something. And he also wanted it to look more official so told me to go find a computer somewhere and print out a letter asking for his help. Maybe I hurt his feelings by going to Ms Tan first. But I also suppose it makes more sense to have Master sign the letter as a first-person writer, although technically speaking half the letter was written by Ms Tan. Master just added in a couple of frills and his weight as Hall Master. So I did all that and went off to the Dean's office to drop off my own appeal and told them I'd follow up with a referral letter the next day.

Back home, my mother (who, it turns out, is a friend of ol' Kuldip... or at least, they used to be colleagues in NUH... and has already been e-mailing him about my plight and pulling strings) and I continue to send e-mails to bug him. Finally he sends an e-mail saying that he will tell the Hall Office to call me as soon as the letters (referral and the CCs) are signed and dropped off, which to our understanding would be Tuesday morning. However Tuesday morning came and past so I finally called the office to ask if Master had dropped off my letter and if I could come to collect. They were dropped off alright... Just not signed. So diao-ded. So I had to wait one more day before I could finally hand in the ruddy referral to the Dean's office. Rrrr...

As if the stupid appeal wasn't giving me enough of a headache. I have to get irritating little year 2 lit girls (actually just one who's irritating) e-mailing me and asking how come I sold off the books they wanted and next time for Pete's sake tell them. *Roll eyes* This girl e-mailed me in December and I told her IF she gets the module and then IF she still interested contact me again. Unfortunately for her some other little girl contacted me first and since I hadn't heard from the irritating one I agreed to sell two of the books to the nice little girl instead. Then of course the fates have to play a cruel joke and irritating little girl e-mails me again. So I politely tell her that unfortunately two of the books are no longer available but does she still want the other two. Then she replies with her rant and oh alright she'll still buy the two other books (ARGH! CONDESCENDING TWIT!! HATE CONDESCENDING TWITS!!!!). Then she demands no less (in question form but the tone is quite apparent), that we meet up on Tuesday at 9.45pm AT NIGHT. *FUME FUME FUME* So I replied (this time not so politely but still quite more than she was) that I wouldn't be in school on Tuesday, much less at night but I'll be in school on Monday to meet other buyers. On hindsight I should have just told her to shove off and sell the remaining books to another nice little girl who asked for them. *SULK* Hate stupid little lit girls who think the world of themselves. Aronwy, you're exempted of course. You might be little but you're not stupid and you have a brain PLUS common sense. *Fume* Stupid little girls in their anorexic jeans and stupid outfits and horrible furry pens or notebooks thinking it's so vogue to be studying lit and quoting poetry. *FUME SULK FUME*

This is turning out to be quite an essay. But what do you expect when I haven't updated for so long? I need to make it up to my loyal blog fans. Wahaha... Anyway. Staring at a whole pile of application forms. Not sure how to fill them up exactly and kinda hoping that I really don't have to. Sigh. Wish my life would just come to a standstill right now. Then I wouldn't have to do anything, and there wouldn't be anymore headaches or heartaches. So far the only highlights in my soap operatic life of the last two weeks was hanging out with Jemalelinh occasionally and Nekoweenie's regular show of support. OH and of course there was that shopping trip with Phoenich. Well... More like I shop and he paid for everything. WAHAHAA!! But they were all for him lah.. I'm not some kind of cheap money grabber (not yet anyway... and even then I'd be an EXPENSIVE money grabber... hirhirhir...). I was just there as a fashion consultant. I tell you working in tiny little cubicles in Science Park and knowing only the route between work and home can do a lot of damage for a person's social life and his sense of fashion. Thank goodness I was around I tell you. HOHOHO!!! *gloat sense of great self-importance gloat*

Listening... Waiting... Praying... Hoping...

Jemalelinh came over yesterday to just nuah. We went grocery shopping at J8, bought a lot of prawns and came back to my place to cook. It was pretty fun and HEY! We didn't give ourselves indigestion after that. Then after that we sat around the TV room and talked and ate Famous Amos and talked and... You get the idea... Talk and talk and talk... And I think that the greatest thing that we did for each other was that we just listened as the other one talked. It didn't matter if advice was given or not. I'm really glad that this friendship was saved. I know that during the whole of last year, I was kind of... not there. But when I managed to find my way back, Jemalelinh was still there. :D I don't know why you stuck around but I love you so much for it. :)

I've written my appeal letter. So now I'm just waiting for Ms Tan to pass me her referral letter. I could actually just hand in my appeal without it but the referral would give my case a boost. E-mailed the dept head for an appointment but there's been no e-mail so I'm guessing he's not around. Probably on leave in the same happy holiday place that all the Vice-dean's are in. Sigh. You know what they say about harsh reality hitting you in the face? I got a bit of that yesterday when I checked the CORS website and found that they had suspended my CORS account. I think I was hoping that they wouldn't do that until the appeal period is over but I guess technically speaking I've already been dismissed. So there really wouldn't be a point for the system to keep my account active would there?

They say the worst part is the waiting. It's so true. I keep wondering "what happens if Ms Tan gives me the referral late?", "what if I finally get all I need and send in my appeal but it's too late??", "what happens if they look at my appeal and throw it in my face?", "what happens if..." over and over and over again. So now, I don't know if I should just sit tight, or if I should start planning my time-table for next sem or... I don't know. What should I do?

Repaired

Ok. Most of the damage has been repaired albeit with some changed headings coz I no longer remember what I originally called them and with some bits still missing. If I'm missing a link to somebody's blog please let me know. Seriously I don't know what happened. I thought I was just changing my "Daily Snow" comment and POOF!!! My entire blog has disappeared. Ah well... It's back now.

Sigh... Called up the Dean's office to ask when we'd be receiving our results slips coz I'd probably receive my dismissal letter then as well. So called to ask if I should wait for the letter before writing in an appeal or just write it anyhow. The woman on the phone told me that I can start writing it now, except that all the vice-deans are happily away on vacation and they don't know when my appeal can be processed. Sigh. I don't know friends... I really hope that I can at least finish properly in Singapore. I'm not ready to say goodbye yet.

D-U-H

Damn i am such a klutz... If you're wondering why some sections of the side bar have different titles or are missing bits well... It's because I actually managed to delete my template somehow and I can't remember everything I put there. So I am now in the process of repairing my blog, but the main body is up and so is the chatterbox. So carry on my good people. Don't let all the reconstruction distract you.

Return From Cat City

Came back from Kuching earlier this evening. Got a new Nike knapsack from my aunt, had my fill of the wonderful wonderful Sarawak guolong mee and ever-yummy Sarawak Laksa, a slightly burned face from walking one hot morning all the way back to my grandpa's place from the Dayak market.

Was really happy to see my grandpa again. Only get to see him once a year and I know how happy it makes him to see the old house get filled up with people again. There's always so much noise, I suppose it reminds him of the past. Apparently the local Chinese newspapers came and interviewed him earlier this month. They published his story in over two days in a ten or eleven-part series about people and events that affected the history of Sarawak.

I always knew that my grandpa was a really great person and I always saw him as something of a hero. But that two-part news feature really made me feel so proud that he was my grandpa. Of course the whole family also had a bit of fun translating the article, since besides my grandpa, my sis and I are the only ones who are more fluent in Chinese. As with most Chinese newspapers, there was all this flowery language which served to emphasize or serve as anologies as to my grandpa's achievements. So there was great fun and laughter as my sis and I ran literal translations of the proverbs and similies used, which made my grandpa sound like some kind of demi-god. And my grandpa, never one to miss out on putting on a good show, quite matter-of-factly agreed with it all, claiming all that the reporter put in to be "absolutely true!" Well... For him to actually be the reincarnation of the legendary Hua Tuo is a bit of a stretch but hey! We all had fun with it and he was greatly amused.

What really saddens me though is that even though my grandpa still obviously has a really brilliant mind (he can still remember his Japanese along with at least 3 other languages besides English and here I can barely remember my Jap... Not to mention all that history he's experienced... It's all in there in his head!!), his body is shutting down at an increasing rate. Last year, although he needed help getting up, moving around and with meals, he was still turning the pages of his newspapers himself and was still able to hold long conversations before getting too tired. This year I never even saw him lifting up the papers. His arms had become too stiff and his fingers are completely frozen. His ability to have a proper conversation is so stunted now because he gets so physically tired just from getting up and moving around the table. Sometimes we're all seated at the table with him and talking, and his eyes will close or he'll start to sink a little in his chair. We know he can actually hear what we say because sometimes he'll suddenly comment and it's not just the random mumblings of a senile old man. He really knows what we were talking about. It's only because his body can't physically stay awake for very long. I'm ashamed to say this but sometimes I look at him and actually wonder if this man was really once the same grandpa that would lift me and my cousins onto his shoulders and turn us upside down, even when he was already 60-odd years old. He did so many wonderful things in his life... He doesn't deserve to have to grow old like this. It's not fair. Sigh... But... Such is life. I just hope he can stay happy for as long as possible.

In other news, I also received my Christmas present from NUS via the internet. I actually wanted to make an entry on the day itself but was attacked by teenage cousins. The cousins aren't so bad by themselves, I quite like my cousins (except for one anti-social bottomless pit currently taking refuge in my house and one she-monster from my dad's side who is gladfully going off to Dubai coz her dad got posted there for two years. Muahahahaha). The problem is that the presence of cute cousins means the presence of an uncle who is in constant need of an ego boost(goodness knows why). Back when my brother was serving NS in the air force and my eldest cousin (the bottonless pit) was in the M'sian navy, he was forever trying to compare the two. Even now with my brother on study leave and my cousin working in S'pore, he tries to find something to compare. Last year he tried to compare me and my other older cousin who's studying in Illinois. If he had found out about my situation there would be endless condescensions. Huh... Aiyah... Maybe Nicholas can help you lah.. Even though he's in freakin'faraway-Illinois doing bloodyhell-Engineering that has forPete'ssake-nothing to do with your major but Nicky's a scholarship boy lah and he can help you... *roll eyes* Save me. My uncles from both sides were all married into the family and for some reason there has to be a weirdo one to balance out the nice one on each...

Anyhow I got 2 C+s, 2 C's and a Satisfactory for Genes & Society. Not bad, considering that most of my second year was filled with F's. But I don't think it's enough for me to be put out of academic probation. I needed a B average for that. And considering that this sem was my critical sem, I'm actually expecting to see a dimissal letter for the Registrar's Office any day this week. Don't get me wrong, I'm not actually giving up hope yet. Just this morning before I left my grandpa's house for the airport I sent an "Intent to Appeal" e-mail to the Dean's office. A sort of "pre-appeal" letter. Actually my mother helped me with it coz I was still half asleep. Heh... Then I forwarded it to Ms Tan (my Resident Fellow when I was in KR) and Terada in hopes of establishing a support base should I actually need to appeal. Ms Tan has already replied and thankfully has offered to give me any help I need. Terada on the other hand, is off on another one of his gallivants and according to his auto-reply system will only be back next month. Hopefully he returns before the appeal period is over. So Ms O8ight, don't go booking your holiday ticket just yet. You might find yourself without accomodation. Hahah. But to all of you who've posted supportively on my chatterbox and those who've kept tabs on me through sms... RJ, O8ight, Eskie, Nekoweenie, Jemalelinh... I wanna give you all a BEEG HUG and THANK YOU for just being there. It's nice sometimes not to be told what to do. *Big teary-eyed grin* Thanx.

Kaname Jun!

Hmmph... Since Nekoweenie claims that Kaname Jun only looks good with his hair covering his face and posted an example pic I shall post a pic of him without his hair covering his face. He still looks good ok!! :P:P:P

Psycho Siew Mai Strikes Again

I just realized that I may actually be over-reacting again. The last post sounds a little end-of-the-world doesn't it?? I don't know. Actually it might be me running away again. Running away from NUS. I'm always running away from my problems or from things I find troubling. You guys want to know the truth? I applied for hall stay to get away from home. I hardly went home because I didn't want to be at home. Not that I was really having any problems at home. I just wanted to get away from my mum's nagging, my brother's machoism, my sister's trying-too-hard-ism... Basically I was running away from my family's expectations of me. And now for an even harsher truth.

I ran away from KR.

My mum telling me to withdraw from KR is only half the story. I wanted to get out. My mum actually suggested that I keep the room but withdraw from all activities. But I knew that was going to be difficult. I didn't want to be there and face all these people who expected me to give them something. Like I owed it to them to do something. So I used my mum and my grades as my ticket out of KR. I ran away. Again.

*bitter laugh* I can just imagine the reaction of those 6F bastards if they actually knew. On the other hand, they might not care at all. All of them were just waiting for me to fail anyhow.

Ok yes. I'm turning psycho. Listen to me... Talk about paranoia. Although I'm not unconvinced that those assholes upstairs (actually mainly 2 of them) were good people who had good intentions. They were f***ing bastards and hypocrites. And ok I'm going to stop now before I churn out an even more psycho rant.

End of A Chapter?

Everyone who reads this blog probably already knows that I've been on academic probation and that this sem was my last chance to redeem myself. The only person who didn't know was my mother. I mean, she knew that I had failed badly during my second year, but I only told her that much at the end of last sem. She didn't know that at that point in time I had already been on academic probation for one sem. And it wasn't easy telling her. After that everytime she brought up the subject of my grades it became difficult to communicate. I couldn't talk to her about it. But somehow yesterday I managed to sit down with her during lunch and talk about it calmly. I didn't become particularly upset or anything. I told her my chances of getting off probation was probably 50-50. So she suggested going down to the Dean's office to talk to the Dean or one of the Vice-Deans. Said that at least when the time comes for real appeals, the deanery would have an idea of my situation already.

So I went home and called the office to try my luck. Of course getting a hearing with the Dean is never that easy so they told me to go and find any of the admin officers first. So with Aronwy's advice to get it over and done with asap, I went down to school. Nekoweenie came along to lend moral support and for that I am ETERNALLY grateful. It's never easy when you have to go face the people on top and beg for mercy. So we got to AS7 and I asked to see an admin officer for advice. But they told me that they couldn't really advise me on anything until the results for this sem actually came out. Still, I am thankful that the AO on duty went through the trouble of listening to me and trying to find someone whom I could talk to. And I'm so glad that Nekoweenie came with me. Seriously if you hadn't been there I think I would have just imploded in front of the AO's desk. *POOMFFF*

So the wait for the results continue. Though at the same time, I am considering finding an alternative path of study. Some things that my mum and Nekoweenie said made me wonder. I was quite amazed when my mum said that it can't be denied that I was depressed and that I obviously had a problem the whole of last year. I never spoke to her about it and yet she knew, even though she never found out the root of the problem. Then she said that she could never quite understand why I insisted on studying arts even though I seem more comfortable with logic-based or methodical subjects. Made me wonder why I did too. It's kind of true you know. Just look at my 'O'-level results. Then when I told Nekoweenie about it, she said why not go study something like mass communications? Popular culture and science technology all mashed together.

I'm amazed at how other people can know me better than I know myself. I always thought myself as some kind of artsy fartsy person. But I'm really just a geek inside. Even Jemalelinh knows it without my having to say it. But then you know a lot about me without my having to say it Jemalelinh.. :p I'm a mixed breed I guess. Hahaha... Anyhow I've been looking at Monash and Curtin Techological University. My mum seems to like Monash a lot. Though Curtin's got something called Internet Studies and surprise surprise, it's actually a Bachelor of Arts. Talk about cross-faculty discipline. But I haven't really made up my mind. I might still decide to go back to studying the life sciences like bio or chem. I should decide quickly though since most foundation courses in Australia start in Feb and so do the diploma courses in Monash College (which will allow me to go straight into second year at Monash Uni). And yet... I'd like to just stay in Singapore a while longer. So here's hoping for the best.

I hope.

"Why Must We Keep Fighting?"

Went to watch this Japanese sci-fi movie called "Casshern" with Nekoweenie today. I must say that I was very entertained. We both were. We were giggling almost throughout the whole movie. Not because the movie sucked or anything but more because the direction of the movie was just one big anime cliche. Seriously it was like watching an anime with live people instead of 2D characters.

Some typical sci-fi/fantasy anime characteristics:
- alternate future where the world's atmosphere is severely damaged and mutants/aliens/cyborgs/robots are taking over the world and humans have courageously managed to overcome all odds to fight and survive.

- Wars and battles all over the place between humans and mutants/aliens/cyborgs

- Enigmatic scientist who comes up with some wonderful new way of saving the human race.

- He usually later turns out to be slightly mad as well.

- Poor estranged son of the enigmatic mad scientist who also happens to be the hero of the story.

- Heroine that everyone will fall in love with and who believes deeply in the good of everyone and will eventually be the deciding factor in the battle of good vs evil.

- Enigmatic bad guy who only wants the end of humanity as we know it. In most cases we find out later that he's not all that bad, just pushed to the edge due to heart-wrenching circumstances.

- Bumbling/dense henchman of Enigmatic Bad Guy who is actually very kind-hearted, just on the wrong side due to unfortunate circumstances. Sometimes turns out to be the most insightful character despite having fewer brain cells.

- Hot sexy dominatrix who kicks ass, especially if the ass is male. Usually has little to say and absolutely loyal to Enigmatic Bad Guy. Doesn't question his motives.

- Hot sexy bad guy who kicks ass, any ass. Also doesn't say much. Second-in-command to Enigmatic Bad Guy and also very loyal. Also tends to tread the line between good and evil.

Heh. Ok. Must stop. If I say anymore then this post would be just one big spoiler and I might as well just tell you the whole story. Not that I haven't already nearly done so. When I said the movie was just one big anime cliche, i mean it is one big anime cliche. But I suppose if you consider that it is based on a very old anime that ran during the 1970s, you could say the director is actually staying true to the story.

That's not to say that the movie was a terrible one. After you finish sniggering at the cliches you realize that it's actually quite good when you put it all into context. Very entertaining and actually very very thought provoking. The title of this post is actually a line that the heroine says somewhere in the middle of the show. Although it may have been unintended (and since the original story was thought of so long ago, I believe it is so), there are numerous parallels that you can draw to the state of the world that we live in today. Stem cell issues, mindless wars, racism, religious discrimination and religious fanatism, environmental issues, our growing dependency on technology... The list goes on my friends. It's also a cinematographic achievement. Like "Sky Captain", this film was made almost entirely on a CGI background with a live action cast. Only certain sets and props were real. Apparently there's some debate going on about who did it first but I don't really know the details. Right now I am currently quite in love with the Hot Sexy Second-in-Command, Barashin (the actor's name is Kaname Jun 要潤). So hot. I seem to have this bad habit of falling in love with characters that are standing on the edge. Hehehe... I want to go and buy the soundtrack. The songs inside quite quite cool.

So do I recommend this movie? Yes, actually, I do. I thought it was quite worth it. Although my only advice would be not to watch this movie with live-action movie expectations. Go watch it as an anime, and it will blast you away.

Cool trailer: http://www.apple.com/jp/quicktime/trailers/casshern_large.html
Trailer translation:

http://www.themoviebox.net/movies/2004/0-9ABC/Casshern/trailer-page.html

In Case You Haven't Noticed...

I added a small section to the side bar called "Daily Snow". This is for me to put down my thought for the day or just a random shout out if I don't really have anything to post. Now that the holidays have started I doubt I will have much to blog about. My life is that exciting. So happening hor. Tch.

I was looking at my teeth and the dentist was right. I do have big teeth. Good. Can bite people harder next time. Hahaha.. Yes yes... I'm talking about my wisdom teeth. The dentist gave them back to me and they've been sitting on my table. My mother suggusted soaking them in bleach or hydrogen peroxide to preserve them. Just for the heck of it. Heheh.. Trouble is that one of them is in bits. One big bit and 3 little bits. That's the lower one that he had to drill before he could yank it out. He actually told me to glue it back. -_-'" I'm looking at the pieces and I can't quite figure out where each piece goes... Tooth jigsaw... Hmm...

Egads... I'm actually writing a post about my already extracted wisdom teeth. Writing about the process of extraction is one thing. I'm writing about teeth that are now sitting on my table and looking at me. I seriously need to get out of the house and do something. I'm such a sloth.

Epitome of Miserable-ness

The past few days, I have been utterly miserable. Today I am MISERABLE.

My lower right side gums started to get really sore around Thursday and by the weekend it was so painful I could barely open my mouth. So today I went down to the dentist and as expected it was my wisdom tooth causing problems. What I didn't expect was that the upper wisdom tooth was aggravating the problem so that had to go as well. I was actually supposed to make another appointment for the surgery but as it so happened, one of the other patients suddenly postponed her appointment so I could do it today. So I had both my right side wisdom teeth removed and so the right side of my face is now numb and swollen. Actually the anaesthsia is starting to wear off so it's starting to hurt a bit. Ok. More than a bit.

Anyhow. The surgery itself was quite ok. Injected my jaw was loads of anaesthesia and it was numb within seconds. The upper wisdom tooth came out easily enough. He actually managed to yank it out whole. The lower one had to be drilled into bits before he could pick out the pieces. Then after that he gave them to me and told me to go home and glue it back together... -_-"' So diao-ded.

So I am going to be the most miserable person in the world today. Forgive me if I snap at anyone. I don't handle pain very well.

On an interesting note? After I took a dental X-ray, the dentist showed me something quite curious... I apparently have an extra but undeveloped tooth buried in my lower gum near my incisors... Wonder why it's there.. Maybe I'm one of those people who had an undeveloped twin.... O_o

Random Thoughts

Who is the fool and who is the wiseman?
One who acts the fool or one who claims the wiser?

Religion: As an abstract concept it can be amazingly simple. But sometimes it seems too simple not be abstract.


*ahem* Once again let me emphasize that these thoughts and everything else on my blog are my own opinions. You don't have to agree with them and you don't have to give any response either. Especially if your response turns out to be some kind of flaming. I'm not promoting my ideas nor do I insist that my opinions are the absolute truth. I'm just voicing out whatever's in my head. So it's not really your place to tell me that what I think is absolutely wrong either.

Mini-Reunion

Just came back from dinner with some of the guys from my JC class. Yee Sen, Lionel, Stuart and Ahmed. It was quite fun seeing them again. We ate about $85 worth of Marche and then went over to Bakers Inn at One Fullerton to have dessert and coffee. And that was another $53. Damn expensive. I'm very very poor now. But I must say that the warm chocolate cake is VERY nice. Except that it's the smallest cake I've ever seen. It was smaller than a can of tuna. Anyhow there was some catching up. But in the end a lot of the conversations turned into a remember this remember that and - boys being boys - talk about games, consoles, LAN, etc. And of course Stuart going on and on about how great Sydney is but insisting that he wasn't going to migrate. Would've liked to hear more about how all their lives have been so far. I mean except for Ahmed whom I see every now and then in NUS, I haven't seen the others since we graduated from JC.

In case any of you are wondering, I was never close to the girls in my class, which is why this little dinner consisted of the 4 guys and me. SB3 back then, if you want to put it really generally, was split into two. The half that Kelly Koh (my GP teacher) couldn't stand (i.e. spoilt, brainless, bengs, lians or jocks. A fine example would be V. Pang. *pui*) and the half that got along just fine with him (the MEP gang, half the boys in the class and me). Yes... Sad though it may be... I was the only girl in a group of boys. Except for Chun Rui but she was always more of the MEP gang. So yah. No matter what the class did, ultimately we always split into the two halves. Even during prom. And I always ended up hanging out with the guys. And it was fun! The first time those idiots brought me LAN gaming was damn hilarious. How the hell would I know how to play Counter Strike??? I "landed" and immediately got lost in the map. Nuts.

Just for the record, it's not "Veetwo and her boys". I'm just one of the guys. Aronwy declared that it's the same thing over MSN and I insisted that it's not. Even though she conceded in the end i don't think she was really convinced. And really I'm just lazy to explain it over MSN which is why I'm writing it in my blog, so don't take any offence Aronwy. It is NOT the same to me. "My boys" would mean like I take care of them, look after them or vice versa, or something to that extent. It's not the case at all! We were friends and buddies and we were all just part of the gang. But that's just MY opinion. MY view on the matter. MY way of defining things. I'm not saying your definition or your opinion is wrong but that doesn't make my point of view any less correct. Whether or not it was your intention - which I don't think it was. It just came out wrong - it sounded like you were pushing your views on me. And this isn't the first time it's happened.

So just a word of advice, for everyone who reads this blog - you need to be careful with the opinions and beliefs of other people. Even your friends. Actually it should be ESPECIALLY your friends. Every individual will have their own mindset. Their own POVs and their own way of thinking. RESPECT that. Just because someone thinks differently from you doesn't mean you can't be their friend. And just because someone IS your friend doesn't mean that they have to think exactly or even remotely like you. Friendship, or any other relationship, is based on love, understanding and mutual respect. Opinions and beliefs should not stand in the way of a potentially important relationship. So yes. Respect other people's beliefs, even if you can't understand it. Stay open to ideas because you never know - someone might just come up with something truly great.

But then again, that's just my opinion. Siew Mai logic if you will. ;) Cheers people.

Permanently Attached

To my chair, that is.

I have officially done nothing - absolutely NOTHING - for two whole days. Oh. Well there was the JLPT exam yesterday morning. That went fine. Except that I think I shaded one wrong circle under my registration number for one of the OASs (optical answer sheet)... But Nekoweenie says that if I wrote my name then it should still be ok... Hope so. Oh well... It's over. No point mulling over it anymore.

I can't believe I just bummed two days away sitting in front of my comp. Hmm... Actually that's not quite right either. I spent the rest of yesterday eating with my family and watching LOTR: The Two Towers Extended Edition. Then I spent today in front of my comp. And I wasn't even watching anime... Noooo... *ahem* I was.. er... *sheepishly* playing Neopets...

Just for the record, I'm not a regular neopet-er... I just go whenever I feel like it. So very often I find my pets in "dying" status. I wonder why they nvr actually "die". Hmm.. Oh well.

Having a little class gathering on Thursday. Mainly just the little gang that I was close to. Yee Sen, Ahmed, Lionel and Stuart. Yibin might come I think... Gosh... I haven't seen Lionel since I bumped into him one day in my first year, Yee Sen I haven't seen since graduation and Stuart too. To think Yee Sen used to be my best friend in JC... Hmm... Wonder if I'll have anything to say to them. Ha... Will definitely keep track of the number awkward silences that occur.

No Cure!

That's it. It is confirmed!

I have an incurable disease!!! It might be fatal. I don't know.

It's called Bummeritis. Very serious illness, Bummeritis. You can never get off your bum.

Let The Bumming Begin...

Lalala...

Exams are finally over. Except for my JLPT 4 exam which is tomorrow all the way in freaking Changi. Dunno why they have to build the Japanese school there. Anyway. Although I should be going through my tenses and verbs and particles... I'm sitting around playing Bejewelled2 and wondering whether or not to continue watching The Two Towers: Extended Edition. I was watching it this afternoon but got interrupted by my mum after an hour coz she wanted to go and see this other gym in Novena. Why are we looking at another gym when we've got Fitness First? Because trainer Danny was given the boot and he's going to the one at Novena. Apparently the Novena gym there's no obligation to join as a member even if you make use of the personal trainer services, unlike most gyms. And it's much cheaper. But to tell the truth I'd rather stay in Fitness First and take up training with Shane again. Yes.. Shane is back. He's left all the work to his business partner and come back to the gym to slack around and spread some more peranakan oiliness. But I feel bad for Danny sia. He's really actually quite a nice guy. A bit duh.. But he's nice.

Back to the current bumming. Heh. I watched the EE version of Fellowship of The Ring yesterday. That's why wanted to watch Two Towers today. Hehehe... Can't wait for Return of The King EE to come out. Woooo!! I still think Sean Astin deserves Best Supporting Actor. Sean Bean is good too!! Hee!!! Beanie Baby!! I just thought of that. REALLY!! Anyway... Elijah Wood sucks. HE CAN'T ACT!!!! *pui* Why they had to cast him as Frodo, I can't understand. Bah. Made him look weak. In the book he's not that weak. INJUSTICE!!! Down with Elijah Wood!!! Pah.

Really doesn't feel like I'm having an international exam tomorrow. Feel very slack about it. So nonchalant hor. Hahaha... Sigh... I might even forget to go.. Got that kind of feeling. Hahaa... No no... I WILL go... Don't worry. The question is how to get there. Apparently the only bus service there is SBS2 and the nearest MRT station is Tanah Merah but you still need to take a cab after that. Sucks. Can't get the parental units to send me coz my mum is taking part in some funny charity run and my dad's chauffering her. Sigh. What to do what to do...