My Prayer

God,

Let the tears that need to fall, fall.
Tell my heart it's alright to weep, to wash away my fears.

I know what I need to do, Lord.
Everybody's helping too, telling me what I need to do.
I'm thankful, Lord, really, that everyone tries to help.
But Lord, please understand:
I need to deal with being scared first.

I've never been so scared.
I'm crying as I type. And that scares me too.
I don't know how to deal with fear, because it's never been so real.

I don't know what to say to people,
Coz I think that they're scared too.
They're scared of saying something wrong.
Coz that might piss me off some more.
At least, that's what I think.

That's why I'm writing this here, Lord,
Even though it's more for you than anyone else.
But it's easier to explain myself when I'm talking to you.
So I hope you'll let me share my prayer to friends, or those who would be friends.
Coz I think they'd like to know too. I hope.

I need to deal with this and I know what must be done.
But for the moment, God,
Please could you hold my hands? - they're shaking really hard -
Then, just for a while, just let me cry a while.