The Price of Idiocy

Sigh. I haven't started any of my essays. Going to start now, of course. I just wanted to write this down first.

Earlier this evening, around 8pm, my mum just came home and she went upstairs to change. My sis had also only just got home and was doing goodness-knows-what on the computer. I don't know exactly what she said to my mother but it really pissed my mum off, coz I heard her yell that if my sis doesn't start studying, she'll pull my sis out of ACJC (which might not be an entirely bad idea. :p). But then when she comes down and sees me, she yells at me too, saying that my sis and I are exactly the same - Insisting on studying Theatre Studies when "you don't even know how write an essay!!". And I hadn't even said a thing... I couldn't understand why she brought up the TS issue coz it hasn't been an issue since I entered NUS 2 years ago. Still the essay remark struck hard. I really wanted to say something, but I didn't. I kept quiet, ate my dinner, went upstairs to my room, blasted the radio and locked the door.

Then I snapped. I started crying, threw some stuff around the room and decided (very childishly) that I would refuse to write my remaining two essays. After all, I don't know how to write essays right? So I won't. I won't write them, won't hand them in, I'll fail the bloody modules and get kicked out of bloody NUS and we'll see what my mother has to say after that. So I surfed, watched anime, binged (chocolate chips, a whole lot of chips and some bun) , watched TV... Basically I stubbornly did everything except work on my essays.

I finally cooled down. Around 2am. So now I'm even more pressed for time, because I threw a stupid tantrum over another tantrum. Such an idiot. Now I'm not even sure I can finish a 2-page essay for Genes & Society by 5pm, much less a 2000-word essay for Japan-China by Sat 10am. Sigh.