I should stop sliming the company. This new girl just came in who apparently is friends with Aronwy and Mindstorm! And she knew all about my bitching about the company!! Ouch man. Karma bites. But (as LonerB would say) Mein Gott! This place is the pits!!
Ok. I must stop bitching now. Otherwise somehow somewhere something else will come out of the dark and bite me on the ass. Let me now tell you all about my FIRST EVER DHL PACKAGE!!! Wahahah! Siew Mai got a DHL express delivery!! Wheeee!!!
So cheap thrill hor.
Anyway, the package was basically my university acceptance package. Contained acceptance certificate (now we need CERTIFICATES to show we’ve been accepted… Not just official letters mind you. CERTIFICATE! *shake head*), hostel applications & student id card form. The only reason I can think of about why they had to DHL the thing to me instead of just air-mailing it normally is that it is getting quite late. Term opens on 20th September and tomorrow it will be July already. Also, now would be the clearing stage of the UCAS application process. So the university and I have to solidly confirm my place before I lose it due to miscommunications or administrative mix-ups on either side. At least, that is my theory. Anyhow, dad has already gone off to apply for a bank draft to pay for my first year fees and also to apply for a supplementary credit card for me. In case anything happens (touch wood).
I keep thinking about the id card form. They got my surname right. Van. No problems there. But under my “Forename” – now this is new to me. “First Name”, “Given Name”, “Name as in passport”, etc, I totally get. Who on earth calls it a “Forename”? – it states “Su”. It doesn’t even state a middle name “Mei”. I’m just “Su”. While I wondered if I should inform the Registrar’s Office, my mother said that technically, they’re not wrong – It’s part of my name, just not my WHOLE name. I guess in the end my whole full name will be on my card… But I just can’t help wondering. Ed, any advice?
After reading Mr Brown’s post about singlish in US comic books, I have been inspired to transform my blog into a truly read-worthy blog. How I will do that I dunno. Will do this in stages I suppose. One step at a time, one post at a time.
Step 1: Stop whining so much.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
Boring Office Posts
One hour to knock off.
Have once again finished off my work for the day. Again I find myself having absolutely nothing to do. Am feeling quite quite annoyed because of some last minute and unconfirmed production schedule change, I cannot send out my notices to the students.
Am so sian. Can’t believe this. The only good thing is that GM has been since lunch so there’s been some peace and quiet.
Got a make-up Japanese class later… Make-up for the one I missed on Monday due to a major stomachache. Kinda dun feel like going coz I just wanna go home and sleep. Tomorrow still have to work leh… Sobz.
Wondering what to eat for dinner. Actually I feel like eating already… Dammit. Tempted to as TSH if she got any biscuits. Or mebbe I shall eat the muesli bar in my cupboard. Dammit… Why do I feel like eating?!?!?!? ARGH!! Die. I will just balloon and explode into a million pieces.
Have once again finished off my work for the day. Again I find myself having absolutely nothing to do. Am feeling quite quite annoyed because of some last minute and unconfirmed production schedule change, I cannot send out my notices to the students.
Am so sian. Can’t believe this. The only good thing is that GM has been since lunch so there’s been some peace and quiet.
Got a make-up Japanese class later… Make-up for the one I missed on Monday due to a major stomachache. Kinda dun feel like going coz I just wanna go home and sleep. Tomorrow still have to work leh… Sobz.
Wondering what to eat for dinner. Actually I feel like eating already… Dammit. Tempted to as TSH if she got any biscuits. Or mebbe I shall eat the muesli bar in my cupboard. Dammit… Why do I feel like eating?!?!?!? ARGH!! Die. I will just balloon and explode into a million pieces.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
More Office Gripes?!?! Get A Life Siew Mai...
I do believe that I’m the only one in the office now… Besides the GM… The PM and TM have gone out, supposedly for meetings, the APM is in the studio taking down cues… And the rest are at their lunch hour. I am alone to handle phone calls from any irate people. Eep. Help. Please please don’t let anyone decided to call in. *prays very hard* I really don’t like taking phone calls.
Hmm… Like RJ said in his blog, it can be very sian not to have anything to do. And ultimately I wouldn’t mind doing things for my GM like vetting her letters or newsletter articles. The thing I don’t like is how last minute it is. Without fail, 5, 10 minutes before my lunch break or before I knock off, she will dump one big file on my table and expect me to give it back to her before I go off for lunch or for the day. This place is one big circus I tell you.
Oh yah. Since I’ve gotten Monkey into the act, let’s see if I can sucker a few more people. Anybody wanna do part-time for two weekends? Basically man ticketing stalls and ushering for BUTS in July. Dates are 8-10 & 15-17 July. Let me know if you’re interested. They probably going to start calling for part-timers tomorrow or the day after.
Loo looo loo… I’ve run out of ideas on how to keep myself entertained. Sighz.
Really becoming damn slack in the office. This is just terrible. :p
Hmm… Like RJ said in his blog, it can be very sian not to have anything to do. And ultimately I wouldn’t mind doing things for my GM like vetting her letters or newsletter articles. The thing I don’t like is how last minute it is. Without fail, 5, 10 minutes before my lunch break or before I knock off, she will dump one big file on my table and expect me to give it back to her before I go off for lunch or for the day. This place is one big circus I tell you.
Oh yah. Since I’ve gotten Monkey into the act, let’s see if I can sucker a few more people. Anybody wanna do part-time for two weekends? Basically man ticketing stalls and ushering for BUTS in July. Dates are 8-10 & 15-17 July. Let me know if you’re interested. They probably going to start calling for part-timers tomorrow or the day after.
Loo looo loo… I’ve run out of ideas on how to keep myself entertained. Sighz.
Really becoming damn slack in the office. This is just terrible. :p
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Bleah.
Well done. Once again I am here in my cubicle with absolutely nothing to do. I suppose I could go around looking for things to do but why invite trouble right? :p I’m just damn lazy, and increasingly just cannot be bothered. I wonder if it’s because I know that I’m leaving. If that’s the case, then that’s really terrible work ethic. I should be ashamed of myself. But seriously I don’t know what else I can do. Hmm…
Well… Waiting for more shit to fall. I’d print out the flyers for Term 3 but I want to ask CMS if we should start another p-class on Tuesdays to fill up the empty slot.
Omg. I just realized something. All this while I’ve been griping about the job and all… Even though I’ve been using abbreviations and initials… It can still be damned obvious… Oh dear. Been spreading bad publicity. Does that mean I’m liable to be sued for slander? Eeeks. Hmm..
Oh what the heck. :p
Well… Waiting for more shit to fall. I’d print out the flyers for Term 3 but I want to ask CMS if we should start another p-class on Tuesdays to fill up the empty slot.
Omg. I just realized something. All this while I’ve been griping about the job and all… Even though I’ve been using abbreviations and initials… It can still be damned obvious… Oh dear. Been spreading bad publicity. Does that mean I’m liable to be sued for slander? Eeeks. Hmm..
Oh what the heck. :p
Ladida
Just finished lunch. Sitting in front of my computer in the office. So what am I doing blogging away? Because I’ve really just had about enough of this place. Really can’t be bothered anymore. I’ve noticed that I’ve become less and less diligent about this internal office rule about surfing the internet only for work purposes. Lately been checking out the Aberdeen website during my stone-out periods. So terrible hor? Aiyah. Actually am sort of doing work lah. Just that I’m still thinking about how to go around doing it.
Wondering how on earth to redo this powerpoint “poster” that GM has told me to work on. Dunno which of her ex-staff did this. I also dunno how exactly she wants to rework it. She always just says “do this, do that, change this, change that” but she never really tells you exactly do what or change what to what. Then if you whether or not you actually figure out what she wants and do the job for her, she’ll just change it anyway. Damn sianz.
Kena arrow to be emcee again for the July BUTS. I guess I don’t mind lah. In some sense, I owe it to GM for letting me work here. And also it’s my last few weeks here, just do it and be done with it. Really quite fast actually, now that I think about it. Been here since mid-March, so that’s what? Three and a half months? Then now I’ve got five and a half weeks more before I stop work. Can’t wait. Let time pass faster please. The other day one of my colleagues asked if I feel anything for the office, now that I’m leaving.
Heh. Yeah. Got one feeling. GOOD BYE!! :p
Wondering how on earth to redo this powerpoint “poster” that GM has told me to work on. Dunno which of her ex-staff did this. I also dunno how exactly she wants to rework it. She always just says “do this, do that, change this, change that” but she never really tells you exactly do what or change what to what. Then if you whether or not you actually figure out what she wants and do the job for her, she’ll just change it anyway. Damn sianz.
Kena arrow to be emcee again for the July BUTS. I guess I don’t mind lah. In some sense, I owe it to GM for letting me work here. And also it’s my last few weeks here, just do it and be done with it. Really quite fast actually, now that I think about it. Been here since mid-March, so that’s what? Three and a half months? Then now I’ve got five and a half weeks more before I stop work. Can’t wait. Let time pass faster please. The other day one of my colleagues asked if I feel anything for the office, now that I’m leaving.
Heh. Yeah. Got one feeling. GOOD BYE!! :p
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Friday, June 17, 2005
Erm.. Do You Remember...
Do you remember that I have another blog?
Unfortunately, I practically forgot about that blog. Around the time I was about to start work I think. So my poor Siewmanime blog has been missing in action for I think more than four months. I know I promised to upload my sketches on a regular basis but I didn't... I'm very sorry. Please please go back and support that blog. I am really going to try to get back into drawing before I leave, so all your support and criticisms are much needed. I stopped drawing again after I started work, so I bet you my skill has dropped even further. You will probably see a lot of crap before my usual standard (which isn't very great either really) resurfaces.
Please go back and leave a message. ~Siew Mai Style~
Unfortunately, I practically forgot about that blog. Around the time I was about to start work I think. So my poor Siewmanime blog has been missing in action for I think more than four months. I know I promised to upload my sketches on a regular basis but I didn't... I'm very sorry. Please please go back and support that blog. I am really going to try to get back into drawing before I leave, so all your support and criticisms are much needed. I stopped drawing again after I started work, so I bet you my skill has dropped even further. You will probably see a lot of crap before my usual standard (which isn't very great either really) resurfaces.
Please go back and leave a message. ~Siew Mai Style~
心痒痒
Well...
Met Ed. Ate with Ed. Talked with Ed. And am still wondering about my decision. Aberdeen would be the practical choice. But... I can't recall what the English equivalent is... My "heart itchy". 心痒。King's is such a tempting choice. (Dammit wat's wrong with me... I keep wanting to type "choise"... I must be going mad.)
Anyhow. We ate at Fish & Co. There was a really bad live singer there. REALLY BAD. Singing was off, his "joking banter" was OFF, and so was his walk-around-and-get-the-customers-to-sing gimmick. Pah. They should just invest in some good compilation CDs.
Counting down to the day I stop work at SDT. Six more weeks people!!! Ganbatte Siew Mai!!! Six more weeks and no more shitty students!! No more shitty dancers!! No more office nonsense!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!
I'm going mad. Ok. I shall go to sleep now. Goodnight everbody.
Met Ed. Ate with Ed. Talked with Ed. And am still wondering about my decision. Aberdeen would be the practical choice. But... I can't recall what the English equivalent is... My "heart itchy". 心痒。King's is such a tempting choice. (Dammit wat's wrong with me... I keep wanting to type "choise"... I must be going mad.)
Anyhow. We ate at Fish & Co. There was a really bad live singer there. REALLY BAD. Singing was off, his "joking banter" was OFF, and so was his walk-around-and-get-the-customers-to-sing gimmick. Pah. They should just invest in some good compilation CDs.
Counting down to the day I stop work at SDT. Six more weeks people!!! Ganbatte Siew Mai!!! Six more weeks and no more shitty students!! No more shitty dancers!! No more office nonsense!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!
I'm going mad. Ok. I shall go to sleep now. Goodnight everbody.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Fickle Fickle Fickle
I pontang choir. Wahahaha. I feel bad but really damn sleepy sia... Think I would've fallen asleep in my chair.
Meeting Ed tomorrow after work to catch up and to talk about Kings. Tried to get Naaz to come along but she refused on the basis that Ed is a total asshole. Granted, he's not exactly the most wonderful person on the face of this earth, but still right... Everybody's got their quirks. I dunno lah. You could at least pretend to be nice. I do that all the time. :p Anyway if she's going to be working in HR, she's going to have to find out all about being nice to people you hate sooner or later. Well... Who am I to say right? At least I'd support my friends, if they asked it... Wouldn't I? Maybe I don't support my friends as much as I think I do.. Hmm..
ARH! Forget it. Somehow talking to Naaz always makes me tired.
Finally talked to my GM about last day, and I'm working until end of July. Yay! Six weeks left. Wonderful. Can't wait to finally leave that place. Bah.
Like I said before, all decisions seem to be leaning towards Aberdeen at the moment, so I think that ultimately I will still choose that despite what Ed may say about King's. Mum made a couple of comments that started me thinking about my choice again though.
1) [to me] "You would probably be happier in Aberdeen."
2) [addressed to my dad] "But King's must've seen something in her, huh? Despite her record..."
Hmmm... I wonder...
Meeting Ed tomorrow after work to catch up and to talk about Kings. Tried to get Naaz to come along but she refused on the basis that Ed is a total asshole. Granted, he's not exactly the most wonderful person on the face of this earth, but still right... Everybody's got their quirks. I dunno lah. You could at least pretend to be nice. I do that all the time. :p Anyway if she's going to be working in HR, she's going to have to find out all about being nice to people you hate sooner or later. Well... Who am I to say right? At least I'd support my friends, if they asked it... Wouldn't I? Maybe I don't support my friends as much as I think I do.. Hmm..
ARH! Forget it. Somehow talking to Naaz always makes me tired.
Finally talked to my GM about last day, and I'm working until end of July. Yay! Six weeks left. Wonderful. Can't wait to finally leave that place. Bah.
Like I said before, all decisions seem to be leaning towards Aberdeen at the moment, so I think that ultimately I will still choose that despite what Ed may say about King's. Mum made a couple of comments that started me thinking about my choice again though.
1) [to me] "You would probably be happier in Aberdeen."
2) [addressed to my dad] "But King's must've seen something in her, huh? Despite her record..."
Hmmm... I wonder...
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Return of The Quizzes
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. |
| With respect to money, you are a bit stingy. |
| You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. |
| You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
Huh... Issit??
Thursday, June 09, 2005
2 Songs Today!!
美人鱼
歌手: 林俊杰 专辑: 第二天堂
我在沙滩划个圆圈
属于我俩安逸世界
不用和别人连线
我不管你来自深渊
也不在乎身上的鳞片
爱情能超越一切
只要你在我身边
所有蜚语流言完全视而不见
请不要匆匆一面一转身就沉入海平线
传说中你为爱甘心被搁浅
我也可以为你
潜入海里面
怎么忍心断绝
忘记我不变的誓言
我眼泪断了线
现实里有了我对你的眷恋
我愿意化作雕像
等你出现
再见再也不见
心碎了飘荡在海边
你抬头就看见
[Translation by Veetwo]
Mermaid
Vocal: JJ Lin Album: Second Heaven
I drew a circle on the sand
Representing the world belonging to us
There’s no need for others.
I don’t care if you came from fathoms below,
Don’t care about the scales on your body.
Love will surpass everything.
As long as you’re beside me,
Those rumours no longer matter.
Please don’t dive into the Pacific Ocean at the blink of an eye.
Legends say you willingly suffered for love.
For you, I could also
Dive down into the oceans.
How could you bear to cut me off?
Forget my unwavering oaths?
My tears have run out.
In reality, with the love I have for you,
I’d become a statue
Just to wait for you to appear.
“See you again” is just short for “I’ll never see you again”.
The pieces of my broken heart float by the sea.
Lift your head, and you will see.
Song 2 (^_^)v
[Found from http://soompi.com/forums/lofiversion/index.php/t189365.html]
Menghitung Hari @ Counting The Days
Singer: Kris Dayanti
Menghitung hari
Detik demi detik
Masa kunanti apakan ada
Jalan cerita kisah yang panjang
Menghitung hari
1
Padamkan saja kobar asmaramu
Jika putik itu takkan ada
Yang aku minta tulus hatimu
Bukan puitis
Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diri ku kini sendiri
(Repeat 1)
Oh... Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diri ku kini sendiri
Diri ku kini sendiri...
Credits: LirikLagu.com
Translation
Counting the days
One tick by one tick
I await what time will bring me
A storyline, a long tale
counting the days
1
Put off the fire of your love
If the bud of the love won’t blossom
the thing I ask for is your sincere heart
it's not about being poetic
Just go, this love of yours, go
Just tell everyone
Let all know that
I'm on my own now
(Repeat 1)
Oh... just go, this love of yours, go
Just tell everyone
Let all know that
I'm on my own now
I'm on my own now...
Credits: soompi forums [Takki_Aniki]
歌手: 林俊杰 专辑: 第二天堂
我在沙滩划个圆圈
属于我俩安逸世界
不用和别人连线
我不管你来自深渊
也不在乎身上的鳞片
爱情能超越一切
只要你在我身边
所有蜚语流言完全视而不见
请不要匆匆一面一转身就沉入海平线
传说中你为爱甘心被搁浅
我也可以为你
潜入海里面
怎么忍心断绝
忘记我不变的誓言
我眼泪断了线
现实里有了我对你的眷恋
我愿意化作雕像
等你出现
再见再也不见
心碎了飘荡在海边
你抬头就看见
[Translation by Veetwo]
Mermaid
Vocal: JJ Lin Album: Second Heaven
I drew a circle on the sand
Representing the world belonging to us
There’s no need for others.
I don’t care if you came from fathoms below,
Don’t care about the scales on your body.
Love will surpass everything.
As long as you’re beside me,
Those rumours no longer matter.
Please don’t dive into the Pacific Ocean at the blink of an eye.
Legends say you willingly suffered for love.
For you, I could also
Dive down into the oceans.
How could you bear to cut me off?
Forget my unwavering oaths?
My tears have run out.
In reality, with the love I have for you,
I’d become a statue
Just to wait for you to appear.
“See you again” is just short for “I’ll never see you again”.
The pieces of my broken heart float by the sea.
Lift your head, and you will see.
Song 2 (^_^)v
[Found from http://soompi.com/forums/lofiversion/index.php/t189365.html]
Menghitung Hari @ Counting The Days
Singer: Kris Dayanti
Menghitung hari
Detik demi detik
Masa kunanti apakan ada
Jalan cerita kisah yang panjang
Menghitung hari
1
Padamkan saja kobar asmaramu
Jika putik itu takkan ada
Yang aku minta tulus hatimu
Bukan puitis
Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diri ku kini sendiri
(Repeat 1)
Oh... Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diri ku kini sendiri
Diri ku kini sendiri...
Credits: LirikLagu.com
Translation
Counting the days
One tick by one tick
I await what time will bring me
A storyline, a long tale
counting the days
1
Put off the fire of your love
If the bud of the love won’t blossom
the thing I ask for is your sincere heart
it's not about being poetic
Just go, this love of yours, go
Just tell everyone
Let all know that
I'm on my own now
(Repeat 1)
Oh... just go, this love of yours, go
Just tell everyone
Let all know that
I'm on my own now
I'm on my own now...
Credits: soompi forums [Takki_Aniki]
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
The Time Is Upon Us
Upon me rather.
Just as I was about to blog about how I think Edinburgh may have totally forgotten that I also made an application to study Japanese in their Asian Studies department, I decided to check out my UCAS Track for the heck of it even though there hadn't been a notification e-mail for weeks. Lo & Behold!! Edinburgh had made a decision on 2nd June! One week ago! UCAS probably just decided to skip the e-mail notification part and just start sending out my reply-to-offers package. Hooray! I can finally make some solid decisions.
I still want to go Kings. And the general advice is towards that end too. However I think my final decision will be Aberdeen. For one, it's definitely more affordable than Kings. Costs of living in London are almost 2x that of Scotland!!! Madness. And Aberdeen will be quieter. Less distractions. And since I have A-levels, I may get the chance to skip a year. (^_^)v
Against my mum's better judgement, I will not work through August. I will work until the end of July. If my GM is really desperate then I'll work until second week August LATEST. Then I'll leave. But the aim is still July. My colleague agrees with me that July would be more practical, coz if I haf to leave in beginning of September (term in Aberdeen starts 19th Sept) then I'll need at least August to settle everything before I go. I admitted to her that when my mum first made the August suggestion, I really felt naseaus. Luckily she understood. Really, the working environment in my office is just sickening. "Unhealthy" wouldn't even begin to describe it. Today was my first day back after my leave and already I had to witness World War SDT. It was the Production Manager vs Education & Outreach Senior Exec, both of them vs Finance Manager, who was allied by the Personnel Manager; then the GM, who's been warring with PM and EOSE, struck them again, and then decided to let her "lieutenent" the FM take over the fight. Then the dancers had to join the fray over some stupid costumes.
Generally, just a lot of mindless shouting. Sigh.
Nevermind. Bochup. The time to make some final decisions is upon me!! My second chance has come!! This is the highlight of my day I tell you. Shall not let office politics get me down. My UK dreams are finally becoming more real!!!
Just as I was about to blog about how I think Edinburgh may have totally forgotten that I also made an application to study Japanese in their Asian Studies department, I decided to check out my UCAS Track for the heck of it even though there hadn't been a notification e-mail for weeks. Lo & Behold!! Edinburgh had made a decision on 2nd June! One week ago! UCAS probably just decided to skip the e-mail notification part and just start sending out my reply-to-offers package. Hooray! I can finally make some solid decisions.
I still want to go Kings. And the general advice is towards that end too. However I think my final decision will be Aberdeen. For one, it's definitely more affordable than Kings. Costs of living in London are almost 2x that of Scotland!!! Madness. And Aberdeen will be quieter. Less distractions. And since I have A-levels, I may get the chance to skip a year. (^_^)v
Against my mum's better judgement, I will not work through August. I will work until the end of July. If my GM is really desperate then I'll work until second week August LATEST. Then I'll leave. But the aim is still July. My colleague agrees with me that July would be more practical, coz if I haf to leave in beginning of September (term in Aberdeen starts 19th Sept) then I'll need at least August to settle everything before I go. I admitted to her that when my mum first made the August suggestion, I really felt naseaus. Luckily she understood. Really, the working environment in my office is just sickening. "Unhealthy" wouldn't even begin to describe it. Today was my first day back after my leave and already I had to witness World War SDT. It was the Production Manager vs Education & Outreach Senior Exec, both of them vs Finance Manager, who was allied by the Personnel Manager; then the GM, who's been warring with PM and EOSE, struck them again, and then decided to let her "lieutenent" the FM take over the fight. Then the dancers had to join the fray over some stupid costumes.
Generally, just a lot of mindless shouting. Sigh.
Nevermind. Bochup. The time to make some final decisions is upon me!! My second chance has come!! This is the highlight of my day I tell you. Shall not let office politics get me down. My UK dreams are finally becoming more real!!!
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Pah.
I'm so sick of it all.
My mother told me to stick with my job all the way to August, and she more or less has said that my taking leave was a mistake and that I'd be lucky if my GM (her friend) doesn't fire me for it. Now I'm so wishing that it actually happens.
I know how important money is at the moment. I'll need all the funds I can get. But seriously I think if I stick to this job any further than the middle of July, I will just go and jump off some tall building in the vicinity of my office. Already middle July is to me an extended period. I had originally wanted to stop end of this month. But I decided to stay a while longer coz I really pitied my boss.
Now, I wish my boss would just fire me. It seems I'm not allowed to quit anyhow.
Raistie if you've read this don't you DARE say anything to you-know-who. I'm in enough shit about it as it is. Sorry if I sound harsh, but really, the last thing I need is her going to my mother and asking if I'm really unhappy with the job.
My mother told me to stick with my job all the way to August, and she more or less has said that my taking leave was a mistake and that I'd be lucky if my GM (her friend) doesn't fire me for it. Now I'm so wishing that it actually happens.
I know how important money is at the moment. I'll need all the funds I can get. But seriously I think if I stick to this job any further than the middle of July, I will just go and jump off some tall building in the vicinity of my office. Already middle July is to me an extended period. I had originally wanted to stop end of this month. But I decided to stay a while longer coz I really pitied my boss.
Now, I wish my boss would just fire me. It seems I'm not allowed to quit anyhow.
Raistie if you've read this don't you DARE say anything to you-know-who. I'm in enough shit about it as it is. Sorry if I sound harsh, but really, the last thing I need is her going to my mother and asking if I'm really unhappy with the job.
Friday, June 03, 2005
The Ballet & The Wallet
Just came back from watching the company's contribution to this year's Arts Fest. Quite different from the usual offerings so I would say it's quite a breakthrough.
Just don't understand why they always have to give JT the lead roles. There are other dancers in the company who are SOOOO much better than him. Pah. Even MNS is better than him, not to mention the principle male, JB.
Preferred the first piece to Le Sacre... Or maybe I just liked the choir. Think I was paying more attention to the 4 solos than to the prancing figures on stage. Les Noces (the music) is definitely easier to digest than Le Sacre. XHY is just good. And TYL also. Actually thought that FL stood out quite strongly during Les Noces. AS couldn't get the veil on.. *snigger* Twice! *snigger* Could tell she was getting very 不爽. Tough luck, shit happens. Lalalala...
Anyways. The apprehensive feeling I had this afternoon is less intense now, although something is still nagging at the back of my mind. Dunno what it is.
Uni update: On Mum's advice, am waiting until Monday to see if Edinburgh finally makes a decision on my Japanese application. If there's no word, I shall send in a cancellation for that choice and just choose between Aberdeen and Kings which technically speaking, I already am doing just that. Think I wouldn't have taken up Edinburgh even if they did accept me into the Jap course.
Money is just such a bitch. While I'm still very much inclined towards Kings, I might end up choosing Aberdeen coz it's cheaper... No, not cheaper... Less expensive would be the right way to put it. Even if I change my 4-year MEng course in Kings to a 3-year BEng course, it would still be more expensive than the 4-year BEng course I applied for in Aberdeen. And I just might be able to change that to a 3-year thing coz they usually allow A-level holders to gain 2nd year entry. Which cuts costs even more!!
Sigh. If I end up going to either and have to transfer out after a year due to failing finances I will just cry. I don't want to have to come back to Singapore to finish up. That would just suck big time.
Oh dear... I sound so selfish. I hate it. I know it's damn selfish to keep wanting to go Kings, or just UK in general, but I've actually been offered the chance! Why shouldn't I take it? Because kor has 2 more years to go in Australia, and my sis is entering Uni next year and my dad is already semi-retired. And also because I already wasted at least $20k on my doomed NUS career. Haiz.
I know that my parents are scared that I may repeat my NUS fiasco. The truth is I fear that too. Bah. Sometimes a conscience is a terrible thing.
Just don't understand why they always have to give JT the lead roles. There are other dancers in the company who are SOOOO much better than him. Pah. Even MNS is better than him, not to mention the principle male, JB.
Preferred the first piece to Le Sacre... Or maybe I just liked the choir. Think I was paying more attention to the 4 solos than to the prancing figures on stage. Les Noces (the music) is definitely easier to digest than Le Sacre. XHY is just good. And TYL also. Actually thought that FL stood out quite strongly during Les Noces. AS couldn't get the veil on.. *snigger* Twice! *snigger* Could tell she was getting very 不爽. Tough luck, shit happens. Lalalala...
Anyways. The apprehensive feeling I had this afternoon is less intense now, although something is still nagging at the back of my mind. Dunno what it is.
Uni update: On Mum's advice, am waiting until Monday to see if Edinburgh finally makes a decision on my Japanese application. If there's no word, I shall send in a cancellation for that choice and just choose between Aberdeen and Kings which technically speaking, I already am doing just that. Think I wouldn't have taken up Edinburgh even if they did accept me into the Jap course.
Money is just such a bitch. While I'm still very much inclined towards Kings, I might end up choosing Aberdeen coz it's cheaper... No, not cheaper... Less expensive would be the right way to put it. Even if I change my 4-year MEng course in Kings to a 3-year BEng course, it would still be more expensive than the 4-year BEng course I applied for in Aberdeen. And I just might be able to change that to a 3-year thing coz they usually allow A-level holders to gain 2nd year entry. Which cuts costs even more!!
Sigh. If I end up going to either and have to transfer out after a year due to failing finances I will just cry. I don't want to have to come back to Singapore to finish up. That would just suck big time.
Oh dear... I sound so selfish. I hate it. I know it's damn selfish to keep wanting to go Kings, or just UK in general, but I've actually been offered the chance! Why shouldn't I take it? Because kor has 2 more years to go in Australia, and my sis is entering Uni next year and my dad is already semi-retired. And also because I already wasted at least $20k on my doomed NUS career. Haiz.
I know that my parents are scared that I may repeat my NUS fiasco. The truth is I fear that too. Bah. Sometimes a conscience is a terrible thing.
Distance ~ JJ Lin
I love the last line. It just defines the whole song.
距离
歌手: 林俊杰 专辑: 第二天堂
词:林怡凤 曲:林俊杰
在距离三公里的位置
我在这里
想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在那里
听不到我呼吸着分离
我走向前你看不见
真的遥远
就连叹息影子听见
也是无言
你走向前我看不见
你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界线不曾有改变
保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里
读不到眷着我的讯息
当爱离开之前
能多苦能多深能多甜
距离是你走过我身边
Translation
Distance
Vocals: JJ Lin Album: Second Heaven
Lyrics: Lin Yi Feng Music: JJ Lin
Within a distance of 3km,
I’m here,
Thinking of the way you breathe.
The same darkened window
You’re there
But you can’t hear me breathing as I leave.
When I walk forward, you can’t see.
It’s really so far.
Even if you heard my sigh or saw my shadow,
You said nothing.
When you walked forward, I didn’t see
You thinking of me.
Between you and me
There’s a carved line, that’s never changed.
Keeping a distance of 3cm
My eyes
Are filled with a you that I love.
Sitting beside the same 4-sided table
In your eyes,
I don’t see any signs that you care for me.
Before love leaves
There’s such pain, such depth, such sweetness.
Distance is you just brushing past.
距离
歌手: 林俊杰 专辑: 第二天堂
词:林怡凤 曲:林俊杰
在距离三公里的位置
我在这里
想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在那里
听不到我呼吸着分离
我走向前你看不见
真的遥远
就连叹息影子听见
也是无言
你走向前我看不见
你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界线不曾有改变
保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里
读不到眷着我的讯息
当爱离开之前
能多苦能多深能多甜
距离是你走过我身边
Translation
Distance
Vocals: JJ Lin Album: Second Heaven
Lyrics: Lin Yi Feng Music: JJ Lin
Within a distance of 3km,
I’m here,
Thinking of the way you breathe.
The same darkened window
You’re there
But you can’t hear me breathing as I leave.
When I walk forward, you can’t see.
It’s really so far.
Even if you heard my sigh or saw my shadow,
You said nothing.
When you walked forward, I didn’t see
You thinking of me.
Between you and me
There’s a carved line, that’s never changed.
Keeping a distance of 3cm
My eyes
Are filled with a you that I love.
Sitting beside the same 4-sided table
In your eyes,
I don’t see any signs that you care for me.
Before love leaves
There’s such pain, such depth, such sweetness.
Distance is you just brushing past.
I've Got A Bad Feeling About This...
One could make a sport out of counting the number of times that line is said in the entire Star Wars saga. Each of the major and semi-major characters have to say it at least once.
Anyhow the point I was going to make here is that suddenly I'm gripped by this intense feeling of apprehension. Like... I missed doing something or that something's going to happen that's not necessarily good.
I logged on to blog hoping that saying it out would ease it... Doesn't seem to be working though. Anyway I have to leave for a gym appointment. Will come back to talk more about it I guess.
I don't think I'm prone to anxiety attacks... At least not for no apparent reason. I dunno.
I've got a bad feeling about this.
Anyhow the point I was going to make here is that suddenly I'm gripped by this intense feeling of apprehension. Like... I missed doing something or that something's going to happen that's not necessarily good.
I logged on to blog hoping that saying it out would ease it... Doesn't seem to be working though. Anyway I have to leave for a gym appointment. Will come back to talk more about it I guess.
I don't think I'm prone to anxiety attacks... At least not for no apparent reason. I dunno.
I've got a bad feeling about this.
Monday, May 30, 2005
On Leave!!!
I'm on one week leave!!
Hooray!!!
No stupid students for one full week!!! Wahahahahah!!!
Ok. Technically my leave is supposed to be for me to study for my book keeping exams on 6th & 7th of June (i.e. next Monday and Tuesday) but hey!!! I can't be studying ALL the time right. Hirhirhir...
No lah. I don't intend to slack off. Study, I will. To pass my book keeping, the plan is. Hehehe.. Can you tell that I've FINALLY gone to watch Revenge of the Sith?? Hehehehehe....
Ep III was SOOOOO much better than I & II. Ok, so there was still a fair amount of cheese around, like the last part where Vader broke of his bonds a la Frankenstein. But it did tie up many many MANY loose ends. And it FINALLY links to the original trilogy!!! YAY!!! Ok, next up will be a Star Wars marathon. Any takers??? WHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!
Hmm... Speaking of free time, maybe I should FINALLY (how many times have I said FINALLY already in this post?? I should change the post title) update my Siewmanime blog. It's been seriously seriously neglected. But then I haven't really had the time to draw anything.
Updates on the Uni status: Still trying to decide between Aberdeen and KCL at the moment. Although I cannot make an official decision until UCAS sends me a reply-to-offers form. And they won't send me that until all my choices have been decided upon. Now I'm only waiting for a decision from Edinburgh about my application to study Japanese (Language). Talked to my dad and he doesn't see the harm in waiting for that decision to come through, although personally I'm very tempted to just cancel that choice and just choose between Aberdeen and KCL. The main reason being that I want to finally be able to set down a date to be my last day in the office. I seriously hate the job.
Haa well.... Mum coming back from San Francisco tomorrow. Guess we'll see what she says before I make any further decisions.
Hooray!!!
No stupid students for one full week!!! Wahahahahah!!!
Ok. Technically my leave is supposed to be for me to study for my book keeping exams on 6th & 7th of June (i.e. next Monday and Tuesday) but hey!!! I can't be studying ALL the time right. Hirhirhir...
No lah. I don't intend to slack off. Study, I will. To pass my book keeping, the plan is. Hehehe.. Can you tell that I've FINALLY gone to watch Revenge of the Sith?? Hehehehehe....
Ep III was SOOOOO much better than I & II. Ok, so there was still a fair amount of cheese around, like the last part where Vader broke of his bonds a la Frankenstein. But it did tie up many many MANY loose ends. And it FINALLY links to the original trilogy!!! YAY!!! Ok, next up will be a Star Wars marathon. Any takers??? WHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!
Hmm... Speaking of free time, maybe I should FINALLY (how many times have I said FINALLY already in this post?? I should change the post title) update my Siewmanime blog. It's been seriously seriously neglected. But then I haven't really had the time to draw anything.
Updates on the Uni status: Still trying to decide between Aberdeen and KCL at the moment. Although I cannot make an official decision until UCAS sends me a reply-to-offers form. And they won't send me that until all my choices have been decided upon. Now I'm only waiting for a decision from Edinburgh about my application to study Japanese (Language). Talked to my dad and he doesn't see the harm in waiting for that decision to come through, although personally I'm very tempted to just cancel that choice and just choose between Aberdeen and KCL. The main reason being that I want to finally be able to set down a date to be my last day in the office. I seriously hate the job.
Haa well.... Mum coming back from San Francisco tomorrow. Guess we'll see what she says before I make any further decisions.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
The First Arrival...
Well... The official acceptance letter from KCL has finally arrived in my mailbox. Faculty handbook, accomodation application forms, etc, etc... So now just waiting for the one from Aberdeen. Still trying to decide though. I'm inclined to take up King's... But Aberdeen would be cheaper. And... Australia would be even cheaper.
I'm very torn. I don't know how to choose.
On a side note, my applications to study Chinese/Japanese in Leeds and Engine/Management in Edinburgh were rejected. Right now only my app to study Japanese in Edinburgh hasn't seen a decision, although since the engineering department rejected my application I doubt the Asian Studies department would accept. But that's ok. I got offers from the ones that sort of mattered more to me. Though now, I'm not sure if they're the right ones to choose.
Cost is a BIG factor here... Then again so is the prestige and the quality of study. But giving up the UK to apply for Australia now seems so... wasted.
Haiz.
I need a fix of Abel Nightroad/Kanbei/Kurosaki Ichigo/etc etc... :p Some addictions just don't die. Hahahahaha...
I'm very torn. I don't know how to choose.
On a side note, my applications to study Chinese/Japanese in Leeds and Engine/Management in Edinburgh were rejected. Right now only my app to study Japanese in Edinburgh hasn't seen a decision, although since the engineering department rejected my application I doubt the Asian Studies department would accept. But that's ok. I got offers from the ones that sort of mattered more to me. Though now, I'm not sure if they're the right ones to choose.
Cost is a BIG factor here... Then again so is the prestige and the quality of study. But giving up the UK to apply for Australia now seems so... wasted.
Haiz.
I need a fix of Abel Nightroad/Kanbei/Kurosaki Ichigo/etc etc... :p Some addictions just don't die. Hahahahaha...
Monday, May 23, 2005
Jin... Kanbei... And Now - Abel Nightroad-sama!
After Samurai Champloo and Samurai 7 ended their run, there hasn't really been another anime that really caught my eye. There's Bleach and Saiyuki Reload GUNLOCK of course, but I'm already downloading them. What I mean is that I haven't really found another anime that's worth starting to rave about other than the few I'm already downloading or have already downloaded. I've started on MÄR but I haven't really decided whether or not it's a keeper. Then the other day I found THIS!!
TRINITY BLOOD!!!!
Damn cool anime. I've only watched one episode so far and I'm HOOKED!! I can't wait for the rest of this anime to come out and when the DVD is released I'm DEFINITELY buying!! I think Yuene would like this anime. There's one character called Catherina Sforza inside that reminds me of Integra.
[11.55pm Update]
Just finished watching The Empire Strikes Back. The original series is STILL the best! Anyway, that's not what I really want to blog about.
Went out for dinner just now and was talking to my dad. He's very glad that I got offers from Aberdeen and King's and thinks it's a good idea that I take management with engineering, coz he can't see me holding a full-time engineering job. Which is true. I can't either, but that's why I'm mixing it with management. But like my mum, he's worried about the costs. Australia IS much cheaper. Heck, even Canada's cheaper than UK. But the thing is... Applying and taking up a course in Oz or Canada means waiting until next year for entry. I personally don't relish waiting any longer. But I can't stop thinking about the costs. Yes, I could properly try to get a scholarship in my second year if I go to UK. But what happens if I'm don't get a scholarship? Even if I work part-time, that'd only cover my living expenses.
I still think it's a real blessing that I got the offers that I did. I do. At least it's proven to me that not all doors are closed to me. I'm thankful for that in itself.
Now the question is: Is it the right thing to accept the UK offers? Or should I apply to Oz/Canada for entry next year?
Truth is I don't want to wait anymore. But sometimes, I guess... What I want isn't the right thing to do at the moment.
TRINITY BLOOD!!!!
Damn cool anime. I've only watched one episode so far and I'm HOOKED!! I can't wait for the rest of this anime to come out and when the DVD is released I'm DEFINITELY buying!! I think Yuene would like this anime. There's one character called Catherina Sforza inside that reminds me of Integra.
[11.55pm Update]
Just finished watching The Empire Strikes Back. The original series is STILL the best! Anyway, that's not what I really want to blog about.
Went out for dinner just now and was talking to my dad. He's very glad that I got offers from Aberdeen and King's and thinks it's a good idea that I take management with engineering, coz he can't see me holding a full-time engineering job. Which is true. I can't either, but that's why I'm mixing it with management. But like my mum, he's worried about the costs. Australia IS much cheaper. Heck, even Canada's cheaper than UK. But the thing is... Applying and taking up a course in Oz or Canada means waiting until next year for entry. I personally don't relish waiting any longer. But I can't stop thinking about the costs. Yes, I could properly try to get a scholarship in my second year if I go to UK. But what happens if I'm don't get a scholarship? Even if I work part-time, that'd only cover my living expenses.
I still think it's a real blessing that I got the offers that I did. I do. At least it's proven to me that not all doors are closed to me. I'm thankful for that in itself.
Now the question is: Is it the right thing to accept the UK offers? Or should I apply to Oz/Canada for entry next year?
Truth is I don't want to wait anymore. But sometimes, I guess... What I want isn't the right thing to do at the moment.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
God's Grace Again And Again
This past month, I've been getting kinda restless. The whole month just seemed to be passing too slowly for me. The main reason is that I've been hoping and waiting for a positive reply from the universities I applied to. It got to a point where I not only started praying for God to give me greater patience, I began asking him if I should've applied to Australia instead of the UK. Then I asked if I should put in a late application for Australia, coz my UK prospects just felt so bleak all of a sudden.
Each time I checked my UCAS Track, there'd be no updates. But then again I was checking first every night, then every two nights. It felt so pessimistic.. But then I suppose checking so regularly was just driving me nuts also. I was at that point where I didn't really care if there was acceptance or rejection. I just had to know!
Finally this week I decided to stop worrying about it and really just leave it in God's hand. Accept or reject, they'd have to send a physical letter to me anyhow so I might as well just wait for it. I even stopped checking my Track page this whole week.
Then today, I came home from choir and started up my comp. And the gmail notifier told me I had an update from UCAS. I went in to check and what I saw was really beyond my expectations. I had expected to see a decision from just one university. I saw three decisions, two universities. And they were universities I thought I would get a negative response from. But God's grace is just amazing.
King's College London and University of Aberdeen - which happen to be my top two choices for universities, and the most difficult ones I applied to - just gave me unconditional offers to my choice of courses. I am so amazed. I never thought I'd get such a positive response, and I didn't think I'd actually see a decision by these two unis until at least June. Of course I can't send in a reply through the internet, I have to wait for the physical acceptance letter to arrive. So now I have to decide where to go. But I still can't stop being amazed at it all.
The very moment I stop fretting and leave it to God, God answered. And He was laughing.
Each time I checked my UCAS Track, there'd be no updates. But then again I was checking first every night, then every two nights. It felt so pessimistic.. But then I suppose checking so regularly was just driving me nuts also. I was at that point where I didn't really care if there was acceptance or rejection. I just had to know!
Finally this week I decided to stop worrying about it and really just leave it in God's hand. Accept or reject, they'd have to send a physical letter to me anyhow so I might as well just wait for it. I even stopped checking my Track page this whole week.
Then today, I came home from choir and started up my comp. And the gmail notifier told me I had an update from UCAS. I went in to check and what I saw was really beyond my expectations. I had expected to see a decision from just one university. I saw three decisions, two universities. And they were universities I thought I would get a negative response from. But God's grace is just amazing.
King's College London and University of Aberdeen - which happen to be my top two choices for universities, and the most difficult ones I applied to - just gave me unconditional offers to my choice of courses. I am so amazed. I never thought I'd get such a positive response, and I didn't think I'd actually see a decision by these two unis until at least June. Of course I can't send in a reply through the internet, I have to wait for the physical acceptance letter to arrive. So now I have to decide where to go. But I still can't stop being amazed at it all.
The very moment I stop fretting and leave it to God, God answered. And He was laughing.
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