Her handphone rang suddenly, waking our heroine from her stupor. Taking the vibrating communicator in her hands, she readied herself before she finally answered the call. It was SC.
"Call this number, ask for the front desk and ask for S." The call ended.
Staring at the number now in her hands, our heroine swallowed, and carefully pressed the numbers on her phone's keypad. It was now or never.
"Hotel Inter-Continental. How may I help you?"
And so it began.
S had information that our heroine needed desperately. "Can you come now?" She was given the coordinates for the next part of the mission - the Hotel Inter-Continental itself. She had to move quickly, before the afternoon ended.
Despite the searing heat, the unfaltering dimsum finally breached the location and found her mark. With just a subtle look, our heroine knew what S meant - wait around. She'll slip out asap.
*****
"I'll take you to the security post. Then you'll have to find your way to HR yourself. But first there's some things you have to know about the post of Guest Services Agent...."
Quickly, quietly, the two made their way down to the security post.
"Good luck. I'll see you back at the front."
Taking a deep breath, our heroine proceeded down the steps towards the basement. There she would meet with her final challenge - the Interview.
*****
Tune in next time for the next installment of... *drumroll* *cue dramatic music* JOB HUNT: The Inter-Continental Verdict.
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Lady Macbeth's Torment
"Here's the smell of the blood still: All the perfumes of Arabia will not sweeten this little hand." ~ Lady Macbeth; Macbeth V:i
Now I know why she went nuts.
I had to put two of my hamsters to sleep this afternoon. The two young ones. They got really sick and for some reason the bigger one kept attacking the runt, which made it even worse faster. But the Big Baby (our way of differentiating the two offspring: Big Baby and Small Baby) was getting more sick each day too. Saw a tumor-like thing on under it's left forearm today. So decided to finally put them down. My mother helped with that. Gave them both a concentrated dosage of sedatives. And then they quietly went to sleep, and then they just stopped breathing.
Forgive me if I sound melodramatic or anything, but I really feel like a murderer right now. That word's been going around my head since 4pm.
:( I killed my baby hamsters.
Now I know why she went nuts.
I had to put two of my hamsters to sleep this afternoon. The two young ones. They got really sick and for some reason the bigger one kept attacking the runt, which made it even worse faster. But the Big Baby (our way of differentiating the two offspring: Big Baby and Small Baby) was getting more sick each day too. Saw a tumor-like thing on under it's left forearm today. So decided to finally put them down. My mother helped with that. Gave them both a concentrated dosage of sedatives. And then they quietly went to sleep, and then they just stopped breathing.
Forgive me if I sound melodramatic or anything, but I really feel like a murderer right now. That word's been going around my head since 4pm.
:( I killed my baby hamsters.
Friday, February 25, 2005
JLPT Results!!!
I got my JLPT score report in the mail yesterday. The actual certificate will only be available for collection in March. I got quite a good score! Am very very pleased. I passed lah, obviously. Here's the breakdown of my scores, as shown in the report:
Writing-Vocabulary: 91/100
Listening: 78/100
Reading-Grammar: 159/200
Total: 328/400
That's an 82% pass!! The passing score set down for JLPT Level 4 is 60% (so high!! why is it not 50%, I don't understand), so I guess I did good. (^_^) Hee!! Actually I was quite surprised by the scores, especially the score for writing and vocabulary. I didn't think I would get such a high score. Expected something around 70%.. 75% max... 82% is like... OMG. V happy now. Wheee!! Can confidently carry on with JLPT 3 now. Banzai!
Writing-Vocabulary: 91/100
Listening: 78/100
Reading-Grammar: 159/200
Total: 328/400
That's an 82% pass!! The passing score set down for JLPT Level 4 is 60% (so high!! why is it not 50%, I don't understand), so I guess I did good. (^_^) Hee!! Actually I was quite surprised by the scores, especially the score for writing and vocabulary. I didn't think I would get such a high score. Expected something around 70%.. 75% max... 82% is like... OMG. V happy now. Wheee!! Can confidently carry on with JLPT 3 now. Banzai!
Thursday, February 24, 2005
My Eyes Hurt
Smoke got in my eyes. Literally. :( I am not happy.
I just got back home from that bloody project I mentioned in my previous blog. The only positive thing about today's work was that it's the last day. #%#%& Man!! It's really freaking ridiculous. Jemalelinh was also very very unhappy about the whole thing. It was worse for her cause her parents were waiting for her already since 12am and we only got back from the site at like 2.30am or something. This is how stupid... STUPID!! today was.
Jemalelinh and I were originally supposed to report at 4pm. Around 1.30pm, the assistant supervisor calls us up and says they're behind schedule, report at 5.15pm instead. So ok, Jemalelinh and I decide to meet at Thomson Plaza at 3.30pm to have coffee first. Then at 4pm, the AS calls again and says oh sorry, now they're AHEAD of schedule. So now you have to report at 4.15pm!! LUCKILY, Jemalelinh had JUST gotten off the bus stop at TP. So we quickly tapao-ed our tea and rushed off in a cab. So when we reach the HQ at 4.16pm, we had to wait outside to get picked up by the bus, since we have to go to another site. About 15min later, we suddenly see what looks like our bus speeding out of the driveway without us. We are totally confounded but since no one has called us, we decided to continue waiting.
5pm!!! Finally the bus comes back and picks us up. What happened? The crew on-site had left something on the bus so the bus got called back. (-_-)"' Poor intern who was supposed to look after us also got left behind without notice. To her it was like the bus suddenly disappeared. It would have made more sense to pick us up on the way out also instead of turning back. Dumb. Anyway. That's not the end of it.
5.15pm, we reach the site. But wait on the bus first. Must check with boss what is happening. Ok. So we wait. And wait. And wait some more. At 7pm, boss finally comes up the bus and says sorry sorry, but things really went haywire. First they were ahead schedule, but shit! Jemalelinh and I weren't there to start our part early! Rush us down to the site and in the meanwhile, work on another section but shit! The apparatus is on the bus that went to pick us up! Finally get us down to the site but oh bloody crap!! Something else had to be done!!! So we effectively waited 2.5hrs for nothing. Anyway now it's late so might as well break for dinner first. Then suddenly they realize, oh eff... In the rush to get Jemalelinh and I on site, we weren't given time to get prepped up for the work. But nobody had the cow sense to send us back to HQ during our wonderful limbo period in the bus to get prepped. So instead of joining everyone for dinner, Jemalelinh and I are sent back to HQ. AS says she will tapao dinner for us. So we get prepped and rush down to Adam Road food centre thinking we're picking everyone else up and we will eat on the bus back to the site. But nooooo... We get to the food centre and eh?? We're supposed to go down and buy our food and eat there???? Bloody waste of time but OK lor! Whatever.
FINALLY! We get back to the site and we start work. Everything seems to go well until Jemalelinh and I are told to wait for a while as we're not needed for a certain section of the project. Ok so we go off to wait somewhere. There was nothing to sit on so we had to sit on the dirt. There is absolutely NO welfare for temps. Once again Jemalelinh and I were made to wait for almost 2hours before we were called out again. By this time it's already about 12.30am. Work some more, work some more. OK DONE! Just need one last thing but the rest of the crew have to move all the equipment to the other end of the site first.
So as we 4 girls (2 plus another temp and the intern) are waiting with boss and AS, we start talking and Jemalelinh says actually her parents are already waiting at HQ. Boss is like HUH?? Didn't you tell them you'd be ending late? I cut in and said yes well, the schedule said we'd be done by 12am. Boss is confused and stupid AS (we all hate the AS. She is BLOODY irritating) says noooooooo!! The schedule clearly says 2am! And she starts flipping through her file for the schedule to show us but we calmly inform them that it's 2am for the OTHER temp. For Jemalelinh and I it's 12am. You should've seen her face fall. Proven wrong then not happy already lah! Stupid cow. Boss is like oohhh shiiitt.... How come there's such a cockup in the schedule??? So sorry! But boss is nice and we all like the boss so we all can forgive boss.
The wonderful thorny cherry on the whipcream of irritation is when after we finally finish the last section and we're packing up to go back to HQ, AS comes along with her stupid file of schedules and says see see, this is the old schedule yah? I looked and pointed out the end-time to her and said yah, 12am. Then she flips to another green piece of paper and says but you see here, this is the new schedule. I didn't want to tell her that actually the "new" schedule states Jemalelinh's and my end-time as 10.45pm. I just told her that well, we weren't told. NONONO! She says! I called you this afternoon what!! Jemalelinh and I look at her calmly and explained very kindly (as you would to people with low mental ability), that she only told us the new reporting time. What we WEREN'T informed off was that our end-time had also changed.
Bloody cow I tell you. I really wanted to just slap her. Even when we were being dropped off at the HQ she was being stupid. We had to return our passes at the entrance gate and poor intern was trying to get the message across that Jemalelinh and I had to be dropped off at the gate but stupid AS was dunno talking about what with the boss so they didn't hear any of us at all. Then when the bus had already driven inside the compound and they found out we had to return our passes, gave us exasperated looks and said why didn't you say so earlier?? Poor intern tried to explain but they wouldn't listen. Boss just left it at the aiyah, nevermind lah, but thanks girls for all your hard work and got off the bus. That bloody AS, as the bus turned around to send us back to the gate, just kept on chiding and chiding as if Jemalelinh, intern and I had no common sense at all and we were all in the fault for everything except herself and her inability to listen. I tell you...... I really wanted to just hit her! Not slap anymore. I wanted to PUNCH HER BLOODY FACE IN!!!! F***ed up.
So glad it's all over. Don't have to see that stupid woman ever again. I shall go and bathe now and go to sleep. 3.44am already. Ranted for an hour. Goodness. But I really had to get it off my chest. Hmph. Stupid cow.
I just got back home from that bloody project I mentioned in my previous blog. The only positive thing about today's work was that it's the last day. #%#%& Man!! It's really freaking ridiculous. Jemalelinh was also very very unhappy about the whole thing. It was worse for her cause her parents were waiting for her already since 12am and we only got back from the site at like 2.30am or something. This is how stupid... STUPID!! today was.
Jemalelinh and I were originally supposed to report at 4pm. Around 1.30pm, the assistant supervisor calls us up and says they're behind schedule, report at 5.15pm instead. So ok, Jemalelinh and I decide to meet at Thomson Plaza at 3.30pm to have coffee first. Then at 4pm, the AS calls again and says oh sorry, now they're AHEAD of schedule. So now you have to report at 4.15pm!! LUCKILY, Jemalelinh had JUST gotten off the bus stop at TP. So we quickly tapao-ed our tea and rushed off in a cab. So when we reach the HQ at 4.16pm, we had to wait outside to get picked up by the bus, since we have to go to another site. About 15min later, we suddenly see what looks like our bus speeding out of the driveway without us. We are totally confounded but since no one has called us, we decided to continue waiting.
5pm!!! Finally the bus comes back and picks us up. What happened? The crew on-site had left something on the bus so the bus got called back. (-_-)"' Poor intern who was supposed to look after us also got left behind without notice. To her it was like the bus suddenly disappeared. It would have made more sense to pick us up on the way out also instead of turning back. Dumb. Anyway. That's not the end of it.
5.15pm, we reach the site. But wait on the bus first. Must check with boss what is happening. Ok. So we wait. And wait. And wait some more. At 7pm, boss finally comes up the bus and says sorry sorry, but things really went haywire. First they were ahead schedule, but shit! Jemalelinh and I weren't there to start our part early! Rush us down to the site and in the meanwhile, work on another section but shit! The apparatus is on the bus that went to pick us up! Finally get us down to the site but oh bloody crap!! Something else had to be done!!! So we effectively waited 2.5hrs for nothing. Anyway now it's late so might as well break for dinner first. Then suddenly they realize, oh eff... In the rush to get Jemalelinh and I on site, we weren't given time to get prepped up for the work. But nobody had the cow sense to send us back to HQ during our wonderful limbo period in the bus to get prepped. So instead of joining everyone for dinner, Jemalelinh and I are sent back to HQ. AS says she will tapao dinner for us. So we get prepped and rush down to Adam Road food centre thinking we're picking everyone else up and we will eat on the bus back to the site. But nooooo... We get to the food centre and eh?? We're supposed to go down and buy our food and eat there???? Bloody waste of time but OK lor! Whatever.
FINALLY! We get back to the site and we start work. Everything seems to go well until Jemalelinh and I are told to wait for a while as we're not needed for a certain section of the project. Ok so we go off to wait somewhere. There was nothing to sit on so we had to sit on the dirt. There is absolutely NO welfare for temps. Once again Jemalelinh and I were made to wait for almost 2hours before we were called out again. By this time it's already about 12.30am. Work some more, work some more. OK DONE! Just need one last thing but the rest of the crew have to move all the equipment to the other end of the site first.
So as we 4 girls (2 plus another temp and the intern) are waiting with boss and AS, we start talking and Jemalelinh says actually her parents are already waiting at HQ. Boss is like HUH?? Didn't you tell them you'd be ending late? I cut in and said yes well, the schedule said we'd be done by 12am. Boss is confused and stupid AS (we all hate the AS. She is BLOODY irritating) says noooooooo!! The schedule clearly says 2am! And she starts flipping through her file for the schedule to show us but we calmly inform them that it's 2am for the OTHER temp. For Jemalelinh and I it's 12am. You should've seen her face fall. Proven wrong then not happy already lah! Stupid cow. Boss is like oohhh shiiitt.... How come there's such a cockup in the schedule??? So sorry! But boss is nice and we all like the boss so we all can forgive boss.
The wonderful thorny cherry on the whipcream of irritation is when after we finally finish the last section and we're packing up to go back to HQ, AS comes along with her stupid file of schedules and says see see, this is the old schedule yah? I looked and pointed out the end-time to her and said yah, 12am. Then she flips to another green piece of paper and says but you see here, this is the new schedule. I didn't want to tell her that actually the "new" schedule states Jemalelinh's and my end-time as 10.45pm. I just told her that well, we weren't told. NONONO! She says! I called you this afternoon what!! Jemalelinh and I look at her calmly and explained very kindly (as you would to people with low mental ability), that she only told us the new reporting time. What we WEREN'T informed off was that our end-time had also changed.
Bloody cow I tell you. I really wanted to just slap her. Even when we were being dropped off at the HQ she was being stupid. We had to return our passes at the entrance gate and poor intern was trying to get the message across that Jemalelinh and I had to be dropped off at the gate but stupid AS was dunno talking about what with the boss so they didn't hear any of us at all. Then when the bus had already driven inside the compound and they found out we had to return our passes, gave us exasperated looks and said why didn't you say so earlier?? Poor intern tried to explain but they wouldn't listen. Boss just left it at the aiyah, nevermind lah, but thanks girls for all your hard work and got off the bus. That bloody AS, as the bus turned around to send us back to the gate, just kept on chiding and chiding as if Jemalelinh, intern and I had no common sense at all and we were all in the fault for everything except herself and her inability to listen. I tell you...... I really wanted to just hit her! Not slap anymore. I wanted to PUNCH HER BLOODY FACE IN!!!! F***ed up.
So glad it's all over. Don't have to see that stupid woman ever again. I shall go and bathe now and go to sleep. 3.44am already. Ranted for an hour. Goodness. But I really had to get it off my chest. Hmph. Stupid cow.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Some Updates
Alright alright. Due to popular demand, I have returned to blog some more about my life, which is basically one huge rant fest. I don't know why people bother reading this really. My life is so boring compared to other people like say... Monkey! Monkey is having such an adventure now. And Bubba's about to embark on another exciting adventure too! Go and read their lives. Shoo. But for those who need a cure for insomnia... Here's the life of a siew mai called Veetwo.
I've started with my Japanese at Ikoma Language School. Monday was the first lesson I had with my actual class and sensei, Nakamura-san. Only it was to be my first AND last lesson with Nakamura-sensei, since she's going to be starting work with a Japanese company this coming week. Sigh. And she was such a nice sensei too. So sad. My new sensei is going to be this woman called Ueda-san. I hope she's nice. Eep. I realized that a lot of the "new" stuff that we're learning now isn't exactly new for me. I've learnt it all in NUS... Oops. Think by right I'm probably half-JLPT 2 or something. Oh well, nevermind. This is serving as very good revision for me. Considering how much I have forgotten already. It's stupid. I remember certain more complicated sentence structures but no longer have any clue how to form some simpler ones. Super diao-ded. (-_-)'"
Missed my first book-keeping class on Tuesday due to... erm... Part-time work. Oh did I mention that my schedule has changed? The book-keeping is now every Tuesdays and Saturdays instead of Wed/Sat. And erm... Yes... I am currently working on a... project. Temporary basis of course. It will be over by the coming Wednesday. I might tell you people all about it when the time comes. Maybe.
Anyhow, back to book-keeping. I attended the second lesson today, which was the first lesson for me. Thank goodness I wasn't the only one who had missed Tuesday's lesson. There were 3 others and I managed to get to know one of them. Girl called Janice. Having a "friend" in any class always makes the class more bearable. Have yet to find a "friend" at Ikoma. Sniff! Anyway. The class was quite fun, but at the end of it was also very very brain-fried. Not just brain-dead mind you. Brain FRIED. Sizzled into nothingness. What to do... Had to learn the previous 3hours from Tuesday as well as today's 3 hours. 6 Hours worth of accounts keeping in 3 hours. Total peng san boy. (x_x) The amount of homework is phenomenal for a part-time course. I have to prepare at least 2 Tradings, profits and loss sheets, 2 balance sheets and dunno how many other tables and charts. And this is just the second lesson of the ELEMENTARY level. Can you imagine when I get to Intermediate?? POOOH!!! Die.
Oh craps. I might miss out on next Tuesday's class again. That silly project again. Dammit. The schedule they gave me says I should be done by 5pm... But somehow I think it will drag until 7pm. Dammit. And I'll have to travel from freaking Boon Lay. Pah!
まったく...早く終わりなさい！！！
I've started with my Japanese at Ikoma Language School. Monday was the first lesson I had with my actual class and sensei, Nakamura-san. Only it was to be my first AND last lesson with Nakamura-sensei, since she's going to be starting work with a Japanese company this coming week. Sigh. And she was such a nice sensei too. So sad. My new sensei is going to be this woman called Ueda-san. I hope she's nice. Eep. I realized that a lot of the "new" stuff that we're learning now isn't exactly new for me. I've learnt it all in NUS... Oops. Think by right I'm probably half-JLPT 2 or something. Oh well, nevermind. This is serving as very good revision for me. Considering how much I have forgotten already. It's stupid. I remember certain more complicated sentence structures but no longer have any clue how to form some simpler ones. Super diao-ded. (-_-)'"
Missed my first book-keeping class on Tuesday due to... erm... Part-time work. Oh did I mention that my schedule has changed? The book-keeping is now every Tuesdays and Saturdays instead of Wed/Sat. And erm... Yes... I am currently working on a... project. Temporary basis of course. It will be over by the coming Wednesday. I might tell you people all about it when the time comes. Maybe.
Anyhow, back to book-keeping. I attended the second lesson today, which was the first lesson for me. Thank goodness I wasn't the only one who had missed Tuesday's lesson. There were 3 others and I managed to get to know one of them. Girl called Janice. Having a "friend" in any class always makes the class more bearable. Have yet to find a "friend" at Ikoma. Sniff! Anyway. The class was quite fun, but at the end of it was also very very brain-fried. Not just brain-dead mind you. Brain FRIED. Sizzled into nothingness. What to do... Had to learn the previous 3hours from Tuesday as well as today's 3 hours. 6 Hours worth of accounts keeping in 3 hours. Total peng san boy. (x_x) The amount of homework is phenomenal for a part-time course. I have to prepare at least 2 Tradings, profits and loss sheets, 2 balance sheets and dunno how many other tables and charts. And this is just the second lesson of the ELEMENTARY level. Can you imagine when I get to Intermediate?? POOOH!!! Die.
Oh craps. I might miss out on next Tuesday's class again. That silly project again. Dammit. The schedule they gave me says I should be done by 5pm... But somehow I think it will drag until 7pm. Dammit. And I'll have to travel from freaking Boon Lay. Pah!
まったく...早く終わりなさい！！！
Monday, February 07, 2005
Almost Here
Almost Here
Bryan McFadden/Delta Goodrem
Irish Son/ Mistaken Identity
(Guy) Did I hear you right?
'Cause I thought you said,
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
(Girl) But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
(Guy) I would change the world
If I had a chance.
Oh won't you let me?
Treat me like a child
(Together) Throw your arms around me
(Guy) Oh please protect me
(Together) Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
(Guy) Haven't I always loved you?
(Girl) But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
(Together) Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
(Guy) Haven't I always loved you?
(Girl) But when I need you, you're almost here
(Guy) Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
(Girl) And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Guy) Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
(Together) And now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
(Guy) 'Cause I know I'm almost here
(Together) Only almost here
Bryan McFadden/Delta Goodrem
Irish Son/ Mistaken Identity
(Guy) Did I hear you right?
'Cause I thought you said,
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
(Girl) But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
(Guy) I would change the world
If I had a chance.
Oh won't you let me?
Treat me like a child
(Together) Throw your arms around me
(Guy) Oh please protect me
(Together) Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
(Guy) Haven't I always loved you?
(Girl) But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
(Together) Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
(Guy) Haven't I always loved you?
(Girl) But when I need you, you're almost here
(Guy) Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
(Girl) And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Guy) Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
(Together) And now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
(Guy) 'Cause I know I'm almost here
(Together) Only almost here
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Do We Really Break Up Like This ~ The Grasshoppers
难道我们就这样分手
歌手:草蜢 专辑:爱不怕
曲:蔡一智
词:林夕
编曲:王双骏
如果你寂寞是因为我停不了的忙碌
我愿意什么都放下不顾
如果你伤心是因为我不小心的疏忽
就用我一生的时间弥补
想不到让你爱我爱得那么痛苦
我以为已经尽了所能对你付出
从来也没有人会让我(如此)无助
想不到沉默的表示会是种错误
就让我大声宣布我的在乎
是不是雨个人在一起只是为了寄托
如果是这样我该怎么做
难道爱一个人只因为他的时间够多
而多年的感情不算什么
难道我们真的就这样分手
来不及告诉我有什么方法可以补救
难道我们就这样永远分手
没时间让我去问你
为什么你觉得我爱你爱得不够
这样分手
找一个我们都愿意相信的理由
一定是我的付出还不够
让你有所保留
一定是我没有好好地告诉你我的感受
不管我们之间相爱已有多久
Translation:
Do We Really Break Up Like This
The Grasshoppers Album: Not Afraid of Love
Composition: Cai Yizhi
Lyrics: Lin Xi
Additional Music: Wang Xuang Jun
If my occupations are the cause of your loneliness,
I would give up everything willingly.
If you’re hurting because I never noticed,
I’ll make it up to you for a lifetime.
I never thought that your loving me would be so painful.
I thought I had done everything I could for you.
But never before has anyone rendered me so helpless.
I never knew silence was a mistake too.
Now, let me proclaim out loud how much I care!
Do people only stay together to burden each other with hopes and dreams?
If that’s the case what should I do?
Can it be you should only love someone who’s got time spare?
And years of feelings mean nothing?
Are we really breaking up like this?
There was no time to tell me how to fix things.
Are we really breaking up forever?
There was no time for me to ask you,
Why you thought I didn’t love you enough.
To break up like this…
Find a reason we can both believe in.
It must be that I didn’t do enough,
To make you want to stay.
It must be that I never really told you how I felt,
Even though we’ve been together so long.
歌手:草蜢 专辑:爱不怕
曲:蔡一智
词:林夕
编曲:王双骏
如果你寂寞是因为我停不了的忙碌
我愿意什么都放下不顾
如果你伤心是因为我不小心的疏忽
就用我一生的时间弥补
想不到让你爱我爱得那么痛苦
我以为已经尽了所能对你付出
从来也没有人会让我(如此)无助
想不到沉默的表示会是种错误
就让我大声宣布我的在乎
是不是雨个人在一起只是为了寄托
如果是这样我该怎么做
难道爱一个人只因为他的时间够多
而多年的感情不算什么
难道我们真的就这样分手
来不及告诉我有什么方法可以补救
难道我们就这样永远分手
没时间让我去问你
为什么你觉得我爱你爱得不够
这样分手
找一个我们都愿意相信的理由
一定是我的付出还不够
让你有所保留
一定是我没有好好地告诉你我的感受
不管我们之间相爱已有多久
Translation:
Do We Really Break Up Like This
The Grasshoppers Album: Not Afraid of Love
Composition: Cai Yizhi
Lyrics: Lin Xi
Additional Music: Wang Xuang Jun
If my occupations are the cause of your loneliness,
I would give up everything willingly.
If you’re hurting because I never noticed,
I’ll make it up to you for a lifetime.
I never thought that your loving me would be so painful.
I thought I had done everything I could for you.
But never before has anyone rendered me so helpless.
I never knew silence was a mistake too.
Now, let me proclaim out loud how much I care!
Do people only stay together to burden each other with hopes and dreams?
If that’s the case what should I do?
Can it be you should only love someone who’s got time spare?
And years of feelings mean nothing?
Are we really breaking up like this?
There was no time to tell me how to fix things.
Are we really breaking up forever?
There was no time for me to ask you,
Why you thought I didn’t love you enough.
To break up like this…
Find a reason we can both believe in.
It must be that I didn’t do enough,
To make you want to stay.
It must be that I never really told you how I felt,
Even though we’ve been together so long.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Administrator Van
*adjusts new square-rimmed glasses* Ahem!
I'm on my way towards administration or management I think. Just look at the classes I just signed up for today...
1) Intermediate Japanese (JLPT Level 3) at Ikoma Language School
This was quite an adventure. I went over to check them out because I wasn't allowed to make a late enrolment at Pyaesse. The earliest I could enrol there was April. (-_-)"' So I went over to Ikoma and they said well, if you like, they could conduct a placement test for me on the spot, in the form of an informal interview, to see if I could join in any of the classes halfway. So out came these two senseis (one was called Nakamura... I can't remember the other one. I feel terrible coz I think I've been enrolled in her class.) just as I finished filling up a form requesting a placement test, and they started talking to me. I understood most of what they said to me, but for the life of me I couldn't remember my spoken Japanese and just sputtered through everything. I think I told them that I finished at NUS when I was trying to say that my studies in NUS stopped. Big Oops. But at the end of it all, my future-class sensei said that I was good! She said that clearly I could understand what she was saying and she actually understood what I said. So I was allowed to enrol exactly halfway into the current term, and the first lesson was supposed to just serve as a revision for me. (O_O) I couldn't believe my ears. I thought I was just making a fool of myself.
2) LCCI certification Book Keeping course at BMC (Ang Mo Kio Branch)
Check it out. I'm going to learn how to manage account books! Admin/Accounts Assistant Siew Mai is born! This is a very useful certification for potential secretaries or personal assistants apparently. And if ever I go into business with friends *blinks at certain pple* this will DEFINITELY come in handy. No need to hire anyone to settle my books. It's quite xiong.. Twice a week, 3 hours each time every Wednesday and Saturday. The receptionist who registered me got quite a shock when I said I was an NUS dropout, coz apparently she was from NUS as well. She was like, "Isn't that so wasted?? What modules did you take??? Almost graduated right?? So wasted!" I'm thinking,"Yes I know all that already. Can you just register me???" But I just smiled and said yah to everything she said. See? On my way to becoming typical admin person. Hahaha.
Anyhow. With these two classes, my week is officially half-gone. My current schedule stands as such:
Monday 7.15pm - 9.45pm Japanese Language
Wednesday 7pm - 10pm Book keeping
Thursday 7.30pm - 9.30pm Flamenco Primer/Segundo
Saturday 2pm - 5pm Book keeping
Egads. I will have no social life soon. And I'll never have to come home for dinner again!! (T_T) *shudder*
I'm on my way towards administration or management I think. Just look at the classes I just signed up for today...
1) Intermediate Japanese (JLPT Level 3) at Ikoma Language School
This was quite an adventure. I went over to check them out because I wasn't allowed to make a late enrolment at Pyaesse. The earliest I could enrol there was April. (-_-)"' So I went over to Ikoma and they said well, if you like, they could conduct a placement test for me on the spot, in the form of an informal interview, to see if I could join in any of the classes halfway. So out came these two senseis (one was called Nakamura... I can't remember the other one. I feel terrible coz I think I've been enrolled in her class.) just as I finished filling up a form requesting a placement test, and they started talking to me. I understood most of what they said to me, but for the life of me I couldn't remember my spoken Japanese and just sputtered through everything. I think I told them that I finished at NUS when I was trying to say that my studies in NUS stopped. Big Oops. But at the end of it all, my future-class sensei said that I was good! She said that clearly I could understand what she was saying and she actually understood what I said. So I was allowed to enrol exactly halfway into the current term, and the first lesson was supposed to just serve as a revision for me. (O_O) I couldn't believe my ears. I thought I was just making a fool of myself.
2) LCCI certification Book Keeping course at BMC (Ang Mo Kio Branch)
Check it out. I'm going to learn how to manage account books! Admin/Accounts Assistant Siew Mai is born! This is a very useful certification for potential secretaries or personal assistants apparently. And if ever I go into business with friends *blinks at certain pple* this will DEFINITELY come in handy. No need to hire anyone to settle my books. It's quite xiong.. Twice a week, 3 hours each time every Wednesday and Saturday. The receptionist who registered me got quite a shock when I said I was an NUS dropout, coz apparently she was from NUS as well. She was like, "Isn't that so wasted?? What modules did you take??? Almost graduated right?? So wasted!" I'm thinking,"Yes I know all that already. Can you just register me???" But I just smiled and said yah to everything she said. See? On my way to becoming typical admin person. Hahaha.
Anyhow. With these two classes, my week is officially half-gone. My current schedule stands as such:
Monday 7.15pm - 9.45pm Japanese Language
Wednesday 7pm - 10pm Book keeping
Thursday 7.30pm - 9.30pm Flamenco Primer/Segundo
Saturday 2pm - 5pm Book keeping
Egads. I will have no social life soon. And I'll never have to come home for dinner again!! (T_T) *shudder*
Monday, January 31, 2005
Comment Feature... ??
Something's up with my comment feature... I dunno... Doesn't seem to be working the way I want it to...
Test test...
Edit 8.36pm: I is not understanding. When I take away a certain html tag, all the comments show on my blog, which make it cluttered. Whereas if I put that html tag back in, my comment feature just disappears completely. I is not understanding this. Dunno WHAT the heck is going on. Oh well...
Edit Feb 01 6pm: Since I can't get the comment feature to work properly, it has been disabled.. Sorry pple. Have to make do with flooble.
Test test...
Edit 8.36pm: I is not understanding. When I take away a certain html tag, all the comments show on my blog, which make it cluttered. Whereas if I put that html tag back in, my comment feature just disappears completely. I is not understanding this. Dunno WHAT the heck is going on. Oh well...
Edit Feb 01 6pm: Since I can't get the comment feature to work properly, it has been disabled.. Sorry pple. Have to make do with flooble.
Announcing...SIEWMAnIme
Introducing anime/manga, Siew Mai Style... Siewmanime!
Heh.
I have a new blog, just for posting my various doodlings. Go check it out. Not very complete though.
*~Siew Mai Style~*
Heh.
I have a new blog, just for posting my various doodlings. Go check it out. Not very complete though.
*~Siew Mai Style~*
Friday, January 28, 2005
Another Song Translation!
Haven't done one of these for a while. This is the ending theme from one of my latest obsessions that shows every night (really EVERY night. Monday to Sunday...) from 12.30am to 1.30am on Channel U. This 古装戏 called 移山倒海 樊梨花 (Yi Shan Dao Hai Fan Li Hua) or The Tales of Fan Li Hua. Very addictive show. Lots of angst. Hahaha! Anyway, here's the song. It's supposed to be two lovers singing a prayer to the Goddess of the Moon I think... The translation might not be very accurate coz it's actually a fu2 jian4 song. Taiwan show mah... So it's different from cantonese and not quite mandarin. My first time translating a fu2 jian4 song. Hir hir hir... If anyone spots any inaccuracies, drop me a post.
月娘啊!听我讲
歌手:江蕙/熊天益 曲/词:熊天益
（女）
啊月娘乎我拜托
这届请你爱照顾
这呢坎坷的人嗯望的爱
呒通搁再使我
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心
（男）
是什么使我坚持
孤单等甲这东时
耽误热情青春的花期
当我呒愿搁作梦
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心
（女）
是伊惦阮身边
呒管谁人怎样看
伴阮流浪的人向前行
（男）
是伊惦心内知影我会惊
犹原疼惜无奈的我
若是会冻知影我的梦
（合）
请你一定着爱保庇伊的人
（女）
总是有情人会冻体会
歌声流泄的心意
你看今夜裵两人的月当圆
（男）
呒通搁再使我
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心
（女）
是伊惦阮身边
呒管谁人怎样看
伴阮这款流浪的性命
（男）
是伊阮心内知影我会惊
犹原疼惜无奈的我
若是会冻知影我的梦
（合）
请你一定着爱保庇伊的人
Translation
Moon Goddess! Hear Me
Vocals: Jiang Hui/Xiong Tian Yi Composed/Lyrics: Xiong Tian Yi
(Woman)
Ah Moon Goddess, hear my prayer
This once, please take care
Of the love this undeserving person desires.
Please don’t make me
Swallow tears of sorrow again.
Who, who will warm my heart?
(Man)
What is it that makes me insist
On waiting alone until it’s too late,
Missing out on the spring of passion.
When I dream subconsciously,
I swallow tears of sorrow.
Who, who will warm my heart?
(Woman)
Who is it that stays so close?
Disregarding what others think,
To journey on with this vagrant wanderer.
(Man)
Who is this who knows my fears?
That loves a useless me without hesitation.
If my dreams can be known
(Together)
Please love and protect this person.
(Woman)
There will always be lovers who know
The true heart of the ever-flowing song.
See, on this sad night for two, how round the moon is.
(Man)
Please don’t make me
Swallow tears of sorrow
Who, who will warm my heart.
(Woman)
Who is it that stays so close?
Disregarding what others think,
To accompany this loner’s life.
(Man)
Who is this who knows my fears?
That loves a useless me without hesitation.
If you know my dreams
(Together)
Please love and protect this person.
月娘啊!听我讲
歌手:江蕙/熊天益 曲/词:熊天益
（女）
啊月娘乎我拜托
这届请你爱照顾
这呢坎坷的人嗯望的爱
呒通搁再使我
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心
（男）
是什么使我坚持
孤单等甲这东时
耽误热情青春的花期
当我呒愿搁作梦
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心
（女）
是伊惦阮身边
呒管谁人怎样看
伴阮流浪的人向前行
（男）
是伊惦心内知影我会惊
犹原疼惜无奈的我
若是会冻知影我的梦
（合）
请你一定着爱保庇伊的人
（女）
总是有情人会冻体会
歌声流泄的心意
你看今夜裵两人的月当圆
（男）
呒通搁再使我
吞落悲伤的目屎
是伊是伊温柔我的心
（女）
是伊惦阮身边
呒管谁人怎样看
伴阮这款流浪的性命
（男）
是伊阮心内知影我会惊
犹原疼惜无奈的我
若是会冻知影我的梦
（合）
请你一定着爱保庇伊的人
Translation
Moon Goddess! Hear Me
Vocals: Jiang Hui/Xiong Tian Yi Composed/Lyrics: Xiong Tian Yi
(Woman)
Ah Moon Goddess, hear my prayer
This once, please take care
Of the love this undeserving person desires.
Please don’t make me
Swallow tears of sorrow again.
Who, who will warm my heart?
(Man)
What is it that makes me insist
On waiting alone until it’s too late,
Missing out on the spring of passion.
When I dream subconsciously,
I swallow tears of sorrow.
Who, who will warm my heart?
(Woman)
Who is it that stays so close?
Disregarding what others think,
To journey on with this vagrant wanderer.
(Man)
Who is this who knows my fears?
That loves a useless me without hesitation.
If my dreams can be known
(Together)
Please love and protect this person.
(Woman)
There will always be lovers who know
The true heart of the ever-flowing song.
See, on this sad night for two, how round the moon is.
(Man)
Please don’t make me
Swallow tears of sorrow
Who, who will warm my heart.
(Woman)
Who is it that stays so close?
Disregarding what others think,
To accompany this loner’s life.
(Man)
Who is this who knows my fears?
That loves a useless me without hesitation.
If you know my dreams
(Together)
Please love and protect this person.
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Flamenco High. Baile!!
Have decided to enable the comment feature on my blog. This is for people who think that my flooble is too small for real commentary. :D But you're welcome to make noise in both places. Hahah..
Job Update: Still no job. Lalala... Still searching the classifieds. Don't worry!! Siew Mai will presevere!! Thanx everyone for the overwhelming support and lobang-lookouts!! Even trainer Shane is offering to help! So touched!!! *muakz* to everyone... except Shane. I'll just promise to do my cardio more regularly. Heh..
Just came back from flamenco class!!! Classes rather.. Since the four of us (Lydia, Pearl, Nekoweenie and me) from the primer class decided to stay on for the segundo class. Primer was quite fun. It was kind of like an extension of preparatorio, so it wasn't too difficult. And there was a family than joined us today. So cute. Parents and their daughter learning flamenco together. Then after primer we stayed on for segundo and it was like worlds apart!!!! The actual segundo people came in and we hid behind them during the class, trying very hard to copy them. MY GOODNESS!!! The speed of the zapateado is like 10x the speed we were doing in preparatorio. I was probably like the worst of the lot lah. Couldn't get the beat at all. Poor Angel was looking more stressed by the minute. But in the end it was FUN!!! AHAHHAHA!!! I must practice my ria. Totally off already. See lah. Two months never practice, dunno how to do ria already. Tsk tsk... Ok Nekoweenie, when are we going to have private practices with each other? Let's have that flamenco video marathon some weekend soon. WHeeee!!! High already. Hahahaha...
OOOOOOOHHH!!! And we got our exam certs back!!! Nekoweenie and I both got HONOURS!!!! Yay yay!!! That's just one below Honours with Distinction!! MY GOSH!!! I thought I'd be getting only a commended at best because I made so many mistakes!!! I would've been thankful for just a pass!! But Deanna Blacher gave me HONOURS!!! YAY YAY YAY!!! So happy!!! Flamenco! Baile!! *ta ria ria**stomp stomp stomp**clap clap*
Job Update: Still no job. Lalala... Still searching the classifieds. Don't worry!! Siew Mai will presevere!! Thanx everyone for the overwhelming support and lobang-lookouts!! Even trainer Shane is offering to help! So touched!!! *muakz* to everyone... except Shane. I'll just promise to do my cardio more regularly. Heh..
Just came back from flamenco class!!! Classes rather.. Since the four of us (Lydia, Pearl, Nekoweenie and me) from the primer class decided to stay on for the segundo class. Primer was quite fun. It was kind of like an extension of preparatorio, so it wasn't too difficult. And there was a family than joined us today. So cute. Parents and their daughter learning flamenco together. Then after primer we stayed on for segundo and it was like worlds apart!!!! The actual segundo people came in and we hid behind them during the class, trying very hard to copy them. MY GOODNESS!!! The speed of the zapateado is like 10x the speed we were doing in preparatorio. I was probably like the worst of the lot lah. Couldn't get the beat at all. Poor Angel was looking more stressed by the minute. But in the end it was FUN!!! AHAHHAHA!!! I must practice my ria. Totally off already. See lah. Two months never practice, dunno how to do ria already. Tsk tsk... Ok Nekoweenie, when are we going to have private practices with each other? Let's have that flamenco video marathon some weekend soon. WHeeee!!! High already. Hahahaha...
OOOOOOOHHH!!! And we got our exam certs back!!! Nekoweenie and I both got HONOURS!!!! Yay yay!!! That's just one below Honours with Distinction!! MY GOSH!!! I thought I'd be getting only a commended at best because I made so many mistakes!!! I would've been thankful for just a pass!! But Deanna Blacher gave me HONOURS!!! YAY YAY YAY!!! So happy!!! Flamenco! Baile!! *ta ria ria**stomp stomp stomp**clap clap*
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
A Future In Popcorn?
Well... I went down to Heeren today to check out the store which placed an ad in the classifieds. Turned out to be this beach/swim/sports wear store called NewUrbanMale, which did have a small section for ladies wear but catered mainly to the New Urban Male. So in slight shock, I decided to walk around the Annex for a while to see if there were other options and also to decide whether or not to go into NewUrbanMale and ask about the job. There were two other stores which placed an ad on their windows, one was a ladies clothing store and the other was a little store which sold only sunglasses. So after some discussion with Nekoweenie, I went into the ladies clothing store to ask about the job. I was turned down immediately. Why? No retail experience. Sigh. The only complaint I have is that the ad on the window didn't specify that retail experience was required. But I suppose I should have expected that. So stupid.
Anyway, after that rather embarressing encounter, I hung around wondering about NewUrbanMale for a little while, then decided not to pursue it since they probably want someone with retail experience also, just that they couldn't afford so many lines in the classifieds. Felt a little depressed after that so left to go to FitnessFirst for a short run on the treadmill in hopes that the resultant endorphines would cheer me up. After a 35minute session on the machine, went and showered and proceeded to go home... Not feeling any different. If anything I was getting slightly more depressed about the whole thing. I need working experience to get a job but if I don't get a job I'll never get any working experience. What a paradox. And it's true which makes it suck all the more. Sigh. I've only ever worked 3 1/2 months in NUH as a temp admin assistant... But only because I managed to land a lobang from my aunt. I don't think it really counts for much. Haiz. Will I really end up popping corn and issuing tickets and mopping floors for GV?
Anyway, after that rather embarressing encounter, I hung around wondering about NewUrbanMale for a little while, then decided not to pursue it since they probably want someone with retail experience also, just that they couldn't afford so many lines in the classifieds. Felt a little depressed after that so left to go to FitnessFirst for a short run on the treadmill in hopes that the resultant endorphines would cheer me up. After a 35minute session on the machine, went and showered and proceeded to go home... Not feeling any different. If anything I was getting slightly more depressed about the whole thing. I need working experience to get a job but if I don't get a job I'll never get any working experience. What a paradox. And it's true which makes it suck all the more. Sigh. I've only ever worked 3 1/2 months in NUH as a temp admin assistant... But only because I managed to land a lobang from my aunt. I don't think it really counts for much. Haiz. Will I really end up popping corn and issuing tickets and mopping floors for GV?
Extra Update
Ooop.. Just realized that an entry about curry puffs is quite a far cry from the one before (which had the most crying I ever had in a single entry) and I should actually update people as to how I'm doing now in the emotional state department or whether I've just gone and lost all sense of sanity.
I'm doing ok. Still freaked out about having to go look for a job even though I have very little working experience and no degree to speak of. But it helped that on that particular day I wrote that prayer, somebody called me up and instead of telling me of things I should be doing, listened to me cry over the phone. Even though I probably wasn't very comprehensible, this person listened anyway and when I stopped talking to sob - which was a number of times - kept silent and never once asked me to stop. I woke up the next day with my eyes slightly swollen but I did feel much better. Still freaked but at least it's not the end of the world anymore. That one phone call helped me deal with the fear inside so I'm really grateful for my friend. I needed to cry and I needed someone to cry to, without any interruptions. So now I'm done crying and I've learnt that there's actually someone who's willing to listen to me cry. And that helps. :)
Now I just have to see about that job...
I'm doing ok. Still freaked out about having to go look for a job even though I have very little working experience and no degree to speak of. But it helped that on that particular day I wrote that prayer, somebody called me up and instead of telling me of things I should be doing, listened to me cry over the phone. Even though I probably wasn't very comprehensible, this person listened anyway and when I stopped talking to sob - which was a number of times - kept silent and never once asked me to stop. I woke up the next day with my eyes slightly swollen but I did feel much better. Still freaked but at least it's not the end of the world anymore. That one phone call helped me deal with the fear inside so I'm really grateful for my friend. I needed to cry and I needed someone to cry to, without any interruptions. So now I'm done crying and I've learnt that there's actually someone who's willing to listen to me cry. And that helps. :)
Now I just have to see about that job...
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Never-ending Job Hunt... And Curry Puffs
Had a curry puff just now, but I think it's been justified by the fact that I walked all the way to Junction 8 and then walked all the way back again. Heh. Went there to do some grocery shopping at NTUC with my sis and the maid, but in the end we only managed to get half of what we wanted to buy at the neighbourhood Prime Supermarket on the way back. We actually managed to find everything at NTUC and we were lining up at the checkout counter already when the system suddenly hung. It was quite amusing. All the counters except for one couldn't operate. So there was this one amazingly long queue right at the very end, all the other cashiers were in a mild panic and the floor supervisor looked like he was about to cry. Most of the customers rushed over to the one working counter while some patiently waited in their original queue. I think by the time we left the working queue had stretched from the counters to the opposite wall.. I'm not very sure but it was a bloody lot of people. Other customers who were in a rush or decided it wasn't worth waiting so long just quietly put their groceries back or left them with the NTUC people and left. And from the chaos emerged the much feared Ugly Singaporeans, madly steering their carts towards the working queue to try and claim a space or making demands at the crew who really couldn't do anything since this was an overall system failure. One particular woman came up to the nice auntie serving our counter and asked if she could just pay up without scanning all the groceries. Of course the auntie said no, cannot. Because they'd have to account for the stock. The woman's face became really really black and she very discourteously and loudly exclaimed, "HUH!! FORGET IT!" and stormed out. Come on!! It's nobody's fault here. What's the point at shouting demands at the counter crew when they themselves have no idea what triggered the system failure? And they're probably at a greater disadvantage than we are since they're the ones who are about to lose hundreds of dollars tonight. We just have to change our dinner plans for tomorrow. Tsk...
Anyhow, I finally recieved an official letter from NUS stating that my appeal has been rejected. I sent in the appeal on the 3rd and the referrals on the 5th. This letter they sent was dated the 20th and today is the 25th. Yup. NUS is indeed a world-class university in terms of efficiency. Ahh.. Not that it matters anymore.
Still looking for a job. Going down to Heeren tomorrow to try my luck after seeing a very very tiny ad in the classifieds today about some clothing store there that needs people. I suppose manning a store is slightly better than being service/counter crew at GV. But maybe if I don't get the clothing store job I will apply to be counter crew for GV... Hahaha... A job's a job right? Somebody has to do it anyway.
Unless... Somebody's got a lobang hidden away somewhere... Anyone with a family cafe that needs help? Lalalala...
I want another curry puff... *drool*
Anyhow, I finally recieved an official letter from NUS stating that my appeal has been rejected. I sent in the appeal on the 3rd and the referrals on the 5th. This letter they sent was dated the 20th and today is the 25th. Yup. NUS is indeed a world-class university in terms of efficiency. Ahh.. Not that it matters anymore.
Still looking for a job. Going down to Heeren tomorrow to try my luck after seeing a very very tiny ad in the classifieds today about some clothing store there that needs people. I suppose manning a store is slightly better than being service/counter crew at GV. But maybe if I don't get the clothing store job I will apply to be counter crew for GV... Hahaha... A job's a job right? Somebody has to do it anyway.
Unless... Somebody's got a lobang hidden away somewhere... Anyone with a family cafe that needs help? Lalalala...
I want another curry puff... *drool*
Thursday, January 20, 2005
My Prayer
God,
Let the tears that need to fall, fall.
Tell my heart it's alright to weep, to wash away my fears.
I know what I need to do, Lord.
Everybody's helping too, telling me what I need to do.
I'm thankful, Lord, really, that everyone tries to help.
But Lord, please understand:
I need to deal with being scared first.
I've never been so scared.
I'm crying as I type. And that scares me too.
I don't know how to deal with fear, because it's never been so real.
I don't know what to say to people,
Coz I think that they're scared too.
They're scared of saying something wrong.
Coz that might piss me off some more.
At least, that's what I think.
That's why I'm writing this here, Lord,
Even though it's more for you than anyone else.
But it's easier to explain myself when I'm talking to you.
So I hope you'll let me share my prayer to friends, or those who would be friends.
Coz I think they'd like to know too. I hope.
I need to deal with this and I know what must be done.
But for the moment, God,
Please could you hold my hands? - they're shaking really hard -
Then, just for a while, just let me cry a while.
Let the tears that need to fall, fall.
Tell my heart it's alright to weep, to wash away my fears.
I know what I need to do, Lord.
Everybody's helping too, telling me what I need to do.
I'm thankful, Lord, really, that everyone tries to help.
But Lord, please understand:
I need to deal with being scared first.
I've never been so scared.
I'm crying as I type. And that scares me too.
I don't know how to deal with fear, because it's never been so real.
I don't know what to say to people,
Coz I think that they're scared too.
They're scared of saying something wrong.
Coz that might piss me off some more.
At least, that's what I think.
That's why I'm writing this here, Lord,
Even though it's more for you than anyone else.
But it's easier to explain myself when I'm talking to you.
So I hope you'll let me share my prayer to friends, or those who would be friends.
Coz I think they'd like to know too. I hope.
I need to deal with this and I know what must be done.
But for the moment, God,
Please could you hold my hands? - they're shaking really hard -
Then, just for a while, just let me cry a while.
WARNING!!: Super Rant Entry
This is a total rant-fest. So if you're sick of me whining and ranting and complaining, just stop reading now. I MEAN IT!
I'm sorry to continue whining, but I've finally figured out that I'm really very scared. I don't know what's going to happen and damned if I know what I'm supposed to do. It's kind of like I've become trapped in some time nexus and am in suspended reality while everyone else's life goes on as usual outside of this wall I'm closed behind. Yes yes... I know... Go find a job. Go sign up for a course in something-or-other. Do this, do that. I know all that. And I'm trying. But I'm still scared as hell. I just e-mailed Kuldip to ask for another testimonial that's more general (i.e. addressed "to Whom it may concern") so that I could include it in all my applications, and he asked that I give him a CV that he can refer to. A Curriculum Vitae (some websites I went to argue it should be Vita since we only lead one life per person [in most cases anyway] but Vitae seems to be the most common usage... I digress..)!!! I've always known there'd come a day I'd have to write a professional CV but now??? What am I going to include?? Education: University (uncompleted) ??? OMG!!!! I'm totally freaking out. Then today I finally remembered that I should somehow try to get an official record of my student activities in NUS. Must go and find that bloody white card and fill it in and get KR JCRC to sign it. RJ can sign for me??? *SOBS* I think I need to find a time where I can just totally rant and cry my heart out and I need to find someone to do it with. But somehow I just can't when I really want to. I think it's out of habit. I've somehow managed to condition myself not to cry too often. This is bad. All this angst building up is totally unhealthy. I need help. *wails out Smallville theme* Somebody saaaaaaaaaavvvvveee meeeeee...!!!
HELP!!! *freaks out some more* HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLPPP!!! *uber-freak-out*
Lost In the Snow
Russell Watson
Rise and shine
Wake up your sleepy head
Cause now it's time to leave your cozy bed
As the dawn is waking
A new adventure is waiting
Walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you won't believe it's you
Its happening to
You're lost in the snow
As night time falls
You cry
In your darkest fears
You think you've lost your friend
Who will dry your tears
But a new light is dawning, and a new day's calling
Walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you can't believe it's you
That holds the dream
You're lost in the snow
You're lost in the snow
Though you feel lost without her
Soon the night time will be over
And you'll be walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you won't believe it's you
It's happening to
You're lost in the snow
You're lost in the snow
I'm sorry to continue whining, but I've finally figured out that I'm really very scared. I don't know what's going to happen and damned if I know what I'm supposed to do. It's kind of like I've become trapped in some time nexus and am in suspended reality while everyone else's life goes on as usual outside of this wall I'm closed behind. Yes yes... I know... Go find a job. Go sign up for a course in something-or-other. Do this, do that. I know all that. And I'm trying. But I'm still scared as hell. I just e-mailed Kuldip to ask for another testimonial that's more general (i.e. addressed "to Whom it may concern") so that I could include it in all my applications, and he asked that I give him a CV that he can refer to. A Curriculum Vitae (some websites I went to argue it should be Vita since we only lead one life per person [in most cases anyway] but Vitae seems to be the most common usage... I digress..)!!! I've always known there'd come a day I'd have to write a professional CV but now??? What am I going to include?? Education: University (uncompleted) ??? OMG!!!! I'm totally freaking out. Then today I finally remembered that I should somehow try to get an official record of my student activities in NUS. Must go and find that bloody white card and fill it in and get KR JCRC to sign it. RJ can sign for me??? *SOBS* I think I need to find a time where I can just totally rant and cry my heart out and I need to find someone to do it with. But somehow I just can't when I really want to. I think it's out of habit. I've somehow managed to condition myself not to cry too often. This is bad. All this angst building up is totally unhealthy. I need help. *wails out Smallville theme* Somebody saaaaaaaaaavvvvveee meeeeee...!!!
HELP!!! *freaks out some more* HEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLPPP!!! *uber-freak-out*
Lost In the Snow
Russell Watson
Rise and shine
Wake up your sleepy head
Cause now it's time to leave your cozy bed
As the dawn is waking
A new adventure is waiting
Walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you won't believe it's you
Its happening to
You're lost in the snow
As night time falls
You cry
In your darkest fears
You think you've lost your friend
Who will dry your tears
But a new light is dawning, and a new day's calling
Walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you can't believe it's you
That holds the dream
You're lost in the snow
You're lost in the snow
Though you feel lost without her
Soon the night time will be over
And you'll be walking hand in hand
Out of Christmas time and into wonderland
With your best friend
Your dream has just come true
And you won't believe it's you
It's happening to
You're lost in the snow
You're lost in the snow
My Intellect
You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers.
Verbal/Linguistic | 57% | ||
Musical/Rhythmic | 54% | ||
Bodily/Kinesthetic | 54% | ||
Logical/Mathematical | 54% | ||
Visual/Spatial | 50% | ||
Intrapersonal | 50% | ||
Interpersonal | 39% |
The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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Ahem!! *adjusts half-rimmed glasses and stares over them* Well now...
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Paperwork.. BAH!!
Went out with Jemalelinh yesterday coz it was her b'day. Robbed her of her Latin books in Borders and bought them for her instead as a birthday present, seeing how I had put off buying her present until the very last minute. Then we hung around for a little while before going up to Sakae Sushi to stuff ourselves during the buffet. Hirhirhir.. I still managed to secure a student discount even though my student card is now defunct. Hirhirhir... Should make a career out of this.. Siew Mai: Professional Con-student. Whahaha..!! Anyhow... After crawling out of Sakae we rolled over to Tanglin shopping centre to have coffee at Jemalelinh's friend's deli. It was serious over-eating... I'm still feeling the effects of it today. I can't believe that the weighing scale didn't move when I weighed myself today. So amazing.
Anyway, went down to ACJC and MGS to get the copies of my old certs stamped and certified. The MGS admin was really nice about it, even though I had like... 10 sets of papers to sign. For MG this included my 'O' level cert, ECA report and leaving cert. So the poor woman at the front desk had to stamp and sign 30 pieces of paper for me while answering dunno-how-many phone calls, and still managed to keep up a friendly conversation with me inbetween it all. It was the ACJC admin that really put me off.
I actually went down yesterday before I went to meet up with Jemalelinh but I'd forgotten my originals so they couldn't verify it for me. So I went back today with my originals in tow. The same woman who spoke to me yesterday saw me and asked if I'd brought my originals today. So I said yes and was about to pass everything to her when she just plopped the ink pad and the stamp in front of me. When I looked at the things on the front desk and looked back at her with question marks all over my face, she told me to finish stamping everything first and then pass it all back to her. Then she wandered off to go and gossip to some other admin person. I was like... Diao... Ok lor... So I stood at the front desk looking like an idiot and proceeded to stamp all 10 sets of copies.
After stamping two sets she came back and said that ok, she'd sign as I finished stamping. So I thought.. Ok lah.. Not so bad. Macam like some kind of production line, also quite efficient lah hor... So she took my two stamped sets of paper and proceeded to walk around the office like she was in search of something. I shall give her the benefit of the doubt by assuming she was looking for a pen. After going one whole round miraculously never finding a single pen, she comes back and says that she will just wait until I finish stamping everything coz there's no place for her to sit down at the front desk! I look down and true enough there are like tons of boxes there which just goes to show that the ACJC admin is about as organized as they are efficient. So she gives me back the two still unsigned sets of copies and proceeds to go gossip with her friend again.
Finally I finish stamping and look up to find her still talking to the other admin pple. I try to catch her eye and smile but instead she goes off to the other side of the office and starts talking to another person. Even when she's looking me straight in the eye, she continues talking and refuses to come over!!! And the other admin people in the office don't even bother to come forward to help me even though by now I've been standing there holding the stamped copies for about 5 minutes. I'm really irritated by now and then another woman comes into the office and asks if she can help me as soon as she sees me. She was nice enough about it and said she'd take the copies to put on the first woman's desk for her to sign and tells me to just take a seat. As soon as I sit down the irritating woman finally comes out and asks where my copies are. When I tell her they're on her desk now, she says ok, come back later to collect them. I stared at her since I couldn't understand why she couldn't just sign them now. I mean, if she's so free that she can just walk around the office talking to other people... This woman just stares back and says yah yah, go have lunch or walk around or something. Just come back later.
I mean... COME ON!! This is just plain unprofessional and inefficient. I seriously don't see how the MGS admin can be so nice about it and ACJC admin makes it known that it's such a chore. COMPLETE NONSENSE!!! Pah. Anyway I finally collected the copies an hour later and went down to NUS to meet Jemalelinh and ask the Registrar's Office for a transcript, which I will have to photocopy and certify as well (sigh). As I was filling up the request form... I started thinking about the one year's worth of Fs which will most likely just offset the other 3 sems of not too bad Bs and Cs. Wondered if I will get rejected by all the unis I'm applying to when they see the Fs. I started getting really upset by it coz truthfully speaking, it's a very scary thought... And it's damn scary trying to pick up the pieces and start all over again. I kinda snapped at Jemalelinh after getting on my own nerves... So yes.. I'm sorry I snapped.. :( I didn't mean to.
Shane trying to help me get a job at the hotel where his cousin is working. Maybe front desk assistant or something. It's at the Inter-Continental Hotel in Bugis. A bit scary. Always felt that finding a job is damn scary, even if it's found through lobangs. Even the time when I started work at NUH, the first day I went in to meet the HR person I was breaking out in cold sweat and my voice was all squeaky. Rrrrrr... Hopefully I don't screw things up if I get this job. They SHOULD provide training right??? *scared look* I don't want to get fired on my first day for messing up some reservation or some check-in... Eeeeep... *squeak**gulp*
Anyway, went down to ACJC and MGS to get the copies of my old certs stamped and certified. The MGS admin was really nice about it, even though I had like... 10 sets of papers to sign. For MG this included my 'O' level cert, ECA report and leaving cert. So the poor woman at the front desk had to stamp and sign 30 pieces of paper for me while answering dunno-how-many phone calls, and still managed to keep up a friendly conversation with me inbetween it all. It was the ACJC admin that really put me off.
I actually went down yesterday before I went to meet up with Jemalelinh but I'd forgotten my originals so they couldn't verify it for me. So I went back today with my originals in tow. The same woman who spoke to me yesterday saw me and asked if I'd brought my originals today. So I said yes and was about to pass everything to her when she just plopped the ink pad and the stamp in front of me. When I looked at the things on the front desk and looked back at her with question marks all over my face, she told me to finish stamping everything first and then pass it all back to her. Then she wandered off to go and gossip to some other admin person. I was like... Diao... Ok lor... So I stood at the front desk looking like an idiot and proceeded to stamp all 10 sets of copies.
After stamping two sets she came back and said that ok, she'd sign as I finished stamping. So I thought.. Ok lah.. Not so bad. Macam like some kind of production line, also quite efficient lah hor... So she took my two stamped sets of paper and proceeded to walk around the office like she was in search of something. I shall give her the benefit of the doubt by assuming she was looking for a pen. After going one whole round miraculously never finding a single pen, she comes back and says that she will just wait until I finish stamping everything coz there's no place for her to sit down at the front desk! I look down and true enough there are like tons of boxes there which just goes to show that the ACJC admin is about as organized as they are efficient. So she gives me back the two still unsigned sets of copies and proceeds to go gossip with her friend again.
Finally I finish stamping and look up to find her still talking to the other admin pple. I try to catch her eye and smile but instead she goes off to the other side of the office and starts talking to another person. Even when she's looking me straight in the eye, she continues talking and refuses to come over!!! And the other admin people in the office don't even bother to come forward to help me even though by now I've been standing there holding the stamped copies for about 5 minutes. I'm really irritated by now and then another woman comes into the office and asks if she can help me as soon as she sees me. She was nice enough about it and said she'd take the copies to put on the first woman's desk for her to sign and tells me to just take a seat. As soon as I sit down the irritating woman finally comes out and asks where my copies are. When I tell her they're on her desk now, she says ok, come back later to collect them. I stared at her since I couldn't understand why she couldn't just sign them now. I mean, if she's so free that she can just walk around the office talking to other people... This woman just stares back and says yah yah, go have lunch or walk around or something. Just come back later.
I mean... COME ON!! This is just plain unprofessional and inefficient. I seriously don't see how the MGS admin can be so nice about it and ACJC admin makes it known that it's such a chore. COMPLETE NONSENSE!!! Pah. Anyway I finally collected the copies an hour later and went down to NUS to meet Jemalelinh and ask the Registrar's Office for a transcript, which I will have to photocopy and certify as well (sigh). As I was filling up the request form... I started thinking about the one year's worth of Fs which will most likely just offset the other 3 sems of not too bad Bs and Cs. Wondered if I will get rejected by all the unis I'm applying to when they see the Fs. I started getting really upset by it coz truthfully speaking, it's a very scary thought... And it's damn scary trying to pick up the pieces and start all over again. I kinda snapped at Jemalelinh after getting on my own nerves... So yes.. I'm sorry I snapped.. :( I didn't mean to.
Shane trying to help me get a job at the hotel where his cousin is working. Maybe front desk assistant or something. It's at the Inter-Continental Hotel in Bugis. A bit scary. Always felt that finding a job is damn scary, even if it's found through lobangs. Even the time when I started work at NUH, the first day I went in to meet the HR person I was breaking out in cold sweat and my voice was all squeaky. Rrrrrr... Hopefully I don't screw things up if I get this job. They SHOULD provide training right??? *scared look* I don't want to get fired on my first day for messing up some reservation or some check-in... Eeeeep... *squeak**gulp*
Monday, January 17, 2005
Inescapable Fate
Before I start my long sad story for the day, some updates on my somewhat screwed up mundane life:
My mother and I have worked out that I do actually need to go down to MGS and ACJC to get the copies of my school certs stamped and certified so that's going to happen tomorrow. And I'm also going to have to e-mail Kuldip for another character testimonial. *pui pui pui* NUS still hasn't sent any response as to my appeal and both my mother and I have concluded that it's probably not worth the grief to pursue it. Anyway I've done my part according to the book so now it's their job. So now my mother is encouraging (read: nagging) me to go and find some life skills courses like secretarial courses or beauty/grooming courses to join. SIGH!!! But I guess she's right. I can't just sit around all day right? Sigh. Probably should go and find a job also. Anyone need a house-cleaner? Can only clean. Can't cook. Or rather can only cook limited things. Laundry also can. :p Clothes are down one size!!! *cheer* Went shopping with mum on Saturday and when my mum presented me with a pair of size 14 jeans to try the salesgirl said that it looks too big for me and that I look more like a size 12. *cheer* So now I even LOOK smaller. Good. Must keep losing weight. Aim to go down to size 8. Ganbatte!!
Ok. Now I start my main entry. Found out yesterday morning that James Creffield passed away. If the surname sounds familiar to some it's because he was the husband of Geetha Creffield. For those who don't know completely, Geetha was my drama teacher in ACJC. The funeral was held at the Mandai Crematorium today. So I went down to pay my respects. I was amazed but not surprised at the number of people that turned up. The Creffields were loved and respected by many people. Besides friends and family, the entire staff of the ACJC faculty turned up and of course, her class students and her drama and debate students. Even alumni turned up. It was a very touching sight. James had gone rockclimbing near Bukit Timah Hill on Saturday morning and met with an accident that claimed his life. I don't know the details of the accident but I know that he was with his close friends, so thank God he wasn't alone when it happened. It was ironic though, because barely a month ago James and Geetha were in Phuket when the tsunami hit. They were also about to go climbing that day when the guide told them to get down and run for their lives. So they escaped that terrible disaster, but I guess... There's no escaping fate. I'm sure James would have seen the irony of it all. He was a very jolly, mischievious person who always had a laugh up his sleeve. May he rest in peace, and may God give comfort to his friends and family and especially to Mrs C, who had to say farewell to the first and only man she loved in her life.
My mother and I have worked out that I do actually need to go down to MGS and ACJC to get the copies of my school certs stamped and certified so that's going to happen tomorrow. And I'm also going to have to e-mail Kuldip for another character testimonial. *pui pui pui* NUS still hasn't sent any response as to my appeal and both my mother and I have concluded that it's probably not worth the grief to pursue it. Anyway I've done my part according to the book so now it's their job. So now my mother is encouraging (read: nagging) me to go and find some life skills courses like secretarial courses or beauty/grooming courses to join. SIGH!!! But I guess she's right. I can't just sit around all day right? Sigh. Probably should go and find a job also. Anyone need a house-cleaner? Can only clean. Can't cook. Or rather can only cook limited things. Laundry also can. :p Clothes are down one size!!! *cheer* Went shopping with mum on Saturday and when my mum presented me with a pair of size 14 jeans to try the salesgirl said that it looks too big for me and that I look more like a size 12. *cheer* So now I even LOOK smaller. Good. Must keep losing weight. Aim to go down to size 8. Ganbatte!!
Ok. Now I start my main entry. Found out yesterday morning that James Creffield passed away. If the surname sounds familiar to some it's because he was the husband of Geetha Creffield. For those who don't know completely, Geetha was my drama teacher in ACJC. The funeral was held at the Mandai Crematorium today. So I went down to pay my respects. I was amazed but not surprised at the number of people that turned up. The Creffields were loved and respected by many people. Besides friends and family, the entire staff of the ACJC faculty turned up and of course, her class students and her drama and debate students. Even alumni turned up. It was a very touching sight. James had gone rockclimbing near Bukit Timah Hill on Saturday morning and met with an accident that claimed his life. I don't know the details of the accident but I know that he was with his close friends, so thank God he wasn't alone when it happened. It was ironic though, because barely a month ago James and Geetha were in Phuket when the tsunami hit. They were also about to go climbing that day when the guide told them to get down and run for their lives. So they escaped that terrible disaster, but I guess... There's no escaping fate. I'm sure James would have seen the irony of it all. He was a very jolly, mischievious person who always had a laugh up his sleeve. May he rest in peace, and may God give comfort to his friends and family and especially to Mrs C, who had to say farewell to the first and only man she loved in her life.
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