Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Dengue? Really??

Okok! Time for me to tell you what happened with the multiple blood tests and the platelet count. Hmm.. Lemme try telling this chronological time-line style.

8th July, Friday: As usual, kena arrow to be emcee for BUTS. Went and did all the usual ra-ra and got into some conflict with the stupid BM. Developed a pounding headache. Prob due to over-excitment or stress.. Stupid BM's fault. Ran away home with SH immediately after show.

9th July, Saturday, 2am: woke up with headache pounding the pounding headache I already had before I went to bed. Also had damn high fever. Almost 40 degrees celsius. Somehow managed to find my way downstairs to take panadol and somehow managed to find my way back into bed. All without falling down the stairs.

8-something am: Woke up with head still pounding. Fever still damn high. Sms-ed SH to tell her bad news. Got out of bed to take some more panadol and to shower, hopefully can shower away the fever. Went back to bed. SH sms back to say Stella is new emcee. Wahahahaha... Pass the arrow.

Dunno-what-time-already: Mum comes in to announce lunch. Announce back that no appetite. Everybody comes to the conclusion that I am sick and have probably caught the same viral fever that my brother was having a couple days back. Ok lor. Just take panadol and go to
sleep. Zzzzz...

10th July, Sunday: Am still sick. Decide to go Sylvia's clinic to get an MC. Called office to report in sick again. SH scold and say nevermind MC. Just stay home and rest. Too bad, already halfway to Sylvia's clinic. Lalala. Mummy goes to buy fruits while Papa escorts me into clinic and sits to catch up with Sylvia. Always lidat onez... Anyway got MC for Monday also. Wheee...

11th July, Monday: Spend the day in and out of consciousness. Probably in bed 20 out of 24 hours. Bleah. Parents leave for Vietnam holiday with brother. Siew Mai is abandoned.. *Sobz* Continue panadol and sleep treatment. Zzzz...

12th July, Tuesday: Tried to go to work. Nearly collapsed walking up the stupid Fort Canning stairs. According to colleague, was as pale as ghost. Sat in office to recover for about 1 hour and then promptly get sent home. Tsk. Go home and continue sleeping.

13th July, Wednesday: Continue resting at home. Sleep some more. Take some more panadol.

14th July, Thursday: Finally go back to work for real. Managed to survive whole day. Discover red spots on arms and legs. Dunno what's going on. Go home and find out that sister has decided to go and lose her i/c. So clever. Dun care, she settle herself. SMS-ed Mum about spots and stupid sister.

15th July, Friday: 2nd week of BUTS. Stella is still emcee-ing. Yay!! I can just sit back and enjoy the show. Dreaming of Coffee Club chicken pie.

6.30pm: Mum calls from Vietnam. Tells me to go and see Sylvia NOW!!!! Cannot lah... People's clinic close shop already lah... Ok fine. Tomorrow morning, first thing! Okokok. Continue eating beef ball noodle from Kiliney Road. Very yummy.

6.45pm: Mum calls again. Tells me, ok go Mount E NOW!!! Anjula is waiting for you. HUH?!?! For what?? BLOOD TEST LAH! HUH?!?! Ok lor... So in the end I still don't get to enjoy the show and still no Coffee Club chicken pie. Sobz. Go off to get cab down to Mount E.

8pm: I get Jabbed. Ow. They took my blood!!! I have to wait about an hour for results. Sigh. Ok lor. Wait in freezing air-con. Anjula shows up and says ok sit here and wait. She will come back. Sigh. Ok. Continue waiting in freezing air-con.

8-something pm: Anjula bursts into A & E waiting room with test results. Tells me my platelets a bit low leh, don't know if she should hospitalize me. (O_o) Ok, hold on she go and ask the MO on duty. MO say no need, too early to tell. So Anjula gets into the act of scolding me to stay home and rest and drink plenty of water. And come down again tomorrow morning for a repeat test! Huh.. Ok... Take cab home, report to Mummy on phone, sleep.

16th July, Saturday: Go down to Mount E in the morning for 2nd blood test. Go to Anjula's office to report. Brought to lab for more jabbing. There goes my other arm. Go for coffee while waiting for results. Ladida. Another hour of doing dunno-what. Go back into Anjula's office to wait some more. Discover that Anjula is very scary when she's stressed. Nurse comes in to report that platelets have risen from 75 to 80. And Dengue IgM tested positive. (O_o) Anjula says don't care don't care! She only wants to know the platelet count. (-_-)"' I assume I am alright and just go home after being ordered to come back on Sunday for a 3rd test. Anjula is very scary. I don't go to work again.

17th July, Sunday, 12-something pm: Go down to A & E dept with slip from Anjula. Some old lady nurse just anyhow jabs me without even looking for the vein and wonders why there is no blood. Finally she takes out the #$*%^@# needle and jabs me with a new one on the back of my hand. In three days I get jabbed 4 times. (T_T) I go home without waiting for results. Segali they jab me again how.

Somewhere in the afternoon: Mount E Lab calls me. Tells me that my platelets up to 133 already. Do I need to know the rest of the results? No need, thank you. Assume that since platelet count so high already so no need go back for more blood tests. Just stay at home to rest. Don't go to work again. Never got to eat my Coffee Club chicken pie. SOB!!! (T_T)

18th July, Monday: Go back to work. For real! Finally! Still got a bit of light-headedness. Continue to report status to Papa through SMS. Parents come home at night, but I have concussed before that. Zzzz...

19th July, Tuesday, 8am: Am about to leave for work when Mummy calls from office. Do you know you actually had Dengue??? (O_o) Really ah?? Yah lah!!! Ohr ok. Tell Papa and maid to drain all water plants and to make sure all pond filters are working. Ok. Go off to work and announce to SH that actually had dengue. SH suspected as much. Decides to SMS GM to frighten the hell out of her. GM really over-reacts and insists that I be sent to a hospital. What nonsense. Still light-headed.


Yesh. That's about it. So I actually had dengue. But I never knew until I had actually more or less recovered from it. Scary sia. It's this stupid Fort Canning lah I tell you. This place is a haven for mosquitos. Did some research, dengue fever itself is not fatal, despite being super super uncomfortable. HOWEVER!! There are 4 strains of dengue. And if for example, I've already been exposed to strain A, I will get the anti-bodies for strain A. Logical right. BUT!! If after getting exposed to strain A, I then get exposed to strain B, then I am almost definitely going to develop dengue haemorragic fever (DHF), which is the fatal one!! So since there are 4 strains, I know have a 1-in-4 chance of getting infected with any of the other strains. So I guess that means a very high risk of contracting DHF. Eeyer... Thank goodness I'm only going to be in this place for another 1 1/2 weeks. eeh...

Monday, July 18, 2005

Seen Any Floppy-Haired Japanese Men Lately?

Ok yes. I admit that I have once again subjected my blog to certain neglect. So I have returned with yet another office blog! Actually I should call it "In-the-office-blog" because technically it's not really going to be about the office, just that I happen to be blogging in the office, therefore... Aiyah you all get the idea.

Anyway, office is empty at the moment, presumably coz everyone is coming in late in lieu of BUTS over the weekend. Two more weeks before I say goodbye to this place! Whooopee!!! No more madness and silly prancing divas!!

OK! ENOUGH OFFICE NONSENSE!!! Dun wan to talk about office. *Pui*.

What I really wanted to blog about was this: I think I will have to admit to having a weakness for guys with long or long-ish hair. For example, there is a photo in the Straits Times today of some of the local footballers who are taking part in some H-Two-O/S. League Hunk Competition. For reasons unexplainable to myself, the first fellow I looked at was the fellow in the middle, He Hongji. He wasn't even the most good-looking fellow there, in fact I think the best-looking fellow in the picture was the guy on the far right, Hidetoshi Wakui (ok. Weakness #2 is Japanese guys...). It was just that this He fellow had long floppy hair. Dammit. I must do a full review of my tastes in guys. I think if somebody showed up in front of me who had long floppy hair AND was Japanese, I will just self-combust in mid-swoon.

Ok. Admin Manager stressing me to get back to work. Shall blog later. Still have to tell all of you about my drama with the low blood platelet count and the multiple pokings to my arms.

My turtle eats more cake!! *points upwards* Actually I need to think about changing my blog skin again. Think I will just go and use one of the fixed templates that Blogger has.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Stuffed by Monkey

Very full. Blog-friend/friend-friend gathering at Monkey's tree was very very VERY filling. Sadly I do not have a digital camera (x1 item to add to wishlist) otherwise can take photo of all the yummy food and post here.

Menu included:
1) Meatballs in homemade tomato sauce (why I fry meatball cannot become brown?? I try very hard already!!!) - Monkey
2) Fried purple cabbage with walnuts - Monkey, with the help of the fantastic nut-crushing skills of her friend Julien
3) Pad Thai (the tofu look like egg! Power!! I also want to learn these wonderful camouflaging skills!! Then can fake my dad into eating more tofu.) - Mrs Budak
4) Brown rice - Monkey
5) Cous cous salad with feta cheese - Siew Mai
6) Ice Cream - courtesy of Monkey 弟弟 Ash
7) Red wine - Joelle (correct spelling?)
8) Brewerkz beer - courtesy of the NutMan
9) Gula Melaka with longan stuffed with pineapple - Mrs Budak
10) Cherries & grapes - Siew Mai

Didn't look like a lot at first, but looks are deceiving. Did some partial digesting while watching the first episode of LOVELESS. Hirhirhir. Everybody was like... wtf?!? Heh heh heh. I still say Soubi rules. And I will confess now... It took me 9 eps before I realised what the cat ears were an annotation for. :p I am slow.

All in all, a very successful little gathering, I would say. Thank you Monkey for organizing and inviting me. Your frens are all very interesting people. Today I actually did feel like the youngest one there. Hahaha... Haven't felt that for a long time.

Looking forward to the next one. (^_^)v Next time maybe if I try to chao dar your meatballs then they will be frightened into turning brown. Wahaha..

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Change Is Coming!! I Think...

I should stop sliming the company. This new girl just came in who apparently is friends with Aronwy and Mindstorm! And she knew all about my bitching about the company!! Ouch man. Karma bites. But (as LonerB would say) Mein Gott! This place is the pits!!

Ok. I must stop bitching now. Otherwise somehow somewhere something else will come out of the dark and bite me on the ass. Let me now tell you all about my FIRST EVER DHL PACKAGE!!! Wahahah! Siew Mai got a DHL express delivery!! Wheeee!!!

So cheap thrill hor.

Anyway, the package was basically my university acceptance package. Contained acceptance certificate (now we need CERTIFICATES to show we’ve been accepted… Not just official letters mind you. CERTIFICATE! *shake head*), hostel applications & student id card form. The only reason I can think of about why they had to DHL the thing to me instead of just air-mailing it normally is that it is getting quite late. Term opens on 20th September and tomorrow it will be July already. Also, now would be the clearing stage of the UCAS application process. So the university and I have to solidly confirm my place before I lose it due to miscommunications or administrative mix-ups on either side. At least, that is my theory. Anyhow, dad has already gone off to apply for a bank draft to pay for my first year fees and also to apply for a supplementary credit card for me. In case anything happens (touch wood).

I keep thinking about the id card form. They got my surname right. Van. No problems there. But under my “Forename” – now this is new to me. “First Name”, “Given Name”, “Name as in passport”, etc, I totally get. Who on earth calls it a “Forename”? – it states “Su”. It doesn’t even state a middle name “Mei”. I’m just “Su”. While I wondered if I should inform the Registrar’s Office, my mother said that technically, they’re not wrong – It’s part of my name, just not my WHOLE name. I guess in the end my whole full name will be on my card… But I just can’t help wondering. Ed, any advice?

After reading Mr Brown’s post about singlish in US comic books, I have been inspired to transform my blog into a truly read-worthy blog. How I will do that I dunno. Will do this in stages I suppose. One step at a time, one post at a time.

Step 1: Stop whining so much.

Friday, June 24, 2005

Boring Office Posts

One hour to knock off.

Have once again finished off my work for the day. Again I find myself having absolutely nothing to do. Am feeling quite quite annoyed because of some last minute and unconfirmed production schedule change, I cannot send out my notices to the students.

Am so sian. Can’t believe this. The only good thing is that GM has been since lunch so there’s been some peace and quiet.

Got a make-up Japanese class later… Make-up for the one I missed on Monday due to a major stomachache. Kinda dun feel like going coz I just wanna go home and sleep. Tomorrow still have to work leh… Sobz.

Wondering what to eat for dinner. Actually I feel like eating already… Dammit. Tempted to as TSH if she got any biscuits. Or mebbe I shall eat the muesli bar in my cupboard. Dammit… Why do I feel like eating?!?!?!? ARGH!! Die. I will just balloon and explode into a million pieces.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

More Office Gripes?!?! Get A Life Siew Mai...

I do believe that I’m the only one in the office now… Besides the GM… The PM and TM have gone out, supposedly for meetings, the APM is in the studio taking down cues… And the rest are at their lunch hour. I am alone to handle phone calls from any irate people. Eep. Help. Please please don’t let anyone decided to call in. *prays very hard* I really don’t like taking phone calls.

Hmm… Like RJ said in his blog, it can be very sian not to have anything to do. And ultimately I wouldn’t mind doing things for my GM like vetting her letters or newsletter articles. The thing I don’t like is how last minute it is. Without fail, 5, 10 minutes before my lunch break or before I knock off, she will dump one big file on my table and expect me to give it back to her before I go off for lunch or for the day. This place is one big circus I tell you.

Oh yah. Since I’ve gotten Monkey into the act, let’s see if I can sucker a few more people. Anybody wanna do part-time for two weekends? Basically man ticketing stalls and ushering for BUTS in July. Dates are 8-10 & 15-17 July. Let me know if you’re interested. They probably going to start calling for part-timers tomorrow or the day after.

Loo looo loo… I’ve run out of ideas on how to keep myself entertained. Sighz.

Really becoming damn slack in the office. This is just terrible. :p

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Bleah.

Well done. Once again I am here in my cubicle with absolutely nothing to do. I suppose I could go around looking for things to do but why invite trouble right? :p I’m just damn lazy, and increasingly just cannot be bothered. I wonder if it’s because I know that I’m leaving. If that’s the case, then that’s really terrible work ethic. I should be ashamed of myself. But seriously I don’t know what else I can do. Hmm…

Well… Waiting for more shit to fall. I’d print out the flyers for Term 3 but I want to ask CMS if we should start another p-class on Tuesdays to fill up the empty slot.
Omg. I just realized something. All this while I’ve been griping about the job and all… Even though I’ve been using abbreviations and initials… It can still be damned obvious… Oh dear. Been spreading bad publicity. Does that mean I’m liable to be sued for slander? Eeeks. Hmm..

Oh what the heck. :p

Ladida

Just finished lunch. Sitting in front of my computer in the office. So what am I doing blogging away? Because I’ve really just had about enough of this place. Really can’t be bothered anymore. I’ve noticed that I’ve become less and less diligent about this internal office rule about surfing the internet only for work purposes. Lately been checking out the Aberdeen website during my stone-out periods. So terrible hor? Aiyah. Actually am sort of doing work lah. Just that I’m still thinking about how to go around doing it.

Wondering how on earth to redo this powerpoint “poster” that GM has told me to work on. Dunno which of her ex-staff did this. I also dunno how exactly she wants to rework it. She always just says “do this, do that, change this, change that” but she never really tells you exactly do what or change what to what. Then if you whether or not you actually figure out what she wants and do the job for her, she’ll just change it anyway. Damn sianz.

Kena arrow to be emcee again for the July BUTS. I guess I don’t mind lah. In some sense, I owe it to GM for letting me work here. And also it’s my last few weeks here, just do it and be done with it. Really quite fast actually, now that I think about it. Been here since mid-March, so that’s what? Three and a half months? Then now I’ve got five and a half weeks more before I stop work. Can’t wait. Let time pass faster please. The other day one of my colleagues asked if I feel anything for the office, now that I’m leaving.

Heh. Yeah. Got one feeling. GOOD BYE!! :p

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Friday, June 17, 2005

Erm.. Do You Remember...

Do you remember that I have another blog?

Unfortunately, I practically forgot about that blog. Around the time I was about to start work I think. So my poor Siewmanime blog has been missing in action for I think more than four months. I know I promised to upload my sketches on a regular basis but I didn't... I'm very sorry. Please please go back and support that blog. I am really going to try to get back into drawing before I leave, so all your support and criticisms are much needed. I stopped drawing again after I started work, so I bet you my skill has dropped even further. You will probably see a lot of crap before my usual standard (which isn't very great either really) resurfaces.

Please go back and leave a message. ~Siew Mai Style~

心痒痒

Well...

Met Ed. Ate with Ed. Talked with Ed. And am still wondering about my decision. Aberdeen would be the practical choice. But... I can't recall what the English equivalent is... My "heart itchy". 心痒。King's is such a tempting choice. (Dammit wat's wrong with me... I keep wanting to type "choise"... I must be going mad.)

Anyhow. We ate at Fish & Co. There was a really bad live singer there. REALLY BAD. Singing was off, his "joking banter" was OFF, and so was his walk-around-and-get-the-customers-to-sing gimmick. Pah. They should just invest in some good compilation CDs.

Counting down to the day I stop work at SDT. Six more weeks people!!! Ganbatte Siew Mai!!! Six more weeks and no more shitty students!! No more shitty dancers!! No more office nonsense!!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!

I'm going mad. Ok. I shall go to sleep now. Goodnight everbody.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Fickle Fickle Fickle

I pontang choir. Wahahaha. I feel bad but really damn sleepy sia... Think I would've fallen asleep in my chair.

Meeting Ed tomorrow after work to catch up and to talk about Kings. Tried to get Naaz to come along but she refused on the basis that Ed is a total asshole. Granted, he's not exactly the most wonderful person on the face of this earth, but still right... Everybody's got their quirks. I dunno lah. You could at least pretend to be nice. I do that all the time. :p Anyway if she's going to be working in HR, she's going to have to find out all about being nice to people you hate sooner or later. Well... Who am I to say right? At least I'd support my friends, if they asked it... Wouldn't I? Maybe I don't support my friends as much as I think I do.. Hmm..

ARH! Forget it. Somehow talking to Naaz always makes me tired.

Finally talked to my GM about last day, and I'm working until end of July. Yay! Six weeks left. Wonderful. Can't wait to finally leave that place. Bah.

Like I said before, all decisions seem to be leaning towards Aberdeen at the moment, so I think that ultimately I will still choose that despite what Ed may say about King's. Mum made a couple of comments that started me thinking about my choice again though.

1) [to me] "You would probably be happier in Aberdeen."

2) [addressed to my dad] "But King's must've seen something in her, huh? Despite her record..."

Hmmm... I wonder...

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Return of The Quizzes

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you are a bit stingy.
You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.
You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.


Huh... Issit??

Thursday, June 09, 2005

2 Songs Today!!

美人鱼
歌手: 林俊杰 专辑: 第二天堂

我在沙滩划个圆圈
属于我俩安逸世界
不用和别人连线
我不管你来自深渊
也不在乎身上的鳞片
爱情能超越一切

只要你在我身边
所有蜚语流言完全视而不见
请不要匆匆一面一转身就沉入海平线

传说中你为爱甘心被搁浅
我也可以为你
潜入海里面
怎么忍心断绝
忘记我不变的誓言
我眼泪断了线

现实里有了我对你的眷恋
我愿意化作雕像
等你出现
再见再也不见
心碎了飘荡在海边
你抬头就看见


[Translation by Veetwo]

Mermaid
Vocal: JJ Lin Album: Second Heaven

I drew a circle on the sand
Representing the world belonging to us
There’s no need for others.
I don’t care if you came from fathoms below,
Don’t care about the scales on your body.
Love will surpass everything.

As long as you’re beside me,
Those rumours no longer matter.
Please don’t dive into the Pacific Ocean at the blink of an eye.

Legends say you willingly suffered for love.
For you, I could also
Dive down into the oceans.
How could you bear to cut me off?
Forget my unwavering oaths?
My tears have run out.

In reality, with the love I have for you,
I’d become a statue
Just to wait for you to appear.
“See you again” is just short for “I’ll never see you again”.
The pieces of my broken heart float by the sea.

Lift your head, and you will see.

Song 2 (^_^)v

[Found from http://soompi.com/forums/lofiversion/index.php/t189365.html]

Menghitung Hari @ Counting The Days
Singer: Kris Dayanti

Menghitung hari
Detik demi detik
Masa kunanti apakan ada
Jalan cerita kisah yang panjang
Menghitung hari

1
Padamkan saja kobar asmaramu
Jika putik itu takkan ada
Yang aku minta tulus hatimu
Bukan puitis

Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diri ku kini sendiri
(Repeat 1)

Oh... Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diri ku kini sendiri

Diri ku kini sendiri...

Credits: LirikLagu.com

Translation

Counting the days
One tick by one tick
I await what time will bring me
A storyline, a long tale
counting the days

1
Put off the fire of your love
If the bud of the love won’t blossom
the thing I ask for is your sincere heart
it's not about being poetic

Just go, this love of yours, go
Just tell everyone
Let all know that
I'm on my own now

(Repeat 1)

Oh... just go, this love of yours, go
Just tell everyone
Let all know that
I'm on my own now

I'm on my own now...

Credits: soompi forums [Takki_Aniki]

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

The Time Is Upon Us

Upon me rather.

Just as I was about to blog about how I think Edinburgh may have totally forgotten that I also made an application to study Japanese in their Asian Studies department, I decided to check out my UCAS Track for the heck of it even though there hadn't been a notification e-mail for weeks. Lo & Behold!! Edinburgh had made a decision on 2nd June! One week ago! UCAS probably just decided to skip the e-mail notification part and just start sending out my reply-to-offers package. Hooray! I can finally make some solid decisions.

I still want to go Kings. And the general advice is towards that end too. However I think my final decision will be Aberdeen. For one, it's definitely more affordable than Kings. Costs of living in London are almost 2x that of Scotland!!! Madness. And Aberdeen will be quieter. Less distractions. And since I have A-levels, I may get the chance to skip a year. (^_^)v

Against my mum's better judgement, I will not work through August. I will work until the end of July. If my GM is really desperate then I'll work until second week August LATEST. Then I'll leave. But the aim is still July. My colleague agrees with me that July would be more practical, coz if I haf to leave in beginning of September (term in Aberdeen starts 19th Sept) then I'll need at least August to settle everything before I go. I admitted to her that when my mum first made the August suggestion, I really felt naseaus. Luckily she understood. Really, the working environment in my office is just sickening. "Unhealthy" wouldn't even begin to describe it. Today was my first day back after my leave and already I had to witness World War SDT. It was the Production Manager vs Education & Outreach Senior Exec, both of them vs Finance Manager, who was allied by the Personnel Manager; then the GM, who's been warring with PM and EOSE, struck them again, and then decided to let her "lieutenent" the FM take over the fight. Then the dancers had to join the fray over some stupid costumes.

Generally, just a lot of mindless shouting. Sigh.

Nevermind. Bochup. The time to make some final decisions is upon me!! My second chance has come!! This is the highlight of my day I tell you. Shall not let office politics get me down. My UK dreams are finally becoming more real!!!

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Pah.

I'm so sick of it all.

My mother told me to stick with my job all the way to August, and she more or less has said that my taking leave was a mistake and that I'd be lucky if my GM (her friend) doesn't fire me for it. Now I'm so wishing that it actually happens.

I know how important money is at the moment. I'll need all the funds I can get. But seriously I think if I stick to this job any further than the middle of July, I will just go and jump off some tall building in the vicinity of my office. Already middle July is to me an extended period. I had originally wanted to stop end of this month. But I decided to stay a while longer coz I really pitied my boss.

Now, I wish my boss would just fire me. It seems I'm not allowed to quit anyhow.

Raistie if you've read this don't you DARE say anything to you-know-who. I'm in enough shit about it as it is. Sorry if I sound harsh, but really, the last thing I need is her going to my mother and asking if I'm really unhappy with the job.

Friday, June 03, 2005

The Ballet & The Wallet

Just came back from watching the company's contribution to this year's Arts Fest. Quite different from the usual offerings so I would say it's quite a breakthrough.

Just don't understand why they always have to give JT the lead roles. There are other dancers in the company who are SOOOO much better than him. Pah. Even MNS is better than him, not to mention the principle male, JB.

Preferred the first piece to Le Sacre... Or maybe I just liked the choir. Think I was paying more attention to the 4 solos than to the prancing figures on stage. Les Noces (the music) is definitely easier to digest than Le Sacre. XHY is just good. And TYL also. Actually thought that FL stood out quite strongly during Les Noces. AS couldn't get the veil on.. *snigger* Twice! *snigger* Could tell she was getting very 不爽. Tough luck, shit happens. Lalalala...

Anyways. The apprehensive feeling I had this afternoon is less intense now, although something is still nagging at the back of my mind. Dunno what it is.

Uni update: On Mum's advice, am waiting until Monday to see if Edinburgh finally makes a decision on my Japanese application. If there's no word, I shall send in a cancellation for that choice and just choose between Aberdeen and Kings which technically speaking, I already am doing just that. Think I wouldn't have taken up Edinburgh even if they did accept me into the Jap course.

Money is just such a bitch. While I'm still very much inclined towards Kings, I might end up choosing Aberdeen coz it's cheaper... No, not cheaper... Less expensive would be the right way to put it. Even if I change my 4-year MEng course in Kings to a 3-year BEng course, it would still be more expensive than the 4-year BEng course I applied for in Aberdeen. And I just might be able to change that to a 3-year thing coz they usually allow A-level holders to gain 2nd year entry. Which cuts costs even more!!

Sigh. If I end up going to either and have to transfer out after a year due to failing finances I will just cry. I don't want to have to come back to Singapore to finish up. That would just suck big time.

Oh dear... I sound so selfish. I hate it. I know it's damn selfish to keep wanting to go Kings, or just UK in general, but I've actually been offered the chance! Why shouldn't I take it? Because kor has 2 more years to go in Australia, and my sis is entering Uni next year and my dad is already semi-retired. And also because I already wasted at least $20k on my doomed NUS career. Haiz.

I know that my parents are scared that I may repeat my NUS fiasco. The truth is I fear that too. Bah. Sometimes a conscience is a terrible thing.

Distance ~ JJ Lin

I love the last line. It just defines the whole song.

距离
歌手: 林俊杰 专辑: 第二天堂
词:林怡凤 曲:林俊杰

在距离三公里的位置
我在这里
想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在那里
听不到我呼吸着分离

我走向前你看不见
真的遥远
就连叹息影子听见
也是无言
你走向前我看不见
你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界线不曾有改变

保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里
读不到眷着我的讯息

当爱离开之前
能多苦能多深能多甜

距离是你走过我身边

Translation

Distance
Vocals: JJ Lin Album: Second Heaven
Lyrics: Lin Yi Feng Music: JJ Lin

Within a distance of 3km,
I’m here,
Thinking of the way you breathe.
The same darkened window
You’re there
But you can’t hear me breathing as I leave.

When I walk forward, you can’t see.
It’s really so far.
Even if you heard my sigh or saw my shadow,
You said nothing.
When you walked forward, I didn’t see
You thinking of me.
Between you and me
There’s a carved line, that’s never changed.

Keeping a distance of 3cm
My eyes
Are filled with a you that I love.
Sitting beside the same 4-sided table
In your eyes,
I don’t see any signs that you care for me.

Before love leaves
There’s such pain, such depth, such sweetness.

Distance is you just brushing past.

I've Got A Bad Feeling About This...

One could make a sport out of counting the number of times that line is said in the entire Star Wars saga. Each of the major and semi-major characters have to say it at least once.

Anyhow the point I was going to make here is that suddenly I'm gripped by this intense feeling of apprehension. Like... I missed doing something or that something's going to happen that's not necessarily good.

I logged on to blog hoping that saying it out would ease it... Doesn't seem to be working though. Anyway I have to leave for a gym appointment. Will come back to talk more about it I guess.

I don't think I'm prone to anxiety attacks... At least not for no apparent reason. I dunno.

I've got a bad feeling about this.

Monday, May 30, 2005

On Leave!!!

I'm on one week leave!!
Hooray!!!

No stupid students for one full week!!! Wahahahahah!!!

Ok. Technically my leave is supposed to be for me to study for my book keeping exams on 6th & 7th of June (i.e. next Monday and Tuesday) but hey!!! I can't be studying ALL the time right. Hirhirhir...

No lah. I don't intend to slack off. Study, I will. To pass my book keeping, the plan is. Hehehe.. Can you tell that I've FINALLY gone to watch Revenge of the Sith?? Hehehehehe....

Ep III was SOOOOO much better than I & II. Ok, so there was still a fair amount of cheese around, like the last part where Vader broke of his bonds a la Frankenstein. But it did tie up many many MANY loose ends. And it FINALLY links to the original trilogy!!! YAY!!! Ok, next up will be a Star Wars marathon. Any takers??? WHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!

Hmm... Speaking of free time, maybe I should FINALLY (how many times have I said FINALLY already in this post?? I should change the post title) update my Siewmanime blog. It's been seriously seriously neglected. But then I haven't really had the time to draw anything.

Updates on the Uni status: Still trying to decide between Aberdeen and KCL at the moment. Although I cannot make an official decision until UCAS sends me a reply-to-offers form. And they won't send me that until all my choices have been decided upon. Now I'm only waiting for a decision from Edinburgh about my application to study Japanese (Language). Talked to my dad and he doesn't see the harm in waiting for that decision to come through, although personally I'm very tempted to just cancel that choice and just choose between Aberdeen and KCL. The main reason being that I want to finally be able to set down a date to be my last day in the office. I seriously hate the job.

Haa well.... Mum coming back from San Francisco tomorrow. Guess we'll see what she says before I make any further decisions.