Permanently Attached

To my chair, that is.

I have officially done nothing - absolutely NOTHING - for two whole days. Oh. Well there was the JLPT exam yesterday morning. That went fine. Except that I think I shaded one wrong circle under my registration number for one of the OASs (optical answer sheet)... But Nekoweenie says that if I wrote my name then it should still be ok... Hope so. Oh well... It's over. No point mulling over it anymore.

I can't believe I just bummed two days away sitting in front of my comp. Hmm... Actually that's not quite right either. I spent the rest of yesterday eating with my family and watching LOTR: The Two Towers Extended Edition. Then I spent today in front of my comp. And I wasn't even watching anime... Noooo... *ahem* I was.. er... *sheepishly* playing Neopets...

Just for the record, I'm not a regular neopet-er... I just go whenever I feel like it. So very often I find my pets in "dying" status. I wonder why they nvr actually "die". Hmm.. Oh well.

Having a little class gathering on Thursday. Mainly just the little gang that I was close to. Yee Sen, Ahmed, Lionel and Stuart. Yibin might come I think... Gosh... I haven't seen Lionel since I bumped into him one day in my first year, Yee Sen I haven't seen since graduation and Stuart too. To think Yee Sen used to be my best friend in JC... Hmm... Wonder if I'll have anything to say to them. Ha... Will definitely keep track of the number awkward silences that occur.

No Cure!

That's it. It is confirmed!

I have an incurable disease!!! It might be fatal. I don't know.

It's called Bummeritis. Very serious illness, Bummeritis. You can never get off your bum.

Let The Bumming Begin...

Lalala...

Exams are finally over. Except for my JLPT 4 exam which is tomorrow all the way in freaking Changi. Dunno why they have to build the Japanese school there. Anyway. Although I should be going through my tenses and verbs and particles... I'm sitting around playing Bejewelled2 and wondering whether or not to continue watching The Two Towers: Extended Edition. I was watching it this afternoon but got interrupted by my mum after an hour coz she wanted to go and see this other gym in Novena. Why are we looking at another gym when we've got Fitness First? Because trainer Danny was given the boot and he's going to the one at Novena. Apparently the Novena gym there's no obligation to join as a member even if you make use of the personal trainer services, unlike most gyms. And it's much cheaper. But to tell the truth I'd rather stay in Fitness First and take up training with Shane again. Yes.. Shane is back. He's left all the work to his business partner and come back to the gym to slack around and spread some more peranakan oiliness. But I feel bad for Danny sia. He's really actually quite a nice guy. A bit duh.. But he's nice.

Back to the current bumming. Heh. I watched the EE version of Fellowship of The Ring yesterday. That's why wanted to watch Two Towers today. Hehehe... Can't wait for Return of The King EE to come out. Woooo!! I still think Sean Astin deserves Best Supporting Actor. Sean Bean is good too!! Hee!!! Beanie Baby!! I just thought of that. REALLY!! Anyway... Elijah Wood sucks. HE CAN'T ACT!!!! *pui* Why they had to cast him as Frodo, I can't understand. Bah. Made him look weak. In the book he's not that weak. INJUSTICE!!! Down with Elijah Wood!!! Pah.

Really doesn't feel like I'm having an international exam tomorrow. Feel very slack about it. So nonchalant hor. Hahaha... Sigh... I might even forget to go.. Got that kind of feeling. Hahaa... No no... I WILL go... Don't worry. The question is how to get there. Apparently the only bus service there is SBS2 and the nearest MRT station is Tanah Merah but you still need to take a cab after that. Sucks. Can't get the parental units to send me coz my mum is taking part in some funny charity run and my dad's chauffering her. Sigh. What to do what to do...

Survived!

Ahha... Yes.. I went for my paper, crapped out 3 essays that were all concluded rather hastily coz seriously it is madness to have to write 3 essays in just 2 hours. Especially for the last one... I didn't realize I was running out of booklet until I was down to the last 10 lines on the page and decided to flip over to see how many pages I had left. There were no pages left!!!! But by then it was like 3 minutes to the end so I decided "Heck!!" and just wrote the most hasty conclusion which is practically no conclusion at all.. Haha.

Yes, about the previous post. Sorry if I scared anyone. Basically during stress times you will see a lot of that... I tend to get very depressed. But if I actually whine and gripe about it it's not so bad. If I know myself (which if I don't even just a little, that would be quite sad.), it's most dangerous when I'm stressed/depressed and I DON'T talk about it. Think that's what happened last year. I shut up a lot about my problems and just let myself get drowned by all of them. Anyhow. Come Thursday the doom/gloom should be done with. So just bear with me a while longer.

Next battle is Genes & Society on Wednesday and then Japan & China on Thursday. Ergh. I will just go into Genes with a dice. Wahahaha...

Failing Will

My willpower is dead. Gone. Nada. Zip.

I have barely studied for my Japan and Asia Pacific, give or take a couple of readings I did 10 thousand years ago that I can barely remember and the few paragaraphs I've just read.

I want to quit. This is like the 1 millionth time I've said those exact words. Mostly I say it but then continue to trudge through the mud and the fire. Usually I survive, barely sometimes. Last year I really did quit and I come thisclose to self-destruction. This year... I fought. Sort of. I fought and I came to this point. And now I wanna quit again.

I know what all of you are thinking - WAT? That would be so wasted!! Don't be daft!! Don't give up!!! Don't be so stupid!! You're so close!!! Ganbatte!!! BANZAI!!!!

People... You're forgetting that this is someone who has got absolutely no focus in her life and who is quite known for running away everytime some great obstacle or conflict comes her way. I have no willpower. Despite what appearances may say and what some people might think, I'm not that strong in the end.

Well... Looks like it's going to be one of those times when I end up disappointing everyone in my life. Again. Sorry about that folks. Thanks for all the love though.

Sickening...

Exams are *PUI*!!!

Third paper tomorrow... Japan and Asia Pacific. Apparently the rumour goes that he will focus on ODA (official development aid). Sigh.. What do I know about ODA except that China is just one big ODA leech and doesn't even give Japan due recognition for it. Pah. Stupid communists. Ah... Ignore me.. I'm ranting. I did very little today. So terrible. Slept a LOT!!! Cripes... If I can get a C for this module I'll be damn lucky already I tell you... But to stay in NUS I need a B. Well now... I guess it's time for me to start thinking about what my job options are as an expelled NUS student.

Sigh.

Life is so full of croc shit. Plus I really am falling sick. Pah..

So I'm An Idealist...

Saw the link for this personality test on Nekoweenie's blog... It's quite accurate really, except that I'm definitely not vegetarian. Was a bit surprised by the introvert part, but reading the explanation, I really think it's true.

Here's the link:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/whatamilike/index.shtml

Your Answers Suggest You Are An IDEALIST

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Summary of Idealists

• Make sense of the world using inner values


• Focus on personal growth and the growth of others


• Think of themselves as bright, forgiving and curious


• May sometimes appear stubborn

More about Idealists

Idealists put time and energy into developing personal values that they use as a guide through life. They may seek fulfilment by helping others improve themselves and often want to make the world a better place. Idealists only share their inner values with people they respect.

Idealists are the most likely group to say they are vegetarian, according to a UK survey.

Idealists enjoy discussions about a wide range of topics, particularly those that deal with the future. They are typically easy-going and flexible, but if their values are challenged they may refuse to compromise.

In situations where they can’t use their talents or are unappreciated, Idealists may have trouble expressing themselves and withdraw. Under extreme stress, Idealists may become very critical of others, or lose confidence in their own ability to cope.

Recognition for their work is important to Idealists; however, they are also good at spotting false praise.

Idealist Careers

Idealists are often drawn to jobs where they can help people reach their potential. They are also attracted to careers that allow artistic creativity.

WOAH!!!

Went for a 1 1/2 hour flamenco workshop just now (dun worry.. studied in school with Nekoweenie for about 4,5 hours before that.) at Dance Circles. It was being led by Deanna Blacher, our examiner and also the founder of the Spanish Dance Institute. This also makes her the person who wrote the syllabus that Nekoweenie and I are dancing to. (O_O)

Gosh this woman is simply fantastic! No wonder she's the founder I tell you. Goodness... I felt so embarrassed as a someone TRYING to be a flamenco student. Crap!! I only managed to somewhat understand the alegrias rhythm AFTER the class. Even now I can only do it slowly.

12-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12...

Then got variation also...

12-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-12...

(O_O)
Mindboggling. Even Angel got a bit thrown off by all of us off-beat students and she was still going steady on the cajones (square box drum). Confirm add her to my list of heroes...

1 Down 4 To Go... 5 If You Count JLPT

Haven't blogged for a little while. Was supposed to refrain from blogging until after the exams but I am super sian of studying Japanese Marketing now.

Haven't told you guys what happened during my American Law exam have I?

At first it was all good. I wasn't even nervous when I went in. And when I looked at the questions I kinda knew immediately which ones I wanted to do and sort of knew which reading materials to use for it. Basically I knew what the damned questions wanted. Then as I was about to start writing, my stomach decided to have a horrendous stomachache so I had to sign out to go the the toilet. I have no idea what gave me diarrhea that morning but I lost 30min that day and ended up writing only 1 1/2 essays instead of 2. So pissed. The one exam that I cld've done quite ok in and I had to have diarrhea. Sucks.

Then on Sunday was my flamenco exam. Screwed that up big time too. Went in relatively calm but the moment I made one mis-step I tensed up and everything went downhill from there. Bet you the examiner couldn't hear my palleos. Saw her writing fervently during my palleos second exercise. Worst was the syllabus dance. Was ok ok ok, then at the last 1/4 of the dance, missed a bar and came in late. Dammit. Rose, Tania and Nekoweenie kept saying it's ok coz at least I still managed to keep to the beat and still ended properly. But I felt so bad... Tania tried as much as possible to help me catch up after missing 6 weeks. And Angel had such high hopes for my class. And I DID practice at home... I actually managed to do it about 90% perfect in the revision classes... But come to the crunch and BOOM. 50% performance. Sucks...

Sigh.. Next paper on Saturday... Sian.. Dun wanna study. Bah.

The Sound of Music

Haha... Must be something about me and the word "sound" this week. Earlier posted "The Most Beautiful Sound" by Jaycee Chan and this today's entry is all about sound!!! Well... Actually just about certain things that make sound sound better.

I have new speakers!! Courtesy of *cough cough**AHEM!!!* SOMEBODY. :) Got them on Saturday (along with a free Sakae lunch. Wahahaha!!) and have only just set them up. With some help from me dad of course. Been testing the sound and it's just GREAT!!! My goodness... Listen to that bass will you. Wahhaha... It's a 3-piece set - 2 satellite speakers and 1 sub-woofer with treble and bass controls. Heheheh... And they look classy to boot! Black and dark silver. Heeeeeee!!!

Here are the specifications, right off the box:

Sonic Gear - Sonicpower P320
Output power: 1100 Watts

Subwoofer:
- Bass reflex design
- Continuous power: 18 watts RMS
- Frequency response: 50Hz - 120Hz
- 4" low frequency driver
- Dimensions (W x H x D): 347 x 362 x 180mm
- Weight: 4.7kg

Satellites:
- Enclosed cabinet design
- Continuous power: 2 x 5 watts RMS
- Frequency response: 150Hz - 18kHz
- 2 x 3" full-range driver
- Speaker impedance: 4 ohm

Other Features & Characteristics:
- Power On/Off switch and indicator
- Bass, treble and master volume control
- S/N ratio: > 80 dB
- Distortion: < 1% THD (std 300mA peak-to-peak source)

Yes yes. And 'twas quite a good buy too! Wasn't it? ;) It is a very very nice belated (x10) 20th birthday present. Thank you! :D

Ow!! My Heartstrings!!

Just finished reading Eskie's blog and suddenly realized how much I miss the block and the hall. I mean, ok, so last year was quite a shitty year for me... But there were fun times as well and there were people I cared about and I'm hoping there were people who cared about me too. For some stupid reason I even miss that buaya lizard Yow calling me a Mummy Lizard. For goodness sakes! Makes me sound like I'm running some lizard cabaret... Went back a couple of times and found so many faces I didn't recognize, which is quite understandable I suppose. But it makes me wonder if I'm still remembered by the older seniors there. I know Eskie will roll her eyes and bonk me on the head when I say this but sometimes I even wonder if I was ever really a part of the KR family in the first place. Dunno. It feels weird nowadays.

Oh... And for the record, it is NOT written in the constitution that a person must go through Command before he/she can be recognized as an alumni of the hall. I read through the damn thing and no where is it written in black and white. It doesn't even say that you have to graduate while still a resident of the hall. So basically if you've stayed in the hall at least a year (or I think even just one sem), you can be considered alumni. CERTAIN idiots - at least 2 of them - told me it was part of the constitution. They even insisted on it. Hmph. And people (read: Master and some others.. but mainly Master) wonder why KR doesn't have a strong alumni base. Well, if your own JCRC (past AND present... well... I dunno about the newest 04/05 batch... but they better read up) can just anyhow quote the Constitution, you really got fat hope at cultivating lasting feelings.

Don't get me wrong. I am bitter about the whole "you-never-go-through-command-therefore-you're-not-alumni" thing, I admit. But I really still do miss the place. I did stay there.. No, I LIVED there for 2 years. That's got to mean something. Right?

Another Song Translation

Heh... I'm such a slacker...

最动听
歌：Jaycee 房祖名

昨天晚上我又梦见你
在梦里我看见很美的东西
可能是在睡前想过你
才会梦见你

在梦里我常常寻寻觅觅
寻找着你
是梦而已

在现实里我曾经问过自己
是否爱你
还是个游戏

我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声
我会用心地听

不管多小声多小声
我也会用心用意在意地听

我想要看见你的眼睛
听见你的声音
不管多小声
我会用心地听

不管多小声多小声
因你的声音
在我心
是最为动听

Translation:

The Most Beautiful Sound
Jaycee Chan

Last night I dreamt of you again.
In my dream I saw many beautiful things.
Maybe I thought of you before I slept,
So I dreamt of you.

In my dream
I searched everywhere，
Looking for you.
It was just a dream.

In reality I once asked myself
Do I really love you?
Or is it just a game?

I want to look into your eyes
And I want to hear your voice.
No matter how soft, I will listen carefully.

No matter how small. No matter how little.
I will listen with all of my heart.

I want to look into your eyes
I want to hear your voice.
No matter how soft, I will listen carefully.

No matter how small. No matter how little.
Because your voice -
In my heart,
It’s the most beautiful sound.

Procrastination!!

Er.. yes... Regarding the mugging... I was supposed to have started on Wednesday. Now is the end of Friday and I've barely finished one chapter of my American Law... This is terrible.. Home is just not condusive for studying.. To many distractions like my wonderful kitchen... I should migrate to the library. Rrrrrrrr...

On a more sombre note. Let us observe a moment of silence on this blog, in honour of the passing of a truly heroic man...

Gorobei-san, we shall always remember you as one of the bravest of the Seven Samurai. Rest in peace. *bows respectfully*

Last One Today...

Ok... I have to admit that this one was quite comforting. :) And it kinda made me realize that I actually do have friends who truly appreciate me for what I am, and it wouldn't even matter if I was fat or ugly or an absolute bitch... So to all my friends, thanks for being my friends. (^_^)


B:

Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Sign:
Tauros Planet: Jupiter Hair Color:
Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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Again and Again!

Your ordinary. You don't care if people think your
weird or not pretty. You just want everyone to
know your not a creep. Your just yourself which
makes you cool in a cool way:)


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Ok... So I have established that I am normal and ordinary... I suppose that's something to celebrate...

Quiz!! Again!

You're Normal. What is lacking in popularity you
make up in sweetness. You like school and
sometimes like a sport or two. Your life is
busy, you should be a doctor. Please rate my
quiz you are suppose to it is normal?

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OMG!! I'm NORMAL???? There must be some mistake... WHAT SWEETNESS?? I LIKE SCHOOL?? SPORTS???? Doctor of what??? Insanity?? (~_~)"'

OVER!! IT'S ALL OVER!!!

I have finally handed up my Japan & China essay.

I finished typing and printing out by 5.30pm, hopped on a cab by 5.40pm and was in school by 6.10pm. I dropped off at AS7 and FLEW all the way up the stairs towards AS4. Then the Moose (in all his furry glory... He had taken off his shirt and was gallavanting around in his undershirt...) comes down the stairs from AS4. He saw me and he was like, "Hey! It's you!! " And we were going "Hahaha" over goodness knows what... So I gave him my essay and that was it. It was all over in 5min.

And now I'm in AS7 stoning away coz my dad refuses to pick me up and I'm too zombified to go home myself... I might get lost. No I don't want to take another cab because I just spent $11.60 on one.

OMG... I spent $11.60 just for 5min in school.... Dammit.. No paper should be worth so much... Whahahahhaha... But I'm glad it's over. Can relax a bit before muggin for exams. Thanx to all who prayed for me!! :D:D:D

Ice Cream!!

Hehehehehehe...

I went and visited the new 7-Eleven that opened just behind my house. Just a fence away. Wahaha... No Ben & Jerry's though.. But I suppose King's Choco-Mint Chip will have to do for now. Whahahahaa...

*madness prevails*

Introducing...

*Ahem* Er... I actually thought of this about a few weeks ago. When I was er... ranting. You might remember the whole saga. Anyway I only just got down to writing it. And it's my first attempt at lyrical writing in CHINESE. So *cough* forgive me if you see any funny Chinese. My cheena vocab is very limited. Anyhow, must give a BEEG BEEG "Thank You" to Shuhui!! She actually took the time to go through my nonsense and helped me edit it. Wahaha... If I ever become famous I will make sure to insist that the agency that is crazy enough to sign me on hires you as well ok? Wahahah!! Anyway...

Here's the err... Song? Poem? Whatever... Lyrics.

安全网
By Veetwo aka 温素媚
Edited by Shuhui (^_^)v

为何我是安全网？
在你心中
到底我算什么？
认识你都两年半，
你脑袋真的那么厚？

从朋友开始的感情，
总觉得还缺了些什么。
后来发觉—喜欢你。
却你始终不觉悟。

继续当你好朋友
听你分忧，为你加油。
久而久之才发现—
做朋友太辛苦了。

无忧时就到处跑，
伤心失望就靠着我。
或许对你太心软，
现在觉得
你的忧虑好沉重。

不想再做安全网
永远支撑不让你跌。
都快要崩溃了
心也慢慢沉没了。
却还得为始终不了解的你
继续做个安全网。

这安全网快破裂了
不能珍惜就放过我。
喜欢你，却受不了
永远当个候补角色。

不想再做安全网。
为何我是安全网？
永远支撑，不让你跌。

©Veetwo 2004

I'm Krypton???

According to The Periodic Table Horoscope , I'm Krypton which incidentally has the scientific-I-forgot-what-it's-called name of KR. Hmm. What is it with me and the letters "KR"?? Whaha.. Anyway this is what it says:

Krypton, you appear as a colourless gas at 298 K, but despite this, your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. You will have a brief flirtation with fame, but is everything as it initially appears? Beware the Ides of March - all through the year. There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love. Remember: Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure, not anyone's second-choice date. Be true to yourself. Wash behind your ears. Stand up straight, for god's sake.

Let's dissect this point by point:
1) You appear as a colourless gas - Could mean that I need a tan. Which is true! I'm in desperate need of one.. I'm so pasty now.
2) your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. - It's already the end of the week! Where are my #&^%$ admirers??? Whahaha...
3) You will have a brief flirtation with fame - Huh? Fame for? Being the most stoned person in NUS at the moment?
4) Beware the Ides of March - all through the year - In the first place, the Ides of March only happens once a year - IN MARCH. (Note: according to the Roman calendar, each month has an Ides. But there is only ONE Ides of March.) Incidentally, Julius Caesar was supposed to have been assassinated on the Ides of March... Sooo... Are you trying to tell me something?? Haha..
5) There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love - Errr.... Who ah? *shush Jemalelinh!!*
6) Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure - So I'm square... and in desperate need for a tan.
7) not anyone's second-choice date - At the moment I'm not even anyone's first-choice date... :p

Yes... So aside from the horrific need for a tan, I will conclude that this horoscope is totally baseless and absolute nonsense and should only be used for purely entertainment purposes. Hmm... Actually I think that's what the author of the horoscope said... Oh well... Laugh on people.