Again and Again!

Your ordinary. You don't care if people think your
weird or not pretty. You just want everyone to
know your not a creep. Your just yourself which
makes you cool in a cool way:)


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Ok... So I have established that I am normal and ordinary... I suppose that's something to celebrate...

Quiz!! Again!

You're Normal. What is lacking in popularity you
make up in sweetness. You like school and
sometimes like a sport or two. Your life is
busy, you should be a doctor. Please rate my
quiz you are suppose to it is normal?

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OMG!! I'm NORMAL???? There must be some mistake... WHAT SWEETNESS?? I LIKE SCHOOL?? SPORTS???? Doctor of what??? Insanity?? (~_~)"'

OVER!! IT'S ALL OVER!!!

I have finally handed up my Japan & China essay.

I finished typing and printing out by 5.30pm, hopped on a cab by 5.40pm and was in school by 6.10pm. I dropped off at AS7 and FLEW all the way up the stairs towards AS4. Then the Moose (in all his furry glory... He had taken off his shirt and was gallavanting around in his undershirt...) comes down the stairs from AS4. He saw me and he was like, "Hey! It's you!! " And we were going "Hahaha" over goodness knows what... So I gave him my essay and that was it. It was all over in 5min.

And now I'm in AS7 stoning away coz my dad refuses to pick me up and I'm too zombified to go home myself... I might get lost. No I don't want to take another cab because I just spent $11.60 on one.

OMG... I spent $11.60 just for 5min in school.... Dammit.. No paper should be worth so much... Whahahahhaha... But I'm glad it's over. Can relax a bit before muggin for exams. Thanx to all who prayed for me!! :D:D:D

Ice Cream!!

Hehehehehehe...

I went and visited the new 7-Eleven that opened just behind my house. Just a fence away. Wahaha... No Ben & Jerry's though.. But I suppose King's Choco-Mint Chip will have to do for now. Whahahahaa...

*madness prevails*

Introducing...

*Ahem* Er... I actually thought of this about a few weeks ago. When I was er... ranting. You might remember the whole saga. Anyway I only just got down to writing it. And it's my first attempt at lyrical writing in CHINESE. So *cough* forgive me if you see any funny Chinese. My cheena vocab is very limited. Anyhow, must give a BEEG BEEG "Thank You" to Shuhui!! She actually took the time to go through my nonsense and helped me edit it. Wahaha... If I ever become famous I will make sure to insist that the agency that is crazy enough to sign me on hires you as well ok? Wahahah!! Anyway...

Here's the err... Song? Poem? Whatever... Lyrics.

安全网
By Veetwo aka 温素媚
Edited by Shuhui (^_^)v

为何我是安全网？
在你心中
到底我算什么？
认识你都两年半，
你脑袋真的那么厚？

从朋友开始的感情，
总觉得还缺了些什么。
后来发觉—喜欢你。
却你始终不觉悟。

继续当你好朋友
听你分忧，为你加油。
久而久之才发现—
做朋友太辛苦了。

无忧时就到处跑，
伤心失望就靠着我。
或许对你太心软，
现在觉得
你的忧虑好沉重。

不想再做安全网
永远支撑不让你跌。
都快要崩溃了
心也慢慢沉没了。
却还得为始终不了解的你
继续做个安全网。

这安全网快破裂了
不能珍惜就放过我。
喜欢你，却受不了
永远当个候补角色。

不想再做安全网。
为何我是安全网？
永远支撑，不让你跌。

©Veetwo 2004

I'm Krypton???

According to The Periodic Table Horoscope , I'm Krypton which incidentally has the scientific-I-forgot-what-it's-called name of KR. Hmm. What is it with me and the letters "KR"?? Whaha.. Anyway this is what it says:

Krypton, you appear as a colourless gas at 298 K, but despite this, your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. You will have a brief flirtation with fame, but is everything as it initially appears? Beware the Ides of March - all through the year. There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love. Remember: Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure, not anyone's second-choice date. Be true to yourself. Wash behind your ears. Stand up straight, for god's sake.

Let's dissect this point by point:
1) You appear as a colourless gas - Could mean that I need a tan. Which is true! I'm in desperate need of one.. I'm so pasty now.
2) your colourful personality and lively wit will win you many admirers this week. - It's already the end of the week! Where are my #&^%$ admirers??? Whahaha...
3) You will have a brief flirtation with fame - Huh? Fame for? Being the most stoned person in NUS at the moment?
4) Beware the Ides of March - all through the year - In the first place, the Ides of March only happens once a year - IN MARCH. (Note: according to the Roman calendar, each month has an Ides. But there is only ONE Ides of March.) Incidentally, Julius Caesar was supposed to have been assassinated on the Ides of March... Sooo... Are you trying to tell me something?? Haha..
5) There may be moments when you are tempted to settle down with someone you don't truly love - Errr.... Who ah? *shush Jemalelinh!!*
6) Solid krypton is a white crystalline substance with a face-centered cubic structure - So I'm square... and in desperate need for a tan.
7) not anyone's second-choice date - At the moment I'm not even anyone's first-choice date... :p

Yes... So aside from the horrific need for a tan, I will conclude that this horoscope is totally baseless and absolute nonsense and should only be used for purely entertainment purposes. Hmm... Actually I think that's what the author of the horoscope said... Oh well... Laugh on people.

God's Grace. And A New Perspective.

Last night I got so desperate that I e-mailed the Moose at 11.30pm to ask for an extension. I didn't have very high hopes though. I thought he'd turn me down immediately and refuse to mark my paper. So I prayed. And Jemalelinh and Nekoweenie prayed for me too. But this morning when I didn't see any reply, I thought it was all over. He wasn't even going to bother answering my inanely stupid request. So I just went over my material again, typed a bit and went to bake a cake for Felie's party tonight. Then at about 5.15pm, I opened my mailbox to confirm that the party was tonight and to look for a time (there wasn't... -_-") and behold! A reply from Moose. I took a deep breath... clicked.

I couldn't believe my eyes!!! He gave me the extension and he was REALLY nice about it! I was so shocked!! I thought that even if he gave me the extension he'd be nasty about it but he wasn't! He was really really nice!! Here's the e-mail exchange, starting with mine:

Dear Dr. S.,

First of all I want to apologise for e-mailing so late as I have been working desperately on the essay. However, to tell you the truth I have serious doubts about whether I can finish it in time, even if I were to hand in a hard copy by tomorrow morning. This is due to fault on my part entirely. Besides this paper, I had three other deadlines to meet which fell around the same time. Due to some very terrible time management, I ended up over-indulging in the first two papers and found myself pressed for time for the remaining ones.

I do not wish to hand in a sub-standard paper to you and therefore humbly ask if you would be kind enough to allow for a slight extension. I realize that the current situation is entirely my responsibility and will fully understand if you turn down my request or severely mark down my grade.

Thank you so much for your understanding and please accept my sincerest apologies.

Yours Sincerely
Van Su Mei
U02****N

The reply:

Van Su Mei,

If your paper is for me, not Professor Terada, I am happy to give you an extension without penalty to Monday (any time Monday). If you are not well or are very busy on Monday, I might consider waiting until Tuesday.

Dr S.

GOODNESS!!! Can you believe it??? This is the guy who's got an agenda against "abusers" of the English language and believes that all Singaporean students can't write proper English. God's grace is truly wonderful. Thank you Jemalelinh and Nekoweenie for praying for me. Your prayers and your friendship came through so clearly in my time of desperation. And I now have a totally new impression of the Moose! Maybe he's not just a stinking moose... Maybe like Nekoweenie suggests, he's a Fuzzy Furry Moose... (^_^)

Exhaustion

I can't write anymore. I'm so tired. I'm never going to make 2000 words by 8 am to hand in by 10am. I'll never make it. I'm so tired. I can't write anymore. I want to stop. Can I just stop? Please... I'll never make it.

The Price of Idiocy

Sigh. I haven't started any of my essays. Going to start now, of course. I just wanted to write this down first.

Earlier this evening, around 8pm, my mum just came home and she went upstairs to change. My sis had also only just got home and was doing goodness-knows-what on the computer. I don't know exactly what she said to my mother but it really pissed my mum off, coz I heard her yell that if my sis doesn't start studying, she'll pull my sis out of ACJC (which might not be an entirely bad idea. :p). But then when she comes down and sees me, she yells at me too, saying that my sis and I are exactly the same - Insisting on studying Theatre Studies when "you don't even know how write an essay!!". And I hadn't even said a thing... I couldn't understand why she brought up the TS issue coz it hasn't been an issue since I entered NUS 2 years ago. Still the essay remark struck hard. I really wanted to say something, but I didn't. I kept quiet, ate my dinner, went upstairs to my room, blasted the radio and locked the door.

Then I snapped. I started crying, threw some stuff around the room and decided (very childishly) that I would refuse to write my remaining two essays. After all, I don't know how to write essays right? So I won't. I won't write them, won't hand them in, I'll fail the bloody modules and get kicked out of bloody NUS and we'll see what my mother has to say after that. So I surfed, watched anime, binged (chocolate chips, a whole lot of chips and some bun) , watched TV... Basically I stubbornly did everything except work on my essays.

I finally cooled down. Around 2am. So now I'm even more pressed for time, because I threw a stupid tantrum over another tantrum. Such an idiot. Now I'm not even sure I can finish a 2-page essay for Genes & Society by 5pm, much less a 2000-word essay for Japan-China by Sat 10am. Sigh.

Silver Sliver

Don't I mean Silver Silver? No. Sliver. You know?? REALLY thin strip? Sliver. Ok... So don't I mean Silver Lining?? Nope. Sliver.

Mel Fann just called me to tell me that the Moose has "extended" our Japan & China deadline to Saturday morning if we're handing up a hard copy of the paper. I suppose it beats Friday 5pm. But seriously, who the HELL is going to wake up on a Saturday morning to hand up a f***ing paper by 9am??? I'll bet you the fat arse isn't even going to wake up until at least 10am himself. So why should anyone wake up 3 hours earlier then him just coz he says so??? Rrrrrrrrrrr... I'm sure moose is a regular meat in Canada or Finland or something... Roast him. But I suppose Jemalelinh is right... A small extension is better than none. Hence it is only a silver sliver of hope. No such thing as silver linings in my life. Bah.

Wanna know what I think is even more ridiculous? If we're handing in hard copies it's due Saturday morning. BUT! If we're handing in SOFT copies, it's due midnight tomorrow!! Waaat?? I don't understand. I don't understand it at all. Stupid Moose. Probably has the equivalent IQ of an actual moose anyhow. Combined with the fact that he's a male (somehow calling him a man seems like an insult to men, and that's saying a lot considering that I hate men at the moment) ... This guy doesn't stand a chance.

Mark of a Genius?

OH!!! One more thing. Remember the Genes & Society online assesment that I finished in 5minutes? I got the results back. And I have scored full marks.

Wahahahaha!!!

Bow to my immense superiority!! AGAIN!!! Wahahahah!!!

*no more screws to lose*

2nd One Down

Once again I have managed to survive an evil term paper and no longer have anything to do with it whatsoever. Whoever invented the notion of term papers should be shot and tortured and shot again.

The one that was just handed up was for Japan & Asia-Pacific Region. I love Japan, but I hate regional studies esp in terms of politics. Bah. Well.. That's over. Now in the Central Library waiting for Jemalelinh. I wonder if she'll find me before the scrap neutrons of my wasted brains turn radioactive and cause the rest of me to disintegrate into a puddle of goo on the floor. CL people will have a hell of a time killing up though... seeing as how the floors are carpeted. Wahahahahahaa...

Next war in line is with 2 essays simultaneously!! Both due on the same day. Bah.. Friday 5pm. In totally opposite faculties. Genes & Society and Japan & China. Zzzzzzz...

I will officially not be sleeping until Saturday. And then I shall proceed to fall into a coma until Monday. My brain is protesting like nobody's business. How to do two essays like that?? How? How?!? HOW???!!!

Product Quality = Product Loyalty

That's it. Never again will I use paper other than Double A paper.

No wonder goods manufacturers are so insistent on multiple quality checks. Assurance of consistent top quality products is THE best way to gain product loyalty among consumers.

I gave up on a-one paper a long time ago because the paper was just too light and multiple pieces kept getting caught in my printer feeder resulting in uneven prints or double sided prints with inconsistent page numbers and oft times a whole lot of wasted prints. Not to mention a big waste of precious precious HP ink (only because it's super expensive). Hence I started using Double A.

IT WAS PERFECT! It was heavy enough so there were no more multiple feeds, and it was thicker too. So It didn't look too flimsy when I had to print out term papers and the such.

Today I ran out of paper again. So I walked down to Popular@Thomson Plaza to go buy some. BUT!! Popular doesn't stock Double A paper!!! So disgusting. Or maybe it's just this particular branch. In any case, I walked out and went upstairs to Best Denki instead, thinking that an electronics specialty store might have a larger range of printing supplies. Turns out they were a bit too specialized... I could only find HP multipurpose printing paper. But I think, "Ok. It IS HP afterall. And the packaging does say that it's suited for deskjet printers. Quality shouldn't be a problem." So I bought a ream and went home. As I ripped the packaging apart and took out some paper, I could just FEEL the thinness. But still I thought, "Hey! It's HP. How bad can it get?"

Very bad, apparently. As I started printing out some material for my JS paper, the same old problem occurred. Freak. Wasted ink and wasted paper. Again! And with what is supposed to be a very established brand!!! Bah. So much for quality products.

Therefore... *raises right hand* I hereby swear my absolute loyalty to Double A paper.

Brain Dead

Done. I have finished.

One term paper. But hey!! That's one less paper to do!!! It was my American Law paper. Was writing it until about 8am and then I had to organize my biblios... I finally printed out the bloody thing at like 10.30am. Then I realized that I'd forgotten to add in one reference... But heck it. It was a minor one anyhow. And I can't be bothered to do anything else to the thing. I just wanna sleep. But I'm in school now waiting for Mich Chang to come along and finish hers, so we can read each other's essays before we finally hand it up to Chng Chuan Hoon. ZZZ... After this is lunch with Pukey at 2pm. Can I even survive until then? I think I'll just collapse along one of the corridors in arts. And no one will ever find me!! EEEEEEEE!!!!! .... That might be a good thing though... Coz if I'm missing then I wouldn't have to write anymore term papers rite?

*proceeds to lose a few more screws*

I Hate Kids

Wat the F***???

My sister's silly project group members just asked me if I could pose as "an imposing authoritative mother figure" for a picture to use in their project. What the F***???? And they didn't want to just wait for my sister to finish her tuition!? OMG. I tell you kids nowadays are just SOOOOOOOO irritating!

Hallo! My door is closed so obviously I DON'T WANT TO BE DISTURBED!! 4 TERM PAPERS!!! HALLO!!! Fine. Just now I did help them to find drawing block paper.. But that doesn't mean they should push the envelope!!! OMG!!! My sister is sooo going to get it... Ok well.. It's not entirely her fault. It's just her friends. BUT they are HER friends. IN OUR HOUSE. Learn the rules you incessantly babbling little shits.

I hate kids. BAH!!

WAR!!! (or not...)

FREAAK!! The weather is super nice for snoozing now.. But I need to write my FOUR TERM PAPERS!!! EEEEEEEKKK!!! Somebody save me!!! The weather is declaring war on me and my papers!!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!

Sleep...

TERM PAPER!!!

Sleeeeep.....

TERM PAPER!!!!

SLEEEEEEEEPPPP!!!

TERM PAPERS!!!!

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!

TERM PAPER!!! TERM PAPER TERM PAPER TERM PA...Perrrrssssszzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

*flails helplessly*

"Half Pain" by Bana (Witch Hunter Robin)

覚えてか？この歌はあなたがくれた...覚える？

Half Pain
Witch Hunter Robin (End Theme)
Singer: Bana

例えば 何処まで 戻れば好い？
教えて。
全ては痛みを伴うほど鮮やか。

本当は
分け合えるものなんてないから、
振り返らなかった。

Fall into a light sleep 私に満ちる。
I don’t carry out 約束はやがて。
いつかの輝き捨てた
返れない朝の光のよう。

冷たい心のそばにいる世凍えて、
続きは拒めないらいほら浅はか。

着つかずにかけた感情
拾い集めて許しを求めたら。

Fall into a light sleep 一人の夜に、
I’m beginning to learn 悲しみの仕組み。
あなたの温もり隠し
溢れ出たその闇に怯える。

Fall into a light sleep 私に満ちる。
I don’t carry out 約束はやがて。
いつかの輝き捨てた返れない朝の光のよう。

Translation (From Animelyrics.com)

How far back should I have to go?
Tell me.
Everything is so painfully vivid.

The truth is -
We couldn't understand each other,
So I left and didn't look back.

Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being
I never carry out my promises
So long ago, I threw away my brightness
And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return.

It lies beside this cold heart, frozen
So completely mindless that it persists forever

Numbly, I gather the remnants of my emotions,
And seek for redemption...

Fall into a light sleep, on a lonely night
I'm beginning to learn the designs of sorrow
The hiding away of your warm presence
Makes me fear the overflowing darkness.

Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being
I never carry out my promises
So long ago, I threw away my brightness
And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return.

Speedy Weedy

I finished my Genes & Society online assessment in 4min 58sec. Wahahahaha!! *diabolical laughter* Bow to my immense superiority!!! WHAHAHAHAH!!!!

*Matrix-ducks all the hammers and heavy objects thrown by Jemalelihn, Aronwy and Nekoweenie who are all probably screaming at me to do my 4 term papers due next week*

Student Perk!!!

OMG!! OMGOMGOMG!!!

Did you know that as students of NUS we can actually access HUGE amounts of data from Euromonitor through the NUS library for FREE??? OMG!! And to think I spent so much time - too much - searching on the WWW for free info (most online market reports and databases have a price tag on them) when I could've just used the online databases in the NUS library!! Why didn't anyone tell me about this before??? OMG!!!

I must strive to become the nerd that I was in JC. Nerdification!!!

[Edit 5.44pm: EBSCO Research Databases too!!! OMG!!!!]

It's Sinking In

So now I know. The high that comes with retail therapy doesn't last forever. No wonder shopaholics exist. They can't let go of that feeling of elation when comes with HAVING. It's addictive. I can understand that now. Now that the numbness is starting to wear off, it hurts even more. I don't regret hooking up with Midori of course. Midori's cool and she was a good choice. But everything's just starting to register. And now that Jemalelinh has enlightened me as to exactly what's up with me, I can say... She's right. And I hate myself for feeling like this. I hate being sad. Hate being angry; being upset and I hate feeling hurt. But why the hell should I feel hurt in the first place? Do I even have that right, I wonder.

I'm starting to wonder if I owe you an apology. I'm starting to wonder if I overreacted and just used you as an excuse to vent my frustrations. I don't know if I'm feeling hurt because you can't understand it or because I can't even understand it myself. I really don't know why. That present is still in my cupboard. I don't know if I'll really just give it away but I know that it may never see the light of day again.

I'm being a git aren't I? OH PLEASE!! Just get over yourself Su Mei. ARGH!! I'm a git.