全世界失眠 - 陈奕迅
曲:陈伟 词:林夕
想起我不完美
你会不会
逃离我生命的范围
想着你的滋味
我会不会
把这个枕头变得甜美
想起白天的约会
忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水
远离我梦中的堡垒
一个人失眠
全世界失眠
无辜的街灯
守候明天
幸福的失眠
只是因为害怕闭上眼
如何想你想到六点
如何爱你爱到终点
想起我的时候
你会不会
好像我一样不能睡
想像你的暧昧
我会不会
数不到绵羊一双一对
如何爱你爱到终点
Translation:
Remembering how imperfect I am,
Would you run from the boundaries of my life?
Thinking of the way you smell,
Would this pillow become precious to me?
When I think of our date today,
I forget to drink my nightly coffee.
I’m just afraid my emotions will overflow
And break the fortress of my dreams.
I can’t sleep.
The whole world can’t sleep.
Unknowing streetlights await tomorrow.
Blissful insomnia.
I’m afraid to close my eyes,
’Cause then how can I think of you ’til 6am?
How can I love you ’til the end?
When you think of me,
Are you also unable to sleep?
Thinking of your ambiguity,
Does it make me unable to count sheep in pairs?
How do I love you ’til the end?
[12.18am Edit: I'm not too sure abt the counting sheep part... Any better translators? Shuhui?]
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Overreaction?
Went for Jemalelinh's TS grad play last night at Black Box. "Twilight of the Golds". It was pretty good. The script was a great choice although a difficult one to do. But they managed to pull it off. Was most impressed by the guy who played the gay son (turns out he's really gay. hmm...) and Yin Mei who played the overreacting mother. The only thing I couldn't stand (besides not being able to hear one of the actors due his mumbling) was the sounds that carried over from the Fort Canning Green, where the annual ScreamFest was screening "The Eye2" and "Ginger Snaps". It was just irritating. At the most pregnant pauses in the play... "EEEEEEEEKKKK" Suddenly this scream will come out of nowhere... Spoilt the whole atmosphere...
But speaking of overreacting females... I'm wondering whether or not I'm one of them. I think - I'm still trying to decide - that I may have overreacted tonight. While I don't think I said anything cruel, I may have said some... Unnecessary things... But at the same time, isn't it customary and plain polite to first ask "Are you free on watever-day" before you ask someone to go out with you? Instead of just saying something like "I'll see you on watever-day"? Or maybe this person just... thinks differently; Or just has a different (strange) way of doing things. It wouldn't be surprising if it were so, considering... I dunno. Sigh. It just sounds so... assuming. Presumptuous even. Or maybe I really am overreacting. Sucks.
Why am I always doing this? Falling out with people at strange timings. I did it to Jemalelinh once (Remember?) and that turned out to be one of the times I most needed my friends around me. Now's not really one of those times but once again my sense of timing is just screwed. So now that "thing" is just going to sit in my cupboard and rot. I can already Jemalelinh rolling her eyes at me and semi-scolding "So you bought it for NOTHING?". Huh... Maybe I did. Maybe I'll just sell it off the next time MGS has a bazaar or if KR ever comes along doing garangguni. Nuts. I'm mad. I'm absolutely raving.
Jemalelinh, why don't I just give it to you? I'm sure D needs it more. *slouches off to a corner*
But speaking of overreacting females... I'm wondering whether or not I'm one of them. I think - I'm still trying to decide - that I may have overreacted tonight. While I don't think I said anything cruel, I may have said some... Unnecessary things... But at the same time, isn't it customary and plain polite to first ask "Are you free on watever-day" before you ask someone to go out with you? Instead of just saying something like "I'll see you on watever-day"? Or maybe this person just... thinks differently; Or just has a different (strange) way of doing things. It wouldn't be surprising if it were so, considering... I dunno. Sigh. It just sounds so... assuming. Presumptuous even. Or maybe I really am overreacting. Sucks.
Why am I always doing this? Falling out with people at strange timings. I did it to Jemalelinh once (Remember?) and that turned out to be one of the times I most needed my friends around me. Now's not really one of those times but once again my sense of timing is just screwed. So now that "thing" is just going to sit in my cupboard and rot. I can already Jemalelinh rolling her eyes at me and semi-scolding "So you bought it for NOTHING?". Huh... Maybe I did. Maybe I'll just sell it off the next time MGS has a bazaar or if KR ever comes along doing garangguni. Nuts. I'm mad. I'm absolutely raving.
Jemalelinh, why don't I just give it to you? I'm sure D needs it more. *slouches off to a corner*
Friday, October 22, 2004
The Killing Thirst
This bites...
Here I am in the NUS Central Library and I find myself dying of thirst and with NO water bottle. Of all days I decide not to bring one because I'm lugging my laptop along to do work and there's practically no space in the teeny-weeny bag I brought instead of my usual shoulder bags. And as far as I know, everyone I know is either having class now or would be quite quite unwilling to come out of their rooms (or wherever they are) just so that they can bring me a bottle of water. Dammit. I don't really relish the thought of leaving my laptop here just so I can go down to the canteen or the Co-Op to buy myself a nice bottle of "Fresh Alpine!" (or so they claim) water. But I'm thirsty!! THIRSTY!!! *dry coughing*
*weak rasps* wa...wat..ter............ *wheeze*
Here I am in the NUS Central Library and I find myself dying of thirst and with NO water bottle. Of all days I decide not to bring one because I'm lugging my laptop along to do work and there's practically no space in the teeny-weeny bag I brought instead of my usual shoulder bags. And as far as I know, everyone I know is either having class now or would be quite quite unwilling to come out of their rooms (or wherever they are) just so that they can bring me a bottle of water. Dammit. I don't really relish the thought of leaving my laptop here just so I can go down to the canteen or the Co-Op to buy myself a nice bottle of "Fresh Alpine!" (or so they claim) water. But I'm thirsty!! THIRSTY!!! *dry coughing*
*weak rasps* wa...wat..ter............ *wheeze*
Waaaah... vs. WAH!!!
Waaaahh...
Went back to KR tonight to watch Culture Night, and it was really good!! And I saw super super a lot of people whom I haven't seen for super super long and managed to have good long conversations with most of them instead of the usual "Hi! Long time no see, how are you? Ok Bye!" Am super super happy now!!! Weeeeeee!!!!! I'm so glad I decided to go back to visit!!! Lalala...! At least I don't feel overwhelmingly sad when I go back now. It feels more like... Class reunion.. Family reunion... That kind of thing. Hee hee!! Happy happy happy!! (^_^)
Now the "WAH!!!"...
My project group for Japanese Marketing has just realized that our presentation is on Monday (report due the week after) so we're having an emergency meeting tomorrow. Later today rather, seeing how it's technically Friday already. 1pm we're meeting. And I have absolutely NOTHING to contribute.... DIE. I will just go to this meeting and be shot dead by all my group members. (x_x)
I want to sleep... *sob*
Went back to KR tonight to watch Culture Night, and it was really good!! And I saw super super a lot of people whom I haven't seen for super super long and managed to have good long conversations with most of them instead of the usual "Hi! Long time no see, how are you? Ok Bye!" Am super super happy now!!! Weeeeeee!!!!! I'm so glad I decided to go back to visit!!! Lalala...! At least I don't feel overwhelmingly sad when I go back now. It feels more like... Class reunion.. Family reunion... That kind of thing. Hee hee!! Happy happy happy!! (^_^)
Now the "WAH!!!"...
My project group for Japanese Marketing has just realized that our presentation is on Monday (report due the week after) so we're having an emergency meeting tomorrow. Later today rather, seeing how it's technically Friday already. 1pm we're meeting. And I have absolutely NOTHING to contribute.... DIE. I will just go to this meeting and be shot dead by all my group members. (x_x)
I want to sleep... *sob*
Thursday, October 21, 2004
YOU by Kazami
YOU
Samurai Champloo OST song
Lyrics by Lori Fine[COLDFEET]
Music by tsutchie
Featuring Kazami
Oh, you know
You know what to say
Say "I love you"
Oh, I think you've got to know right away
"Maybe me too"
You
You are a nice, cool breeze in me
I feel you blowing in
I can feel the sunlight all around me
You're shining
I feel beautiful when I'm around you
I'm safe and comfortable
'Cause you are wonderful
It feels natural to be around you
You've made it possible
You're wonderful
Oh, can I
Can I tell you why
Why I need you
Oh, my life
You made it a cloudless sky I can fly through
You
You are a deep, strong wind in me
I feel you - Come on in
Can you see the sunlight all around me
You're smiling
I feel beautiful when I'm around you
I'm safe and comfortable
'Cause you are wonderful
It feels natural to be around you
You've made it possible
You're wonderful
Ok.... Aside from the lousy - and very weird - English and horrible diction (a-lound vs around...) this is a very very very nice song from Samurai Champloo ep 17. If only my blog could sing. Damn I need to STUDY !! STUDY!!! STUDY!!!
Samurai Champloo OST song
Lyrics by Lori Fine[COLDFEET]
Music by tsutchie
Featuring Kazami
Oh, you know
You know what to say
Say "I love you"
Oh, I think you've got to know right away
"Maybe me too"
You
You are a nice, cool breeze in me
I feel you blowing in
I can feel the sunlight all around me
You're shining
I feel beautiful when I'm around you
I'm safe and comfortable
'Cause you are wonderful
It feels natural to be around you
You've made it possible
You're wonderful
Oh, can I
Can I tell you why
Why I need you
Oh, my life
You made it a cloudless sky I can fly through
You
You are a deep, strong wind in me
I feel you - Come on in
Can you see the sunlight all around me
You're smiling
I feel beautiful when I'm around you
I'm safe and comfortable
'Cause you are wonderful
It feels natural to be around you
You've made it possible
You're wonderful
Ok.... Aside from the lousy - and very weird - English and horrible diction (a-lound vs around...) this is a very very very nice song from Samurai Champloo ep 17. If only my blog could sing. Damn I need to STUDY !! STUDY!!! STUDY!!!
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Avoid Avoid
I'm avoiding XXX (something? someone? wldn't you like to know...)... I know why I started avoiding XXX. But sometimes I feel myself weakening and I start to question if I really have a reason to avoid XXX. It should be for the better, and that's the only reason why I persist in my avoidance (if there's even such a word). Arrgh... I need a shrink.
Why Melancholy??
I seriously don't know what's wrong with me these few days. Everyday when I wake up, I feel this slight twang of sadness. I wash it off in the shower and go through my day as always. But then I come home, I switch on my computer and again, that same feeling of sadness will hit me. And I find myself stuck listening to sad or soppy Chinese love songs! And they're the same ones over and over again!! And I'm not sure exactly what's bothering me... Cripes, I need a shrink.
At the moment my song-obsession is this new Japanese song by Rie Fu called "Life is Like a Boat". It's half in English and half in Japanese. Ever since I heard it, I've been playing it on my computer. I tried to look for a translation but all I could find was a transription of the song. In romaji no less so I couldn't really tell what the actual words were. But I've set out to translate it myself and it's not easy working on just romaji. It's got a really nice meaning. If I could I'd write it out here in what I think is the accurate kana but the last time I tried to put Japanese characters here, they turned into funny symbols. So again, there's no point in putting only the romaji version here and I'm definitely not done translating it. It's kinda sad, but kinda hopeful as well. I love it. I guess I could type out the English parts of the song, but I'll only do that if people really wanna know what this song is about. Else I think I'll only post it here when.. IF I actually finish translating it.
At the moment my song-obsession is this new Japanese song by Rie Fu called "Life is Like a Boat". It's half in English and half in Japanese. Ever since I heard it, I've been playing it on my computer. I tried to look for a translation but all I could find was a transription of the song. In romaji no less so I couldn't really tell what the actual words were. But I've set out to translate it myself and it's not easy working on just romaji. It's got a really nice meaning. If I could I'd write it out here in what I think is the accurate kana but the last time I tried to put Japanese characters here, they turned into funny symbols. So again, there's no point in putting only the romaji version here and I'm definitely not done translating it. It's kinda sad, but kinda hopeful as well. I love it. I guess I could type out the English parts of the song, but I'll only do that if people really wanna know what this song is about. Else I think I'll only post it here when.. IF I actually finish translating it.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Lousy Weekend
Aside being ultra-unproductive, this weekend was just lousy because right now, my chest feels like its got a hard ball of lead inside instead of a heart.
A couple of stupid things happened and even more stupid words were said. The worse part is that I let myself get too affected by all of it. In truth they were probably just... Stupid specks of dust on the horizon. But I let those stupid specks become big blobs that blocked out the sun. Excuse the lousy analogies.
I can't help but wonder - Is it more self-centered to think that you can identify with another person's feelings? That what you feel from your own experiences equals that other person's; Or to insist that what you're feeling or going through is just different from other people, no matter how similar it might seem? Or is it really just a point of view? Or maybe we just say these things to comfort the other or ourselves, depending on whose crisis it is. Do I make sense?
I'm sorry I didn't say this to you over MSN, but I didn't know how to say or explain it. I really believe that what you're going through is different from what I'm going through. I can't explain it. I didn't choose to be that person's safety net, wittingly OR unwittingly. But I want out. I'm not sure I can take the mental/emotional assault anymore. Yet at the same time I'm not sure I'm strong enough to break away. I know that you'll probably argue... Try to rationalize, rather, that you're going through the same thing and you're feeling exactly the way I feel. I'm not going to argue with you. Simply because I can't argue with you. And I don't want to. How do you argue with someone who makes arguments for a living? You can't. So I won't. It's just different. I'm sorry, but it just is.
It just is.
A couple of stupid things happened and even more stupid words were said. The worse part is that I let myself get too affected by all of it. In truth they were probably just... Stupid specks of dust on the horizon. But I let those stupid specks become big blobs that blocked out the sun. Excuse the lousy analogies.
I can't help but wonder - Is it more self-centered to think that you can identify with another person's feelings? That what you feel from your own experiences equals that other person's; Or to insist that what you're feeling or going through is just different from other people, no matter how similar it might seem? Or is it really just a point of view? Or maybe we just say these things to comfort the other or ourselves, depending on whose crisis it is. Do I make sense?
I'm sorry I didn't say this to you over MSN, but I didn't know how to say or explain it. I really believe that what you're going through is different from what I'm going through. I can't explain it. I didn't choose to be that person's safety net, wittingly OR unwittingly. But I want out. I'm not sure I can take the mental/emotional assault anymore. Yet at the same time I'm not sure I'm strong enough to break away. I know that you'll probably argue... Try to rationalize, rather, that you're going through the same thing and you're feeling exactly the way I feel. I'm not going to argue with you. Simply because I can't argue with you. And I don't want to. How do you argue with someone who makes arguments for a living? You can't. So I won't. It's just different. I'm sorry, but it just is.
It just is.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Of Safety Nets and Failsafe Devices
It sucks being a safety net. Is it written somewhere on my forehead that I'm the emergency airbag that will break your fall each time you decide to crash and burn? I'm tired of being taken for granted. I'm sick of being that failsafe constant in your life. See me truely. Either acknowledge my existance as a separate identity from your own, or let me go.
Just let me go.
Just let me go.
Friday, October 15, 2004
Can Siew Mais Be Oversteamed?
It.
Is.
Damn.
Freaking.
HOT!!!!
I'm going mad in this heat. Maybe that's why I'm off doing crazy things. Jemalelinh can testify. Bleah. Some more going to give up "The Visit of The Tai Tai" just to go back to KR to watch Culture Nite. But I DID promise Raymond. And like I told Jemalelinh, between Raymond and *cough* SOMEONE... I'd choose Raymond. Lalala. I'm biased. Hehehehe!!
Found out just how immature some people can be today when I accompanied Mel Fann to Concourse to get things for her play. We were on the topic of the personalities of certain people and she told me how a particular someone -- I'll call him Beast. Some of you will know who I'm talking about. -- was apparently pissed at me for revealing at a dinner gathering, AFTER he revealed it himself, that I'd known beforehand about his breakup and that I heard the girl's side of the story before his. His reasoning being that being in the same working committee for so long I was s'posed to be closer to him instead of the girl. And so he's pissed that I found out her story before his.
What the hell??
Ok. So I did let out to everyone at the dinner that I knew about the breakup, but I INSIST that I only did so after - AFTER - Beast announced it himself. And for the record, my 'revealing' wasn't an 'announcement'. It was just a normal, "Yeah. *nod*" And the rest were like, "Huh?!? You knew already? Why you never say??" Beast was like.. Shocked that I knew...
Furthermore, it wasn't as if I went all out to find out what happened. Please... I'm not that boliao and I wasn't even close to that girl during that point of time. I found out by accident coz she just happened to be in the room of a friend I went over to visit, who happens to be this girl's best friend. They were talking about it when I popped into the room and I just got pulled into the whole conversation. In any case, what's the logic of I'm supposed to be closer to him therefore I should've found out his side of the story first?? Where's the logic in that???? And you're PISSED at me for knowing beforehand that you broke up?? I'm not about to take sides just because you're my friend you know. Well.. Supposedly my friend anyhow. OMG. This just brings guys and immaturity to whole new levels. Is it any wonder why I can't bring myself to fully trust men? For Pete's sake!! Grow a BRAIN!!
ARGH! MEN!! *pui*
Is.
Damn.
Freaking.
HOT!!!!
I'm going mad in this heat. Maybe that's why I'm off doing crazy things. Jemalelinh can testify. Bleah. Some more going to give up "The Visit of The Tai Tai" just to go back to KR to watch Culture Nite. But I DID promise Raymond. And like I told Jemalelinh, between Raymond and *cough* SOMEONE... I'd choose Raymond. Lalala. I'm biased. Hehehehe!!
Found out just how immature some people can be today when I accompanied Mel Fann to Concourse to get things for her play. We were on the topic of the personalities of certain people and she told me how a particular someone -- I'll call him Beast. Some of you will know who I'm talking about. -- was apparently pissed at me for revealing at a dinner gathering, AFTER he revealed it himself, that I'd known beforehand about his breakup and that I heard the girl's side of the story before his. His reasoning being that being in the same working committee for so long I was s'posed to be closer to him instead of the girl. And so he's pissed that I found out her story before his.
What the hell??
Ok. So I did let out to everyone at the dinner that I knew about the breakup, but I INSIST that I only did so after - AFTER - Beast announced it himself. And for the record, my 'revealing' wasn't an 'announcement'. It was just a normal, "Yeah. *nod*" And the rest were like, "Huh?!? You knew already? Why you never say??" Beast was like.. Shocked that I knew...
Furthermore, it wasn't as if I went all out to find out what happened. Please... I'm not that boliao and I wasn't even close to that girl during that point of time. I found out by accident coz she just happened to be in the room of a friend I went over to visit, who happens to be this girl's best friend. They were talking about it when I popped into the room and I just got pulled into the whole conversation. In any case, what's the logic of I'm supposed to be closer to him therefore I should've found out his side of the story first?? Where's the logic in that???? And you're PISSED at me for knowing beforehand that you broke up?? I'm not about to take sides just because you're my friend you know. Well.. Supposedly my friend anyhow. OMG. This just brings guys and immaturity to whole new levels. Is it any wonder why I can't bring myself to fully trust men? For Pete's sake!! Grow a BRAIN!!
ARGH! MEN!! *pui*
Sucker!!
Damn... I'm such a sucker for subtle romances... And when it's a tragic romance, you've got me good.
Why do I always fall for the anime character who's walking on the edge of good vs. evil?? I need help.
Why do I always fall for the anime character who's walking on the edge of good vs. evil?? I need help.
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Cinema Cinema Cinema
Sometime ago I posted a Movie Wishlist... Never actually got to watch any of the movies on that list although Shuhui and I ended up going to watch 2 other movies (13 Going On 30 and Seeing Other People) after that anyway. Heheh. But anyhow here's my latest Movie Wishlist. Hopefully I'll get to watch at least one before the exams.
Movie Wishlist:
1) 2046 ***** (TOP PRIORITY!! Wahaha!! Tony Leung and Kimura Takuya!! *drool*)
2) Sky Captain ****
3)....
Actually the rest don't matter. I just REALLY wanna watch those two movies. *crosses fingers* Die die must watch 2046.
Oooh! Added a couple of things on the Wishing Icicle. Bored people can go have a look. Wahaha...
Movie Wishlist:
1) 2046 ***** (TOP PRIORITY!! Wahaha!! Tony Leung and Kimura Takuya!! *drool*)
2) Sky Captain ****
3)....
Actually the rest don't matter. I just REALLY wanna watch those two movies. *crosses fingers* Die die must watch 2046.
Oooh! Added a couple of things on the Wishing Icicle. Bored people can go have a look. Wahaha...
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
New Section
I've added a new section on my sidebar called "The Wishing Icicle". Basically my wishlist. Was going to call it "Christmas Desires" initially but felt that it didn't really work with the theme of my whole blog. If anyone has a better suggestion, do tell me... I'll treat you to an ice milo or something.. Heheh..
Just felt like adding it to my blog. Don't really expect anyone to buy me any of the mentioned wishes, although I suppose I don't mind if you do. Hahaha! But more than anything it's just a little extra ranting that reveals the workings of my strange little mind... I think. Oh well. Take a look, have a laugh or just keel over from the absurdity of it. Heh.
Just felt like adding it to my blog. Don't really expect anyone to buy me any of the mentioned wishes, although I suppose I don't mind if you do. Hahaha! But more than anything it's just a little extra ranting that reveals the workings of my strange little mind... I think. Oh well. Take a look, have a laugh or just keel over from the absurdity of it. Heh.
Monday, October 11, 2004
Satisfaction
I got a B for my AS3213 mid-term!! This despite not finishing writing and not really studying except for the night before. *Big smile*
It's looking goooood... :D
It's looking goooood... :D
Return of The Sleepless Nights
Tasks for Monday 11 Oct:
1) Finish AS3213 proposal [DONE]
2) Prepare for AS3213 presentation [Semi-done]
3) Prepare for JS2227 presentation
4) Prepare for JS2225 tutorial
5) Prep for JLPT 4 revision class
Well now... One down... Four to go. ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........
[Edit note: It just occured to me that in the previous entry "Party Deja Vu"... That's the first time I've actually mentioned Guowei's name in my blog... Ever. Oh well. Now everybody knows. :p]
1) Finish AS3213 proposal [DONE]
2) Prepare for AS3213 presentation [Semi-done]
3) Prepare for JS2227 presentation
4) Prepare for JS2225 tutorial
5) Prep for JLPT 4 revision class
Well now... One down... Four to go. ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........
[Edit note: It just occured to me that in the previous entry "Party Deja Vu"... That's the first time I've actually mentioned Guowei's name in my blog... Ever. Oh well. Now everybody knows. :p]
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Saint Siew Mai
I am feeling absolutely justified.
I went to the gym today and I ran on the threadmill!! Only for about 10minutes lah but WAH!! It's been so long since I ran. Think the last time I ran was before I went Japan. After that well... One thing after another. But TODAY!! Ok so my ankle staged a rather big protest after that but I felt WONDERFUL! So I finally went back to my usual 30min cardio before weights training. Woo hoo!!!
Bring on the killer cakes! I'm not afraid of you!! Wahahahahahahaha!!!!
I feel so saintly now. *look of smug content*
I went to the gym today and I ran on the threadmill!! Only for about 10minutes lah but WAH!! It's been so long since I ran. Think the last time I ran was before I went Japan. After that well... One thing after another. But TODAY!! Ok so my ankle staged a rather big protest after that but I felt WONDERFUL! So I finally went back to my usual 30min cardio before weights training. Woo hoo!!!
Bring on the killer cakes! I'm not afraid of you!! Wahahahahahahaha!!!!
I feel so saintly now. *look of smug content*
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Party Deja Vu...
Went to Mel Fann's 21st B'day party last night. Said a lot of crazy things and did a lot of crazy things and er... *ahem* did a couple of kinky things... Ok perverts not THAT kinky!! Jeez... Hahaha.. Anyhow it was fun. And the cake was GOOOOD!! Regent Hotel cake wor... Dun play play... Heh.
'Twas a good break from school stuff. Though there were a couple of unexpected (but by no means unpleasant) surprises...
1) Saw Jasmine again after too long!! I'd kinda forgotten that she and Mel were friends. The last time we met up was the Marche outing that we had when Debz was back for the hols. I suppose being in different faculties which are like miles away from each other plays a big big factor but MY GOODNESS!!! Is it really so hard for a bunch of old pals to meet up for lunch or something? Come to think of it I haven't exactly seen Pukey since before the mid-term break and I haven't seen Sharon for a while either. EEK.. Must start planning regular lunch/dinner/study dates again. Else I don't think I'll ever get to see these people until Sharon's engagement party. Gah.
2) Second thing wasn't exactly a surprise I guess. It was more of "woah... deja vu..". Met a fellow there who reminded me so much of two people. The first person... Won't mention his name for various reasons. :p But this person, call him X, kinda set the standard in some way. He's not someone I ever had feelings for. We were just always good friends but he's just become one of the more important guys in my life. And I think if I ever fell for someone he'd be something like X. Which brings me to the second person that I was reminded of.
Guowei.
***Warning: Stop reading now if you wanna be spared a lot of whining and nonsense and mush. Yes. Mush.
I know I know. Aren't I supposed to be over him by now? Yes, I am. But hey! I'm entitled to some nostalgia! Anyhow. Party Boy reminded me of Guowei as well. Not a bad thing but not necessarily a good thing as well. Guowei was the first guy I actually thought I could have a serious relationship with, which is saying a lot. I mean yeah I've had serious crushes before but he was different. You know how with the normal crush guy you just kinda get excited or flustered when he's around, and your heart's beating like crazy? Well. I didn't get excited with Guowei around me. I felt calmer. I felt glad. I felt... The world's ok. Coz how could it not be? And my heart didn't beat like crazy. It beat just fine. Ok well, there was crazy beating when people asked me about it but never with him. He wasn't exactly like X but they had some very similar traits.
And now imagine: Party Boy's like BOTH of them. My mind (and stomach) was just reeling. I wouldn't say I was like fatally attracted or anything but I did want find out what this guy was all about. Yet at the same time I wanted him to just disappear. I wanted nothing to do with him. It was kinda confusing. Still is actually. I still can't help thinking about what kind of person he actually is. Haven't stopped thinking actually. I hope I never have to see him again.
'Twas a good break from school stuff. Though there were a couple of unexpected (but by no means unpleasant) surprises...
1) Saw Jasmine again after too long!! I'd kinda forgotten that she and Mel were friends. The last time we met up was the Marche outing that we had when Debz was back for the hols. I suppose being in different faculties which are like miles away from each other plays a big big factor but MY GOODNESS!!! Is it really so hard for a bunch of old pals to meet up for lunch or something? Come to think of it I haven't exactly seen Pukey since before the mid-term break and I haven't seen Sharon for a while either. EEK.. Must start planning regular lunch/dinner/study dates again. Else I don't think I'll ever get to see these people until Sharon's engagement party. Gah.
2) Second thing wasn't exactly a surprise I guess. It was more of "woah... deja vu..". Met a fellow there who reminded me so much of two people. The first person... Won't mention his name for various reasons. :p But this person, call him X, kinda set the standard in some way. He's not someone I ever had feelings for. We were just always good friends but he's just become one of the more important guys in my life. And I think if I ever fell for someone he'd be something like X. Which brings me to the second person that I was reminded of.
Guowei.
***Warning: Stop reading now if you wanna be spared a lot of whining and nonsense and mush. Yes. Mush.
I know I know. Aren't I supposed to be over him by now? Yes, I am. But hey! I'm entitled to some nostalgia! Anyhow. Party Boy reminded me of Guowei as well. Not a bad thing but not necessarily a good thing as well. Guowei was the first guy I actually thought I could have a serious relationship with, which is saying a lot. I mean yeah I've had serious crushes before but he was different. You know how with the normal crush guy you just kinda get excited or flustered when he's around, and your heart's beating like crazy? Well. I didn't get excited with Guowei around me. I felt calmer. I felt glad. I felt... The world's ok. Coz how could it not be? And my heart didn't beat like crazy. It beat just fine. Ok well, there was crazy beating when people asked me about it but never with him. He wasn't exactly like X but they had some very similar traits.
And now imagine: Party Boy's like BOTH of them. My mind (and stomach) was just reeling. I wouldn't say I was like fatally attracted or anything but I did want find out what this guy was all about. Yet at the same time I wanted him to just disappear. I wanted nothing to do with him. It was kinda confusing. Still is actually. I still can't help thinking about what kind of person he actually is. Haven't stopped thinking actually. I hope I never have to see him again.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
*Yawn*
-JS2227 Japan and China Lecture with Terada Takashi.
-Big improvement from Moose, but still incredibly yawn-able.
-Lt 14. Damn cold. Sensitivity to extreme temperatures kicking in. Can't breathe. *gack*
-Improvement in the ankle area though still cannot sit cross-legged, rotate ankle or do funny gymnastics. Going down the stairs requires some amount of skill
-Am super stoned and lazy and that's why am writing in point form today instead of usual paragraphs. zzz
-Have a rather mentally-confused person sitting next to me. Mel Fann is alternately wanting to snore (at the lecture) and laugh (at my antics).
-Have totally lost Terada and no longer know what he is talking about. Mebbe I shld be attempting to pay some attention.
-There goes my Flamenco lesson tonight. Dammit.
-Surely one hour is more than enough attention for Terada. Or any other lecturer for that matter.
-30 min more to freedom and to the end of another $10 as I take a cab home. *sob sob*
-Conclude that sprained ankles are a conspiracy of taxi drivers to earn a lot of money.
-Big improvement from Moose, but still incredibly yawn-able.
-Lt 14. Damn cold. Sensitivity to extreme temperatures kicking in. Can't breathe. *gack*
-Improvement in the ankle area though still cannot sit cross-legged, rotate ankle or do funny gymnastics. Going down the stairs requires some amount of skill
-Am super stoned and lazy and that's why am writing in point form today instead of usual paragraphs. zzz
-Have a rather mentally-confused person sitting next to me. Mel Fann is alternately wanting to snore (at the lecture) and laugh (at my antics).
-Have totally lost Terada and no longer know what he is talking about. Mebbe I shld be attempting to pay some attention.
-There goes my Flamenco lesson tonight. Dammit.
-Surely one hour is more than enough attention for Terada. Or any other lecturer for that matter.
-30 min more to freedom and to the end of another $10 as I take a cab home. *sob sob*
-Conclude that sprained ankles are a conspiracy of taxi drivers to earn a lot of money.
Monday, October 04, 2004
Viral Fever... Abscess... Now...
AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
Today is just not my day.
First of all there was the American Law mid-term, for which I only studied a couple of readings, so I was just crapping my way through the whole thing. But I can live with lousy mid-terms.
Nooo... The wonderful part is this - I was up until about 3am studying for this thing before I went to bed. But I COULDN'T SLEEP!!! No matter what I did! ARGH. So I got up again at 6am disgruntled and slightly harrassed. Did the entire mid-term with my brain half-covered in wool. Bah.
And the Even More Wonderful Part!! On my way to my paper, I walked across one of the carparks and tripped on one of those holed tiles they usually put in outdoor carparks. So I fell into the stupid hole and sprained my ankle. Well... At first I thought it was just a slight sprain coz it didn't hurt that much after the initial sharp pain. So I carried on my usual business. But as the day dragged on, my ankle continued to swell and swell and soon I was limping to my Japan & China tutorial. Turns out it's a sprain-sprain. Hurumph..
Now comes the absolute icing on the cake. After tut, I go down to the canteen with Mel Fann to her TS meeting.
And then I slip down the stairs.
Today is just not my day.
First of all there was the American Law mid-term, for which I only studied a couple of readings, so I was just crapping my way through the whole thing. But I can live with lousy mid-terms.
Nooo... The wonderful part is this - I was up until about 3am studying for this thing before I went to bed. But I COULDN'T SLEEP!!! No matter what I did! ARGH. So I got up again at 6am disgruntled and slightly harrassed. Did the entire mid-term with my brain half-covered in wool. Bah.
And the Even More Wonderful Part!! On my way to my paper, I walked across one of the carparks and tripped on one of those holed tiles they usually put in outdoor carparks. So I fell into the stupid hole and sprained my ankle. Well... At first I thought it was just a slight sprain coz it didn't hurt that much after the initial sharp pain. So I carried on my usual business. But as the day dragged on, my ankle continued to swell and swell and soon I was limping to my Japan & China tutorial. Turns out it's a sprain-sprain. Hurumph..
Now comes the absolute icing on the cake. After tut, I go down to the canteen with Mel Fann to her TS meeting.
And then I slip down the stairs.
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