I hate it when I try to speak about something seriously, and no one takes me seriously. They tease and they joke and they just flat out refuse to realize how bothered or how concerned I may actually be. Most times, I guess I can see their side of it - the funny side or ridiculous side of the matter. Those times, frustrated as I may feel about not being taken seriously, I can still laugh it off. Sometimes, the issue bothers me too much. Sure. I'll may laugh it off with them at the moment, but afterwards I still just feel like shit about it.
Or have I actually become so much of an over-achiever that people around me can no longer believe me when I tell them that I'm worried that I've failed. Again. I doubt it though. I'm still the lazy-ass person I've always been. Maybe I'm just hardworking compared to the people here. In which case, then they are all just stupid little shits. Well. They always have been stupid little shits. I guess this just makes them even more stupid, and more shitty.
I failed once. Big time. I don't want to fail again.
1 comment:
er... thank you? not sure what the appropriate response should be.
not really too upset about the paper anymore. the point i was trying to make here was that.. i was just really upset that some people i thought were friends couldn't actually tell that i was genuinely worried about it at the time. instead they were just laughing it off and teasing me about it when really, i just wanted someone to talk to about it.
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