There And Back Again

Year came, year past. Many things have changed.

Title has a couple of meanings I think...

First off, I'm back from Japan. Been back since Monday 1am. It was great walking around Tokyo -- alone for the first 2 days and with my mum and her friend for the last 2 and a half. Got myself a relatively good electronic dictionary for about $150SGD. Couldn't afford to get a digital camera for Mars though (sorry Mars).. Coz my mum only gave me $500SGD to spend over 4 days and I can tell you that Tokyo isn't exactly cheap. Bought a lot of sweets for the friends though. And little gifts too. Can tell you that I'm totally in love with Japan now. Hoping that I can work there for at least a year one day.

Once was there, now is gone. Once was empty now is filled.

Then I came home. And I went to visit the mock camp organized by FWOC. And I felt my heart breaking into a million little pieces each of the two days I went. Yesterday was a day of games at Sentosa and despite their repeated calls to get into the water, all I wanted to do was watch them play and have fun. It was like watching...a memory? I don't know. I felt glad to see them all, but sad as well. Today they played at the SRC and I went down again. Watched them practice the mass dance, then joined them for the BBQ. I almost didn't want to leave.

But what the new sights and sounds may be,

Some of my friends who read this will think I'm totally mad and will probably be absolutely annoyed with me. But I miss them.

There's one thing that will never change:

I miss them so much sometimes I wanna cry. I miss my block, I miss the choir, KRX, my own band of Fwocers... I miss the whole insanity of staying there. Home is so quiet I could just go mad.

I'm sorry to both groups of my friends. My friends from hall.. I'm sorry I left so suddenly. My friends outside of hall.. I'm sorry for this annoying indecisiveness.

A family. Thats what you are....